My darling how am I supposed to live without you? How am I supposed to go on. I know I must for your "sisters" Sarrie, Shainee and Soffee who I love so fiercely and who you loved too except if they came near your food. And they knew not to mess with your food because mama would not allow it just as for them.
I look at the spot on my bed where your pillow lay and you are not there, I look at the couch where you liked to lay and where I put soft pillows for you to lie on. My God how can I bear it. Daddy had to leave us because of 2 severe strokes almost 6 years ago and I am alone, but you all kept me going.

I remember the day I rescued you a little one maybe 2 months old and how sick you were and how with the help of God and the vets we pulled you through. How precious you always were. So stoic always, so regal, so majestic.
I lost your sisters Sassy and Sissy and I was so devastated and love them still and always will, all rescues, they are on here too. So I went and rescued Soffee, and Sarrie and Shainee as I felt the way I came across them Sissy and Sassy had sent them to us. Now I am too old and sick to adopt another and I know God understands.

The memories of you will live on forever,
But I want you.

My darling there are so many memories and how you loved to go outside with me and when daddy was here and then we would be sitting in the gazebo and you would go up to daddy for him to pick you up and put you on his lap and talk to you and pet you. And then when daddy was gone you would do that to me. How you loved to be in the grass and smell it and bark if your sisters were barking, oh how I will miss that bark and those days. The mornings and nights are so sad for me, i see where ever I step. When you became sick, you never complained and went on with life as though you were healthy, and I tried oh God I tried to do all it would take to make you well again. But your little heart became so sick and we were able to keep you going for almost two years with the help first of God and the veterinarians and me mommy who kept a chart everyday of your meds and gave them faithfully night and day, it was never too hard for my baby. My little boy.

Where have you gone my little one, my little one where have you gone without me? You never wanted me out of your sight and so I made sure of that. You were so majestic, how I love you and I will carry you in my heart as I do Sassy and Sissy and all the others before them.

When someone came over or if I was at the kitchen table how you would come and bark as you wanted something to eat, too and how I or we would laugh and always gave you and the girls a taste. And then at night when we were all in bed all of you on your pillows and your baby quilts, you let me know you were still hungry and wanted something and so I would go and get you a treat for all of you. Sometime you would keep it up and want more, but I knew too many was not good for you and so I would sing to you all and you would lay down and listen. And then go to sleep and I would lay there and cry for your daddy and all I had lost and I was so afraid your illness would take you and so I lay and prayed and prayed. For a while God heard my prayers and you were okay not well, but okay, but then all of a sudden you became so ill and God sent His angels to lift you up to HIm and to the Rainbow Bridge. I said if you had to go then you would go in my arms and you did here at home at 12:30 Am on Sept. 16, into my arms and your "aunt" Janelles arms who was petting you as you lay on the couch under Oxygen. I will never forget my screams that night and how I didn't want to live either, but Morris and Janelle said I must go on for you would want me to and for the sake of my three little girls, God Bless them all.

I shall walk in the sun above

Whose golden light you loved.

I shall sleep alone and, stirring, touch an empty place.

I shall write uninterrupted.

Would that your gentle paw could stir my moving

pen just once again.

I shall see beauty, but none to match

your living grace.

I shall hear music, but none so sweet as the

droning song with which you loved me.

I shall fill my days, but I shall not, can not, forget.

Sleep soft dear friend, for while I live

You shall not die.

There is so much I could say about the wonder of you and I know this that God gave you to me as a special gift. You will always live on in my heart and I will love and miss you forever.
You were my little boy and I will always remember the way you would look at me with those big dark eyes filled with love.
How you loved to go on rides and when Kim would take us I remember how you always loved it.
Through it all, my darling you were always the little gentleman, the one who never complained no matter what was done to you when you were sick and always you were so stoic and loving and loved me no matter what.
I will love you forever. Mama

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If tears could build
a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to Heaven
and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.

My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today~
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.

Please go to your sisters and all mommy has lost and tell them I love and miss them all and they will all live on in my heart forever.

Darling, let the angels hold you and please Dear God tell the angels to give him a kiss for me and hold him in your arms he is new to being away from me.

Sept. 22, 2012

I sit here crying again. i am alone with my three little girls.I remember so much about your love. How sweet and gentle and how loving you were. How you never let anyone know that you were being hurt to try to save you. Oh my precious how you filled my life with joy and happiness. There are so many memories, you coming to where I was and me picking you up to love me. You were so brave, loved to lie where I was and at night when I carried you up he stairs how you knew because of your bad heart you could not climb the stairs so you waited on your little bed for me to pick you up and to carry you up the stairs to put you on our bed and the three little sisters Soffee, Shainee and Sarrie following us behind and since Mommy's bed is high off the ground I would pick them all up and put them on our bed. You knew which bed was yours I had 2 pillows for you and all of you and your baby quilts and you knew which was yours. I always kept a water bowl on the bed at the foot on an waterproof mat and you knew that it was there for you, too. Oh my God how do I go on> I know your sisters need me and I love them as much. You were such a little gentleman, and you were sweetness personified, and I miss you more than I could ever tell. Please come to me and let me know you are still here with me somehow. You live in my heart and I will always remember you forever.

Sept.17, 2013,

Oh my darling, my little boy, Yesterday was one year since you left me. I can not bear it my darling. I cried and cried for you all day yesterday and today again. Oh my G-D how I need you. How I want to hold you in my arms again. I miss you more than I can ever tell my darling. Please let the Angels hold you and run and play with Sassy, Sissy, Shainee and all the others. I can barely see to write. My eyes are so clouded with tears.

Can you come back to me in my dreams? Oh G-d I can not bear this. I love you more than words can ever say. Run now and play and tell the Angels to let you have a treat which you would bark for. Oh how I miss hearing you bark.
Let the Angels and G-d hold and hug you for me.
I will see you again some day. I must live on for Soffee and Sarrie and a new one rescued who needed me Shira. They need me. Say a prayer for me my darlingand for your sisters, and ask G-D to watch over us. You know daddy was gone for the last years of your precious little life because of his stroke. You were my little boy and always will be.
Rest well my darling and think of me everyday as I think of you everyday and I kiss your pictures and tell you Good Morning and Good night. I have your pictures all over the house. As well as Sassy, Sissy and Shainee. You all love one another and get to know all the rest of mommy"s babies from years gone by. Tell them all how I love and miss them all. My precious angels in Heaven.
I love you forever,
I will miss you and love you forever and ever, Mommy

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