Why did this have to happen. I will never know the answer.
When Paws of Austin told me about you i immediately said yes I want her and so I became your mommy and how you loved me and me you. You had been in a puppy mill and was used over and over and then thrown away after being abused and abused. You were put in a kill shelter, and that is when you were noticed and taken away and you became mine. My little girl you became a princess and never cowered again when a hand went up to pat and pet you. YOu were so loved by the family and you were loved so much by me that I can not bear it at all.

You had your pillow along with the others on my bed and on the couch and your baby quilt.

You and Soffee were best friends and loved each other so much. Today and everday since you have been gone Soffee keeps smelling and looking for you. Do you remember when I would go upstairs or go out to get the mail how you and Soffee would do your famous howling for me together until you saw me again. Oh my darling I can't bear it. without you, too.

I thought as did others that we had conquered the Cushings disease, but we had not as you from what the vets said must have thrown a clot to the brain and before we knew it passed away at the ER.
I am waiting for your ashes and I have your pawprint, but I don't have you.

You deserved better in life an innocent beautiful little fur baby who I was so lucky to adopt. You were my princess and how you loved to sit and lay by me and me you and the others.
What am I going to do without you, Spunky, Sassy and Sissy, et al.?

How am I to live without you,' am I to go on without you, yes, I know I must for Soffee and Sarrie and the family., But deep inside can I?

First just 10 days after we lost your "brother Spunky" God decided to take you too. And on the 9th anniversary of Sassy's death.
You were the best of the best.

I was so lucky and so honored to be your mommy. There can never be another you or any of you.

SUNLIGHT STREAMS THROUGH WINDOW PANE UNTO A SPOT ON THE FLOOR....
THEN I REMEMBER AS ALWAYS ITS WHERE YOU USED TO BE,
BUT NOW YOU ARE NO MORE.
OUR FEET WALK DOWN A HALL OF CARPET,
AND MUTED ECHOES SOUND....
THEN I REMEMBER, ITS WHERE YOUR PAWS WOULD JOYOUSLY ABOUND.
A VOICE IS HEARD ALONG THE ROAD, AND UP BEYOND THE HILL,
THEN I REMEMBER, IT CAN'T BE YOURS....YOUR GOLDEN VOICE IS STILL.
BUT I'LL TAKE THAT VACANT SPOT OF FLOOR AND EMPTY MUTED HALL,AND LAY THEM WITH THE ABSENT VOICE AND UNUSED DISH ALONG THE WALL,
I'LL WRAP THESE TREASURED MEMORIALS IN A BLANKET OF MY LOVE AND KEEP THEM FOR MY BEST FRIEND UNTIL WE MEET ABOVE.
Please wait for me and know I am so thankful to God that He brought you to me, and always know that I will love and miss you forever and ever. I will write agin my darling. My eyes are blind with tears.

Your heartbroken mommy

I will forever miss your kisses and your little body next to mine. My God has thou forsaken me? I loved and love her so. I will always carry you in my heart.

Oct.1, 2012

My little darling, oh my God how am I going to go on without you. I can not stop crying. Today your ashes will be picked up and I feel I can not bear it. Why Dear Father in Heaven did my darling little girl have to leave me too. Rest well my darling, run and play with Spunky, Sassy and Sissy and all the rest of mama's precious fur babies

Let the Angels hold you and let them give you a kiss and let that kiss be from me, too. I will hold you in my heart forever and will miss you forever. I love you more than words can ever tell. Your heartbroken Mommy

To my darling precious little girl:

I can not stop crying for all of you, my precious little darling, I am trying so hard to go on without you for Soffee and Sarrie. I miss you more and more everyday as I do all of you.

I love you abd miss you and will forever, my precious beautiful little girl.

Oh how I wish I could just go and get you and bring you home to me, all of you, Sassy, Sissy, Spunky, and you. And all the ones before years ago. I love you all and will forever, Mommy

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
the chain will link again.

-- Author unknown
Oct.1, 2013

Oh my darling I could not write on the 26th as my eyes could not see because of the tears. Oh my Dear G-D how I miss you my darling. MY heart is so broken. I see you in my heart everyday where you lay and where you walked and where you slept with me Soffee and Sarrie. Our darling Spunbky had already left us 10 days before. Oh I can NOT bear it. I need you so. II want you. My darlinbg you were taken from me so quick. I never would have dreamed it. Oh my darling I want to hold you and kiss you and pet your beautiful fur. Please send me someone like you. Oh but therre can never be another like you. Soffee misses you so badly. She has changed in her demeanor. She just lays and I know she looked for you for weeks. My G-D I feel as if I can not bear this pain of not having you near. Please go to G-D and the Angels and let them hold and kiss you for me. Please know that someday we will be together again. I must stop as the tears are blinding my eyes.
Play with Sassy, Sissy Spunky, and all the rest of mommy's furbabies at the bridge with you. Tell them I love them and I miss all of you. You as the rest will always be my best friend and my baby.
Remember to come to me, I love you and always will. I will love and miss you forever, You live in my heart.
I never dreamed I would lose you so quickly. I am so heart broken and always will be. Remember I love you and will always miss you, always will. Your heartbroken Mommy.

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