There are so many memories that I could fill hundreds of pages but let me start with this:

You were with my Jim when he passed on March 1, 2010 from heart failure. My wonderful husband who left this world while I was stuck in traffic trying desperately to get home from work. Jim would have died alone if not for you, my brave little girl. I found you by his side when I walked in the room. How ironic that 11 years later you, too, died from heart failure. I can't understand the way of the universe sometimes.

Jim affectionately dubbed you "Shuey Sloane"...in reference to a little boy he once knew in Stranraer, Scotland. Huey Sloane was a tiny little boy who loved ice cream cones and had a lisp. But Huey could never say his name correctly due to his lisp...so "Shuey" he was...and many years later, so were you. You reminded Jim of Huey.

For 15 years you slept in the bed with me. You kept me company long after Jim died. Tonight will be the first time you are not there. How am I to go on?

I will never forget how you somehow always knew when I was upstairs...and you waited at the bottom & barked for me. Even the past few days when you were too weak to bark, you still waited for me at the bottom of the stairs.

When you got stuck on the small landing in the hall by the garage, you barked for me to come & get you...and I always said "are you stuck again?" with a smile.

I could go on & on...and one day soon when I have the strength I will come back to this page & write some more. But for now just let me say:

SUNSHINE, LOLLIPOPS and RAINBOWS...because that is how you made me feel and that is what my life was while you were in it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atY7ymXAcRQ&form=MY01SV&OCID=MY01SV

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows
Everything that's wonderful is what I feel when we're together
Brighter than a lucky penny
When you're near the rain goes, disappears, dear
And I feel so fine
Just to know that you are mine
My life is sunshine, lollipops and rainbows
That's how this refrain goes
So come on, join in, everybody
Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows
Everything that's wonderful is sure to come your way
When you're in love to stay

12 June 2021: Have been so despondent since Wed, no energy, so sad. Reading everything I can get my hands on about pets and heaven. So despondent that I was convinced that I would not get a sign from you. Rec'd two signs today...getting ready to move, I had cleaned off the nightstand where I had a pile of clothes in the bedroom where you always slept with me...spent a few hours cleaning...putting things away...then the nightstand was pretty much empty of the pile. Getting ready for mass tonight I heard something suddenly drop onto the floor near my feet. It made a loud enough noise that it caught my attention. It was something that fell from that same nightstand...don't know how since there was no reason for anything to fall from there (nothing was unstable or perched precariously). Imagine this: it was your neon pink collar...the one with the heart-shaped St. Francis tag on it that said "My name is Scarlett"...I had been looking for that collar for months, even prior to losing you...I had given up hope of ever finding it again...a GodWink for sure.

Then, driving in the car tonight...listening to Sirius XM Sixties channel...who comes on but none other than Donovan. I remember how much your daddy Jim loved Donovan...this was a song I had never heard before..."Wear Your Love Like Heaven"...lyrics:
Color in sky, Prussian blue
SCARLETT fleece changes hue
Crimson ball sinks from view
Wear your love like heaven (Wear your love like)
Wear your love like heaven (Wear your love like)
Wear your love like heaven (Wear your love)

Just in case the collar with your name falling to the floor was not enough of a knock on the head to me...then this second GodWink....