It's fall my Angel. I still miss you so much. Always will my Honey Bunny Boy. Are you having fun in the leaves?

Marmalade was an Angel in life before he became an Angel at Rainbow's Bridge. He had a big halo above his head. Any new kitty was always welcome. I was blessed to have such a wonderful kitty for 17 years, 2 months and 6 days.

Marma didn't want to leave. The cancer came on so fast. He never showed any signs. He wasn't throwing up; he was eating, not losing weight. We just thought it would be a couple of days. We thought he might pass at home in his sleep. His dear vet put a pain patch on him and let me take you home. But Marm didn't want to leave Mama. He continued to give me love even though he was sick. A few days later I took him back and she put another pain patch on you. This was on a Monday (12/04/2006) I was blessed with another couple of days. Two weeks ago he had stopped walking. He had severe arthritis and neuropathy from diabetes. I could handle the not walking. I had bought him a special Slee Pee Time bed and a special Mobility Unit. I had also brought him a special litter box. But cancer was another story. It was eating him up, growing fast. He had edema because blood protein was so low. I had to stop his daily fluids because he couldn't utilize them. He was hemorrhaging under his skin. My vet gave him Vit. K for this. It helped but the hemorrhaging would always start again. I nursed him for the blessed few days I had left with him, took pictures, loved him, kissed him, and slept with him holding his little paw, kissing and touching his beautiful face, arms wrapped around him. My Baby, I miss you so much. He was hanging on for me. He wanted to make sure Mama would be all right without him. He always took care of mama. On 12/05/2006 I called the vet and said I wanted to help him cross over. On 12/06/2006 at around 10:00 a.m. I helped my baby cross.
MY MARMA MY LIFE MY LOVE I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU I MISS YOU SO MUCH. It's now Oct. 14, 2009, and I'm still crying. I miss you and love you so much. I think of you every day. I renewed your residency. Your residencey is now perpetual. If something happens to me you will always have a home. Of course we'll be together then. I can't wait for that day. I'm sorry honey boy. Will the pain ever stop. I long to be with you Marma.

You always met me at the door when I came home. I could always hear you on the other side of the door with that little rusty meow. When I was sick you where always there. When I had foot surgery and couldn't walk you laid in bed with me. Your little warm body laying so close. My baby. My love. My life.

My mother loved you so much. You where the only cat given full run of her house, and you where the only cat EVER TO BE ALLOWED ON HER DINNER TABLE. You wound everyone around your little paw.

I'll never forget the first time I saw you, so little, so brave, so cute... You where just about 3 weeks old (they had taken you away from your kitty mama) you where running across the floor, little tail in the air. I picked you up, looked into those eyes and fell in love. "You need a Mama", I said. Our special bond had been formed. You where a bottle-fed baby, which made the bond even closer. Even as a tiny baby you where always with mama. I would be getting ready for work and you where always curled up beside me.

You loved to play. You loved your Bata Bird. Your most favorite toy was your sparkler. In the morning before work your daddy used to play with you and your sparkler. You would come out running with the sparkler in mouth. Your daddy and I would cheer...."YEAH, MARMALADE, YEAH, MARMALADE!!! We had many many years of great play and love.

You where always such a brave little guy. You battled a megacolon for years. You became early CRF, which was not problem. You took some fluids, potassium, blood pressure meds. My wonderful vets watched over you and you where fine. You played. You where happy. Then in Aug. 2004 you got the dreaded Hematoma. Somehow I knew this was the beginning of the end. Mama's instinct. You then became diabetic. You started having pancreatic problems, liver problems.So much medicine.Then you started having problems with your legs, arthritis and neuropathy.Then this nasty cancer mass.Just too much for your little body.God bless Memorial Cat Hospital, the great vets and technicians for taking such good loving care of you over the years.

Now you're at Rainbows Bridge running, playing, your little body healed.I can't wait to see you again my sweetie.Life is lonely without you.It was so hard to let you go, but I had to. My Love My Life My Little Honey Bunny Boy.I'll leave with the songs I sang for you. He's my honey honey honey.My little honey honey boy.He's my little honey honey.My little honey bunny boy.I love you, you love me. Where just one big family. I love you. I love you(then a kiss on the nose.We also had one that was to the tune of Jingle Bells.Marmalade,Marmalade, Marmalade,Marm,Marmalade,Marm,Marm.If you want to do it the right way to rock your night away do it the Marmalade way because the Marmalade is the right to rock your night away.

I will always love you Marmalade.My little brave soul. Marmalade my life my love.My little honey bunny boy.

Love and Kisses,Mama >^..^<

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
(David Romano)
When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see....
If the sun should rise and find your
eyes filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today...
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you...
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me, too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
pleae try to understand...
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by the "paw",

And said my place was ready
in heaven far above...
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.

So when tomorrow starts with without me,
don't think we're far apart...
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.

10/14/2009 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MARMA. LIFE IS UNBEARABLE WITHOUT YOU. I know you are happy and healthy now. You are with God. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU. I JUST TRY TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU MY HONEY BUNNY BOY. If tears could build stairway and memories were a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and stay with you forever. iT IS SO LONG TOO HOLD ON.I MISS SO MUCH MY MARMA. LIFE IS NOT GOOD TO ME. I MISS SO MUCH.