I had no idea you were just jealous and wanted me all to yourself. As time went on and illness came to my beloved other felines,then it became you and I. The love of my life for eternity, we saw each other through sickness and health. Forgive me for ever leaving your side in those early years, flying off to the UK after Rusty passed away, unable to deal with my own pain. I wasn't the best at handling things. What a fool, I didn't have the ability to see through your beautiful eyes. When I came back, my worst nightmare, my intuition told me you had the same affliction that took your brothers lives, CRF. Then my energies went out to you, I treated you for it for over 5yrs, you fought that awful disease like a warrior goddes you are. The Doctors were amazed your bun and crea. were always stable. I wasn't going to lose you too! Years later lurking in the dark corners was a disease I didn't know about, cancer...by that time it was too late. Still, instead of just loving you in your last days, I had to keep giving you vitamins, assist feeding you,more test, looking for the magic pill to buy us time, the right herb, a differant formula. When I just should of held you, I didn't want you to go.
Your sweet beautiful body just couldn't take anymore. The new vet commented that you didn't look sick, it was amazing Sasha, you never stopped looking like a healthy kitten, but it was what was going on inside.

The angels and St. Francis wanted you, and now you are free.

The feel of you, the smell of you, to have that wonderous purr of you, the loss of you at times is too much to bear. You are part of my heart and soul forever. I sleep with your blanket ever night against my face just to recapture your scent. Sasha I never wanted to let you go. I didn't understand how ill you were or I would deny it. Forgive me for ever allowing you to suffer in any way. My only consolation is now, is that you are young in free, no longer burdened with your ill little body. I look forward to the day I cross Rainbow Bridge and my beloved Sasha will be right there waiting for me to pick you up in my arms and hold onto you for eternity.
I love and miss you so much,
All my Luv,
Mommy,
Dory

To my beloved angel who never quite thought of herself as a cat. The time you were copying your brothers with their hunting skills. You caught a chipmunk and meowed a way I never heard before, you came walking out of the woods with a chipmunk in your mouth. He was completely intact because you would never let your teeth penetrate anything alive, to dainty for that. You brought it over to me and dropped it, your prize to me. The poor thing ran as fast as he could, then having your brothers to contend with. Oh those days of be trying to save mice and chipmunks from the sure death by your brothers.
How your brothers would climb the trellis onto the roof and you would daringly follow only to have me rescue you. Oh my baby, you are such a baby.

When illness came you were tough, you fought CRF for over 5yrs, you outlived everyone. Then cancer had to be the evil to claim you, I don't know how to go on without you, but somehow I must.

Sasha the best day I will have again is the day I cross Rainbow Bridge and we will hold on tight for eternity.

I love and miss you every minute of the day.
Mommy

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.

To My Baby
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, Far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.

Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone.

Love was when I loved you,
one true time to hold on to
In my life we'll always go on.

Near, far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.

Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay, forever this way
You are safe in my heart

and my heart will go on and on.