Everyday was a joy waking up to see you, cooking for you, feeding, brushing, walking you. I loved your hundreds ways of catching my attention to play with you.

When I went away for half a day or a month, you welcomed me back with the same enthusiasm. When I was sad or upset you came to me and put your chin on my lap and with those loving soft eyes made me whole again.

We all so much loved you and we are all so heartbroken, but none more than me! You are forever woven into every shred of my existence and my heart will have a piece missing forever.

Thank you my beloved Rosie.

13-Dec-2020: My dear Rosie it's to the minute a week since we bid farewell and I miss you so so much. I think of you all the time and feel you sitting there watching me work, bike, cook, watch TV, sleep every minute of the day. I have been on my Rosie walk everyday often with tears and I talk to you all the way, telling you what a good girl you are or how good a job you did chasing the squirrels up the trees. My days have been dimmer and I have been so joyless. Cecilia is also missing you so much. We've been having crying parties almost every night. Today, has been a very hard day as last week in the morning you were such a big part of my life and by noon you'd extinguished. Can't wait to be with you again, which is odd for me because I don't believe to after life but hoping to be with you again one day is a big comfort for me.

Good bye for now as I pick myself up to manage another day.
Your loving dad, Ardi

20-Dec-2020: My dear lovely Rosie, my heart misses a beat every time I look around and don't see you in one of your favorite spots. I go for a walk every night, these days around midnight when there's nobody around so I can call you, talk to you and cry. I go through your routes, often stopping at junctions asking you which way you want to go. I stop at spots I remember you often left your p-mail and let your memory lead me through our streets aimlessly. Today, it's 2 weeks since you left me behind and the memory of your eyes saying goodbye hardly leaves my thoughts. I kneel down on your favorite sofa pretending you're there warping may arms around you as you press your head into my arms. We truly hit the jackpot the day we brought you home. Everyone adored you and you were so gentle with everyone who came your way.

Thinking of you every day my lovely Rosie, my sweet girl!
Your loving friend, Ardi

27-December-2020: My lovely Rosie, it's 3 weeks to the minute since we said goodbye and my heart still aches like the first day. I keep taking my Rosie walks and keep talking with you daily. There are still may of our routes I haven't been on and the first time is hard on each. Last week, we drove by Rouge Valley with everyone in the car and we all remembered how excited you would get approaching it and how you would run around full of joy any time of the year. I posted your loss with a picture on the neighbourhood app recently came out called Next Door and I've had over 60 messages from our neighbours. There isn't a day going by that you are not mentioned. Cecilia and I are still in a mess. Last night we stopped by our friends next to your favourite local park and all four of them were very sad and in particular Sophie who really loved you.

Thinking of you my sweet good girl,
Your loving Ardi

3-January-2021: It's 4 weeks to the minute since you left me so empty and took a big part of me with you. Your sofa is still as it was and I have wrapped your collar around the blanket you were last resting on and put it on the soft along with 3 pictures of you. We talk and think of you every day and I go on my Rosie walks almost everyday. When I come down early in the mornings, I remember how excited you would get and we would have a big hug. I would go for my swims at the Y or into the office for my workout and you had learned that we would go for your morning walk after I come back and in the meantime you often went upstairs in our bedroom which was still dark to sleep more. We had a big snowfall this week and I remembered last time we were shovelings the driveway, you were sitting on top of a big pile of snow enjoying the cold on your belly. Miss you so much. I went to drop something at Molly's house and she ran out and went into the minivan thinking you'd be there - so sad!

Living with your memory every day my beautiful golden girl,
Your devoted Ardi

10-January-2021: It's now 5 weeks I haven't seen your beautiful smile and wagging tail acknowledging me when I come down in the middle of night and you're too sleepy to jump up. Every ounce of me misses you all the time. I have a massive project that is taking all my time, almost 14 hours a day. You would be so bored and I would be getting anxious for not being able to spend time with you. So, from that point, you're not missing much. It's all snowy and frozen and so some of the walks would be hard on tour paws and snow would get stuck and you would stop again, holding a paw up looking at me to come pull out the frozen clumps. I was in Cecilia's room tonight and we both said, this will about the time you would come up saying, here you are guys! And, you would lie down on the carpet waiting for us to go down. Cecilia would lie down and cuddle up with you and you roll over totally relaxed looking totally dead! Oh shit you are dead and I so much f'ing miss you. Hey everyone, I miss my golden girl. Bring her back. That was too soon.

Have fun and I think of you every hour of every day that I am awake.
With so much love and crying heart,
Ardi

17-January, 2021: 42 days since we bid farewell and 42 nights and not a day had gone by without your thoughts all day. I have filled my desktop directory with pictures of you with each of us in the family and your pictures pop up on my 4 screens all the time now and fill my heart with joy and sorrow - you were truly glorious. You were the best dog in the world - 60 lbs of pure luxury, beauty, patience, unconditional love and filled our family with so much love and joy. We really had a lot of good time together. I miss you and your eyes looking into mine every day. How I miss holding you in my arms and hugging you.

With all my love and crying heart,
Ardi

24-January, 2021: 8 weeks and not a moment are you out of my mind. Yesterday, I did something very hard. Drove over to the hospital I last felt your breath and loving eyes comforting me to the last seconds of your life to pick up your ashes and a memorial frame and locks of your fur. I cried all the way there and back. Also, yesterday Molly came for a visit for a couple of hours and for the first hour she ran around looking for you. She sniffed all your toys, still under the round table, your bed now a shrine with your leash, collar, blanket neatly wrapped in a roll. She settled in the end, I think either understanding you were gone or thinking you're away. We'll see how she reacts next time.

With all my love and still crying heart,
Ardi

31-January, 2021: 9 weeks and I'm stuck on you, so hopelessly. I can't believe you're gone - just like that. Your were everyone's therapist and so tuned to all of our needs. Isabel isn't feeling good these days and you used to go to her a cuddle up to her and comfort her and now you're not here. I keep looking at your photos of the last month and now can see how you were trying to tell me something wasn't right. I remember getting an inkling but just refused to accept that anything that serious can be wrong with MY Rosie. Oh, how I miss those eyes and hearing you groan every time I lied next to you and held you in my arms and put my head neat to yours. How you loved it and how you would talk to me.

With all my love and my crying heart,
Ardi

7-February, 2021: 10 weeks and counting and still not an hour goes by that you're out of my mind. I went for a long walk today. It was sunny and pretty warm for 7th February @ -7C! On Thursday as I was about to get on my bike, I looked outside and saw Jennifer and Molly going past and when they got to our driveway, Molly sat down and wouldn't move. So, I rushed out and brought her in. As before she ran around for almost 20 minutes looking for you before she settled down with first Cecilia and then jumped on our bed and cuddled up to Isabel who is in bed everyday. I walked her back later in the afternoon with tears in my eyes imagining you were at the end of the leash.

With all my love and crying heart for my dear sweet Rosie,
Ardi

21-February, 2021" 11 weeks since we had to let you go. Your eyes and your tired face is still in my mind and will be with me forever. Isabel is looking for a service dog and I feel horrible thinking of having to go through this again. I will not be writing here every week, but as I just uploaded a picture, your couch is still there with your collar, box of your ashes, bundles of your fur in a bag, your towel and pictures. I visit you there, talk to you every night and sometimes in the middle of night. Isabel sometimes takes the box of your ashes up to her bed and cuddles up to you. You are never out of our thoughts and heart. My days are just a little bit dimmer without your here. I miss you getting up on the couch in my office and putting your chin up on the armrest watching me while I work but I see you in my mind doing just that all the time.

With all my love and crying heart for my dear beloved sweet good girl Rosie,
Ardi

28- February, 2021 12 weeks now! How I play these last few weeks in my mind day after day and regret not seeing all your pain. The house is empty, empty, empty without you. I miss everything about you. Every walk, which is not that often since you've gone is full of your memories. Every time I see a dog, I go all soft and tears well up. Mommy was also in tears this morning and said she would need another dog soon. She can't bear not not having you around and thinks another golden. There will never be another dog in the world like you and I can't bear to think of any other dog and anything else will always be measured against you.

With a crying heart every day for the best fluffy girl in the world,
Ardi

June 6, 2021 - 6 months since you left me! My darling Rosie, most precious companion. Even though the pain of the first days have subsided, I still pine after you every day, my heart aches and your pictures are all over my desk anc omputer deasktop. We talk of you very often - several times a day. Our neighbour David got a Golden they call Ella. He has been bringing her over every Friday around 5 PM since she was 10 weeks old and she is now half grown to her size. She looks so much like you, comes in and jumps on the sofa and goes right to your corner and lies done in the fashion you used to and looks at me. I some times think it's you. She is very affectionate toward me. For a few minutes I am connected to you through Ella. I love you and miss you so much my dear dear Rosie.
Ardi

December 6, 2021 - My darling, darling Rosie, it's now a year since you left me. I have felt your absence every day, every walk, every morning waking up, every night going to bed, every week not cooking for you, and all the moments I would have held you in my arms and stroke your beautiful head. I miss hearing your breath close to me and our walks. The joy of freedom on our walks on Seaton Trail, in Algonquin Park, swimming in the lakes fills me with longing and brings tears to my eyes. Winter is here again, snow reminds me of your last days, your sad in-pain eyes suffering from your cancer we didn't know anything about and it hurts so much thinking about it. But the snow also reminds me of your joy of hopping through it like a bunny until clumps of snow filled your darling paws and you'd come to me holding them up to wipe them for you. I love you forever, my dear dear Rosie.
Ardi

December 6, 2022 - My darling Rosie, it's now 2 years since you left me. Isabel has a lovely Pohenix that more and more is begining to be like you. Though no dog will ever be as gentle and loving as you. We still talk about you and how much we all miss you. Your photos are still on all my four screens and you become the subject of a conversation on every call. I love you and miss you everyday and when I go to lie down on the sofa in my office I feel your presence next to me as always. I love you forever, my darling Rosie
Ardi

December 6, 2023 - My darling Rosie, 3 years passes since we had say to goodbye but your love and thoughts has never left me. You were 'my' first dog and you opened me up to all dogs with your friendliness to all dogs. Every time I see a golden, I feel an ache in my chest and rush over to hug them and feel a little of what you gave me everyday so selflessly. Your picture is everywhere, in my office, on all my desktops and in our living room. We still talk about you; you will always take a big place in my heart and everyone else. I love you forever dear Rosie.