I am so shattered by all of this, that just like I told Tasha, I just don't have the strength of heart or mind to complete your full memorials just yet, but wanted to at least put your page up to honor you,,,,,I will be back to finish both you and your sister's memorials within a few days, after I've had a little time to try to accept this,,,,

I love you so much my baby girl,,,,,Love and Light XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

Hi my sweetie,,,,,I'm sorry I couldn't write your memorial right away, but I needed some time to cope----

I will never forget when you and your sister Tasha came into my life. It was a dark, rainy night, and I was at my mother's house visiting and taking care of her. She lived on a dead end street, with a major highway at the end. As I left my mom's, it was storming like crazy, and I almost decided to turn around and go back and wait. But I kept going, and at the end of her street as I was coming to the highway, I just in time saw this little kitten right in the middle of the road and slammed on my brakes. It was you, chewing on the black top. I jumped out of my car and ran a big circle around you to get between you and the highway, so that you wouldn't get scared and run into the highway. Just as you started to run back into the woods, I saw your sister Tasha peeking out from behind a tree. I came as close as I could to both of you and knelt down on the ground. After about 10 min, you ran up to me, bit me on the knee, and ran back into the woods. I knew right then I had to try to save you both; all I could think was that maybe your mom had been killed on the highway, because you were alone and were both so, so skinny. As Mitch was behind me in his car, I asked him to go back to my mom's and get a carrier, but he thought I was crazy to even think of taking in any more cats. So I called her from my cell, but she had lent the carrier to my sister. I asked Mitch to help me get you into my car somehow. After about an hour, with you, me, and Tasha soaking wet, you were in my car,,,,loose. Well, the ride to my house would normally be less than 30 min, but it took us over an hour, because although the fear made Tasha just go comatose in my lap, you were freaking out :) You tried to go under the dashboard, and I had to pull over and stuff whatever I had in the car under there. Then back and forth you went from the windshield to the back window, jumping around like crazy. It was all I could do to keep us from crashing, and I could barely see in the rain, but all I could think about was how happy I was to have found you, as I truly felt you would never have made it otherwise. Then, all of a sudden, you jumped up on my headrest and starting suckling my neck,,,,i couldn't stop laughing as it tickled so much,,and I could barely drive,,,but by the grace of God we made it home, and you and Tasha began your lives with me.

As Tasha was a very shy girl, and you were very bold, I could not adapt you into the rest of the group, so you guys ended up sharing the main house with Thomas and Precious. You and Tasha became so close, sleeping together, sharing the window perches,,,,,anywhere you went, Tasha went too,,,,she loved you so much. Sadly, I noticed as Tasha was here a while, that something must have happened to her at birth or shortly thereafter, because her one eye was a bit smaller than the other and she seemed to have trouble focusing with it, and also her hind legs never became as strong as they should have, so she was never able to jump up on things that were too high. You, however, made up for it by going anywhere and everywhere! Your favorite place was on top of the kichen cabinets :) And my favorite thing was when I would open the refrigerator, you would jump on top of it and put your paws in, like 'hey, can I get you a drink or something?' I have a photo of you doing that and it always makes me smile. You were such a funny girl.

And boy, were you tough! You could not be told 'no' to anything,,,you would just stare at me and plant your feet, and even at times would come after me :) Most people would have thought you were too aggressive or vicious, but I've had so many babies in my life, that to me this was just part of your unique personality, and I loved it. Tasha was my 'soft paw' and you were the muscle. :)

You and Tasha would also loved when I practiced for my competitions,,,,you would jump up on the pool table and knock balls in with me,,,,it was so funny how you would get annoyed when one didn't go in :) Oh baby, how I miss that so, so much,,,,I haven't been able to practice since you left until yesterday when I tried a little, but I just kept seeing you there and couldn't get through it,,,,, I also haven't been able to sleep,,,,when I lost Thomas and Precious, who used to sleep with me, I went through the same thing. Then you and Tasha started to do it, and you took on the habit of sleeping on my stomach, and since you left, it's been so, so hard trying to sleep,,,,I just so miss you there,,,especially when you would first come up and yap in my face when I was reading, like 'hey, put the book down, it's time to sleep'. I miss you, more than these words can say,,,,,,

I hope you know I will always cherish and be grateful for all the years you gave me, all the laughs, and all the love we shared. I can only hope you are with Tasha again and are whole and happy, and that your life with me was filled with love, fun, and that you always felt safe.

I am again so sorry you became ill and that I had to make that horrible decision,,,,I hope you and Tasha know it was only because I love you and could not let you guys suffer any longer,,,,,,,

I love you with all my heart, and that's where you'll always be,,,,,my sweet, sweet Sasha,,,,hugs, kisses, and no more tears in Heaven. Love and Light my beautiful baby,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

If it should be that I grow frail and weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done?
For this--the last battle--cannot be won.

You will be sad, I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand.
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years;
Please see my need through all your tears.
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please let me go.

I know that now my needs you'll tend,
And stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree,
It is a kindness you do for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering, I have been saved.

Do not grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do.
We have been so close, we two, these years,
Please don't let your heart hold any tears.

Would you know my name, if I saw you in Heaven.
Would it be the same, if I saw you in Heaven.
I must be strong, and carry on, 'cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven.

Would you hold my hand, if I saw you in Heaven.
Would you help me stand, if I saw you in Heaven.
I'll find my way, through night and day, 'cause I know I just can't stay here in Heaven.

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please,,,begging please

Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in Heaven

Would you know my name, if I saw you in Heaven
Would it be the same, if I saw you in Heaven
I must be strong, and carry on, 'cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven

'Cause I know I don't belong here in Heaven,,,,,,

4/25/22: Oh my beautiful girl,,,,today was your cremation service,,,,I brought you home and put you next to your sister in the memorial cabinet, then lit all the candles for you and your sister and all your cousins,,,,,oh how sad I am Sasha,,,,,I will love and miss you always,,,,Love and Light my beautiful baby,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

5/3/22: Hi my baby,,,,,if you've been able to visit, you know how hard it's been without you,,,,I think I see you everywhere, especially on the front window perch---is it you or just my mind playing tricks? As I've written to the others, I am not going to write any deep feeling or emotions on these pages, but I hope you hear me when I talk to you. I miss you more than words can say,,,,,you'll always be in my heart my baby, and I will always love you. Love and Light sweetie face,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

7/5/22: Hi my baby,,,,love and miss you always,,,Love and Light sweetie,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

1/1/23: Happy New Year my sweetie,,,,I'm so sorry I couldn't visit your page for Christmas,,,,it was just so painful, as all of you are gone now and it was my first Christmas alone without any of you, and I just couldn't handle it. I did put up lights and your stockings in the sunroom and house, and hope you visited and saw them. I miss you so, so much, and always will. In my heart, forever,,,,,Love and Light my girl,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

4/23/23: Oh my baby girl,,today it is 1 whole year since you left,,,I just can't believe it and still struggling with losing you and your sister just two days apart. As you know, I'll only write so much out here, but I hope you hear me talking to you today, and every day, and can still feel how much I love and miss you. Oh baby girl,,,how I so miss looking into your eyes, and how you would just bully your way up onto my chest when I was sitting or lying down, and just put your face right up to mine. You were such a tough, feisty girl,,,but such a sweetie deep inside. And oh,,,those beautiful, mesmerizing yellow eyes,,,,I still see them. I will always, always treasure our time together, and no, it's never long enough. I love and miss you so much my baby, and always will. Forever in my heart,,,Love and Light my baby girl,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

12/25/23: Merry Christmas my sweetie girl,,,Love and miss you,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

4/23/24: My beautiful baby girl,,,,today you have been gone 2 years, and it still feels like yesterday that I was able to look into your beautiful eyes, staring right into mine, as you lay on my chest. Oh how I miss your feisty attitude and your funny ways. I hope you heard me talking to you today, and all the other times I talk to you. I also hope you can still feel how much I love and miss you, every minute of every day. Thank you for all the years of love and laughter, and for helping me through some very rough times. All you guys brought so much love into my life, and I'll always be grateful for the time we had together, although it never seems to be long enough. My beautiful baby girl,,,oh how much I miss you,,,,,,Love and Light my angel,,,,XOXOXOXOXOXOXXX

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