August 21, 2012 -- One week without Troi. I think about you all the time and I wonder, "What would Troi say?"
A week later and it's time to reflect. What would Troi say if he could talk to me?
I think he'd say, "Thank you BaaBaa. Thank you for bringing me home to two beautiful houses. I loved running around the golf course and walking by the water. Thank you for taking me in the car to the drive thrus so I could get 'cookie-cookies' from all those nice people. Thank you for giving me all those tummy rubs. Thank you for all the toys you bought me and kisses you gave me. Thank you for taking good care of me when I got so sick and making me eat what I needed to not what I wanted to . Thank you for all the hugs and all the haircuts so I stood out in the crowd. But most of all, thank you for knowing when it was time for me to be laid to rest. Thank you for recognizing my pain and helping me go to that beautiful place called heaven. I will always love you, BaaBaa and one day in heaven I will see you again where I will be able to give you more kisses for my wonderful life with you."

August 26, 2012 -- My first dream of you.
Does a dream mean anything? I'd like to believe it does. This morning I had my first dream of you. You were happy, scampering and playing. You kissed me and looked into my eyes. I felt your happiness and knew you were healthy again. I held you, hugged you and kissed you. Although I cried, they were tears of joy. Come visit me again my little BoBo. You have brought me joy!

August 28, 2012 -- Two weeks ago today.
Two weeks ago today I waited with you until the vet opened and made the call to bring you in. You were so brave and so sick. I was devastated that the day had come that I had to make this choice. It was hard but it was right, and loving. I miss you a lot, my little boy. Mr. Scott is particularly "noisy" today. Does he remember? Yesterday the vet called. You were back. Your ashes are there ready to be picked up. Now I have to decide where to put you. Originally I wanted to dive you down to the ocean floor and let you be with the fish. Now I wonder is that what you would want? I keep thinking that maybe part of you should rest in the "dog field". You always liked that place, fleas and all. Maybe a little part should stay at home and the rest go in the ocean. That's a special place for me. So I will think this over for a few days since the hurricane has chruned up the ocean and diving won't be good for the rest of the week. Whatever I decide, it will be where you will be happy and I will be able to see you, always. I love you, BaaBaa

August 31, 2012 You are in your final resting places.
When I first decided I wanted to dive you down to the ocean floor my good friend, Hope, asked me if you would like that. I honestly hadn't thought about that. I was only thinking about what I wanted so I gave it some more thought and decided there may be something more fitting that would make me happy and be more meaningful to you. So, this morning, August 31, 2012, at 7:00am most of your ashes were scattered in the "dog field" where you liked to play and in the intracoastal under our balcony. After I placed you in the water a school of "jumping fish" swam past to greet you and escort you out to sea. I couldn't have asked for a better goodbye. So my sweet BoBo, you will always be a part of the the land and the ocean. You will play in the ocean, rest in the sunlight and every time I going diving, no matter where I am in the world, I know you will be there with me, at my side and forever in my heart.

September 4, 2012 Three weeks
My sweet BoBo, it's three weeks since you left. I still think about you all the time. This morning I thought I heard you shaking your ears. Time has passed but not enough to qwell your absence. There is a void in my life that is hard to fill: a routine that that is no more. Three weeks ago I sat down and wrote a tribute to you on my Facebook page to express my sadness and my love. You will always be my little lamb, my "bestest BoBo". As time passes I will come back here to reread my words and add more. This page will be my legacy to your life -- to a little dog that gave me love and helped me through a difficult time in my life and to whom I will always remember with joy, gratitude and love. My little lamb dog, sleep well, rest well and know you will always hold a special place in my mind and heart, forever.

September 7, 2012
Hi BOBO, How are you? Have you settled into the Rainbow Bridge? It's getting easier for me now. There's not as much pain but that doesn't mean I've stopped thinking about you. I feel the love and miss seeing you every day but the happy times are starting to make their way into my mind more and more. I look at the dog field and see you running -- I look at the water and imagine you frolicking with new fish friends. All over the house there are photos of you and us. I still feel you -- that will never change. Be happy, play and remember how much you were and are still loved.

September 11, 2012
My Sweet boy, it's now four weeks since you left me and now another friend has passed. You met him. His name was Mike and I know he liked you too. Time keeps on going forward but every day I stop and think about you. I don't think that will change for a long time. My memories are you still very vivd and if time is a cure for my sorrow it has only lessened the pain, not eliminated it. You will never stop being a part of my life. I love you, BaaBaa

September 19, 2012
It's more than five weeks and I'm starting to think I would like another puppy -- your breed. If I do get another "BoBo" that one would never replace you.

September 20, 2012
Yesterday I put together a DVD of my favorite pictures and used the song, "You've Got a Friend" as backgrounf music. I now have a book and a DVD. I think I am slowly moving past my grief -- I know you would be the first to give me kisses for that.

September 25, 2012
Hello my sweet boy, It's six weeks today and tonight is the eve of Yom Kippur. When I light my candle for my Mother my prayers will include you. I can't believe it's been this long and not long at all. I think it may be that way with all things lost forever. There are so many things I can remember as if they happened yesterday. Your blanket is still on the chair and hoodie is on the stuffed animal. Sometimes I think I can still smell you or hear you shake your ears. I believe that death does not end life but transitions you into another one. Just as my Mother is at peace, so are you: whole, happy and healthy. I like to think you are at the Rainbow Bridge and just as I know one day I will see my Mother again, I will see you too. Play, sleep and bask in the loving warmth of my memories. You will never be gone from this home or my heart. I love you, BaaBaa

September 26, 2012
You would have been nine years old today. How ironic that of all days it would fall on Yom Kippur. I'm sorry I coudn't celebrate this day with you but the candle burns for you and Mom. It burns to remember your life and all the happiness you brought to me. Sweet dreams little Troi. I love you!

October 2, 2012
I can't beleve it's been seven weeks. Times is going by too fast and in a way too slow. Part of me wants this counting the time to end. If feels too much like obsessing over something that can never change. I still go over that morning in my mind. Holding you and having you fall asleep in my arms. Telling the vet to just give you the shot because I didn't think you needed to be "tranquilzed". You were so sick and docile I didn't want to prolong your suffering any second more than necessary. Part of me worries that you felt pain. I have been online reading how vets do euthenasia and that other shot seemed to be optional. A lot of the websites said that "they may decided to give a tranquilizer first". I hope that skipping that didn't cause you any discomfort. You went to sleep so fast I can't imagine it did. If it did I'm sorry. I hope it didn't and I know right now it really makes no difference because you are gone. So, I started a portrait of you. It will be my best painting yet. Even "Grandpa" is giving good feedback. It should be done the week I get back to class on October 19 or maybe the 26th. I'm posting it in the photo album now because it is pretty good! Hope you agree. Have you made friends at the rainbow bridge? At least one? I know dogs were never your favorite but now you can relax because you and all the puppies you meet have a lot in common. You have taken a special journey to a place of happiness and peace. I don't plan on visiting you there very soon but one day I will. Keep an eye out for me. In the meantime, look for a another doggie who looks like you named Teddy. He knew me way before you. I was a lot younger back then and didn't appreciate the gift of love a dog gives the way I do now. Tell him that for me. I love you!! BaaBaa

October 18, 2102
Good morning my sweet boy. It's been a while since I checked in -- I had a little work done on me so I took time off from the computer, but not time off from missing you. Your name pops up in a lot of my discussions. It's hard to believe that my birthday is approaching and you won't be here to celebrate it with me and Scottie. I never would have thought that last year at this time. Speaking of time, it is passing fast. Over two months now. When people come to visit they all look at the photo book I made about you. Tomorrow I am going to finish your protrait. It was/is a labor of love. I swear at times Scottie sees you. Maybe it's an animal thing, I'm not sure but every once in a while he'll start making noises like the ones he made when you scampered around the house.. You are still in my thoughts and last night you were in my dreams. I was carrying you somewhere. Maybe it's symbolic of holding you near me and carrying your memory in my heart. That's where you are my little BoBo, always in my heart.

October 19, 2012
My Little BoBo, I had wanted to finish your portrait today but the teacher had other plans for the class Even though my heart wasn't in the assignment I tried to do it but came up dissapointed with results. I feel frustrated that my goal of finishing this project, one very close to my heart, was not accomplished. Maybe I am overly sensitive because of my surgery but it has made me very angry and upset. I am doubting that I will continue with the class. I have brought the painting home and will finish it here. It is at the point where all I need to do is a couple last minute things and sign it. Just wanted to let you know that. All my love, BaaBaa

October 20, 2012
Little BoBo, I am still sorry about the painting; so much so I dreamt about the day I had to put you down last night. That event lives in mind. That is one of the reasons I cannot think about getting another puppy and having to do it again. I know you understand. I keep looking at the unfinished painting but the more I look into the eyes I painted, the more I think I see you and now I'm not sure I want to make any changes. I wrote the teacher last night that I would not be coming back to class. It's over and done with so on to sometthing else. I want to paint underwater scenes. Remember how I used to go diving all the time? The things I saw were beautiful. That's why part of you is in the water. I want you to see what I saw and when I start a new painting with fish and coral, your face will be in it somewhere. There will be a hint of your eyes, a piece of that little brown nose I loved and your ear bobs swaying in the currents. That will be a new tribute to you my sweet, little, boy.

October 21, 2012
I said my peace to the instructor -- no more classes from her. SO I sit here and look at the painting. It may be "unfinished" but I see you in it. I see your eyes looking back and they seem so real to me. It's almost as if you are looking into my soul to put me at ease. The eyes show love and that's what I wanted to paint. A glimpse into you and your love. So for the time being, the painting will stay as is. It's is on the new easle in the den. People will see it the minute they come in the house; there you are my little boy, greeting and gazing at everyone with love.

October 27, 2012
Hi Little boy, I'm checking in to say hi. Aunt "MJ" was here visiting. It was good to see her but sometimes a visitor can be very tiring. We talked about you a lot. She has had many doggies and just like what I had to do wtih you, she has had to do to all her puppies too. She manages to carry on, as they say in the UK, and as time passes she gets another dog. She knows about the Rainbow Bridge and says you will be meeting her many doggies there. They may be a little larger than you so don't be afraid if a greyhound comes over to say "hi". Everyone loves your painting. They comment on the eyes. I think I am going to keep it this way. Donna just told me the eyes are perfect -- that's the way I feel too. SInce a lot of time has passed I may not be checking in as often as before. That doesn't mean I miss you less it only means my memories are carrying me through the hard times and making it easier for me to cope without you being here. So sleep well my little boy. I will still check in from time to time but I know deep in my heart that you are doing much better now. You have friends and memories like I do and one day we will see each other again. Until then, play, sleep and remember BaaBaa will always love you.

November 4, 2012 Good morning Sweet Boy. Today I am 60 years old. SIx months ago when you were alive I wondered if you would behere to celebrate with me. It was doubtful back then and unfortunately my doubts were true. I have Scottie here but not you. My friends are doing all sorts of nice things for me. Tonight I'm going out with Aunties Lynda and Margaret and even though I will try hard to smile, inside I will not be because one third of my "family" is not here with me. Some days I miss you more than others. This is one of those days. You are in a better place but for today I am going to wish you were here, for just a moment to give me kisses and make me smile. 60 doesn't feel so great right now. I will try to turn that around by tonight; I know you would want me to do that so I will try, for you. XOXOXO BaaBaa

November 18, 2012 Hi Little BoBo -- It's past the three month marker and you're still here, in my mind. It feels like forever but it's not. Three months is nothing when you think about the months and years to come. I remember that morning. It plays over and over again. I doubt it will stop for a while. It's like the morning my Mom died. I remember that like it was yesterday and it's 39 years. Now I know what Dad meant when he said he still feels bad about Teddy, our first dog. I keep thinking about another Bedlington. I love your breed. Maybe in a few years; I don't know. There's good and bad in everything: happiness and sadness. Joy and laughter. I'm finally taking a couple of trips. Scottie is easy -- no walking :-) Anyway, sweet boy, bye for now. I love you, BaaBaa.

November 24, 2012 -- My Little BoBo, It was my first Thanksgiving without you. Aunt Nicki was here and we had a good time but your absence was felt. Today in the mailroom someone asked about you. It's amazing how your short life made an impact on a lot of people. It might be because you were so cute -- the "lamb dog". I like to think it was because you were always so sweet - even though you barked like crazy at other doggies. So I keep looking at puppies. I still think it's too soon. The holidays are coming. Everything without you is going to be a first but Scottie and I are doing good. He still calls your name every once in a while. I miss you Troi and I love you -- BaaBaa.

December 5, 2012 Hi BoBo. Last week I went to visit my Dad. It had been a really long time and was good to see him. His hearing is going and he has to have his pacemaker checked. Worrying about him helped me take my mind off you for a while. Once I got home I thought about you more. I wish the morning your were put down would fade more. I still think about it and remember my last moments with you. I have a short video on my phone I look at every now and then. People keep asking me if I am going to get another dog. I tell them not yet. Are you happy? DO you feel good? I think so. I see other people here with puppies that are sick and know what it will be like for them. I tell them they will know when it's time; just like you let me know when it was your time. People always said the animal would let you know and I never understood it. Now I do. So stay and healthy and play with your furry friends at the bridge. You will always be loved here on earth and remembered fondly by me, your BaaBaa. I love you Troi boy. PS -- I'm going on a trip this Saturday. I will be swimming with the fish! Part of you is in the ocean so I know you will be with me! I will be looking for you. Kisses and hugs ...

January 1, 2013 -- Happy New Year! It's a new year and you are a part of it in memory only. I still miss year and everytime I write I realize I am still grieving. As this year moves on, I too plan to do so. Not forgetting you but continuing to heal. You will always be part of me, my memories and happiness. You are being well taken care of with your fur friends at the bridge. Be happy and prosperous in this new year (as Mr. Spock would say). You will always be in my heart - year after year. Love as always and forever, BaaBaa.

February 5, 2013 -- Hi Sweet Boy, it's time for my monthly check-in. I still miss you a lot. There is a terrible sense of melancholy over me so I know my grieving has not stopped. I still look at your photos all the time and can smell you in the throw on your leather chair. It's starting to fade but there's is still a slight hint of it. Am I crazy or is this normal? Most people I speak with say it takes a lot of time and when you least expect it, something happens and you feel worse, then better. That's the way it's been. One friend, Linda told me that she thinks the only way to get over your loss is to get another dog. She said many people have told her that. Others have said the same thing to me. Shaina's dad told me to get another dog just the other day. "They are a pain in the ass, but they're worth it", his words verbatum. So I watch the Bedlington sites every day and look at animal resuce too. I know I can never replace you and never would but when/if I do get another puppy you will always be present in my heart and mind. See you next month! Baa-Baa loves you...

February 12, 2013 -- I have big news my little Bo-Bo -- I just bought a new puppy. Shes looks just like you and I will call her Princess Chewie. It's almost nine months to the day since I lost you and I realized that because of you and all the love you gave me I wanted to have that again. You were a beacon of sunshine in my life. You gave me a reason to get up and get moving in the morning. You made me more social. You added to our family and added a new aspect of love to what Scottie and I already had. These past few months without you have made that more and more evident. Chewie is not a replacement. She will be a new member of the family: A different puppy. As you watch over us from the Rainbow Bridge be happy that I have taken a another step forward in my life. It validates everything I felt for you and everything I will be able able to give to this new dog. You have shown me so much and helped me become more tolerant and loving in many ways. I will always love you, my sweet boy and I know you know that too, Baa-Baa

March 8, 2103 -- My little Bo-Bo, tomorrow is the day we welcome a new puppy into our home. She will be Bo-Bo to Scottie and Princess Chewbarka (Chewie) to me. I am excited for this new addition -- along with the walking and cleaning up after her. At times it felt like like a chore but it took a long time to realize this "chore" was not work, it was done out of love and a commitment to make your life better. In return you gave back to me ten fold. I don't how this dog will be different from you but if peopple are different, so are dogs. So the next 24 hours will be very long. She flies in tomorrow at 2:40 pm. As I send you my love today I will continue to do so every day through this new little dog. Sleep well Troi -- you will never be forgotten. Baa-Baa

March 16, 2013 -- It's been a week with Chewie. She is a wonderful girl. Sometimes I find myself referring to you: calling her "he" or "Troi". She is getting into everything -- I think she's finally starting to feel at home with us. Scottie has been great with her. He gives her kisses and calls her. Potty training is a challenege! She doesn't like the grass. I hope this won't take too long. We started puppy classes. She is going to be a star in the class too. She is filling the void that happened after you passed. She will never replace you my little boy. She is a different dog and you were my special Bo-Bo. I know you are happy that I found her and want her to be happy with me too. I will make this a good home for her just as I did for you. You are everywhere and I know she senses it. So my sweet Bo-Bo, play at the bridge and remember how much I loved you and still do.

April 2, 2013 -- Hi Bo-Bo, How's my sweet little boy? At peace? Time keeps flying by and as we start appraoching your one year mark it's hard to believe it's been so long since you've been gone. Chewie is wonderful. I think even you would be able to get along with her. One thing for sure, she is a different dog. I am trying make sure she gets socialized. I'm sorry I didn't know better about that when I had you. You were so sweet and wonderful with people but not with other dogs. Somehow I know that has changed now that you are at the bridge. You are with all sorts of new friends aren't you? Yesterday Chewie was on your chair. She could sense you smell and was "chewing" on the elephant's nose that sits there now. I have your hoodie on it. She gets into everything but so did you at this age. I think I will always miss you little Bo-Bo. Nothing can change that. I have very happy memories of you and I will always carry then with me. Now off to play! I will check in again. I love you Troi! Baa-Baa

April 21, 2013 -- Hello little sweet boy -- I'm checking in. Things are hectic here. Chewie is a handful but so were you at this age. She is into everything but that's OK. We graduated from puppy kindergarten a week and a half ago then she was spayed. She bounced back really fast. Right now she's into the "digging" stage. I am determined to keep up my memories of you. There's no way I can't -- you are everywhere here! I can't turn around without seeing your sweet little face looking at me through your photos. I am making this short because I can't take my eyes off her for too long. You take care little Bo-Bo. Sleep tight and dream about me. I love you! Baa-Baa

May 24,2013 -- Hi Little Bo-Bo, It's been over a month! That's a long time but it's not because I've forgotten you. It's hectic trying to train a puupy. Last week I was so upset with Chewie I sent a leter to her breeder that she may have to go back to Minnesota. I was serious. She's been hell to potty train. You had accidents but you would go outside. She will not go outside unless I make her hold it all day! She held it for 15 hours one day. I've decided to let things take their course. She likes the balcony but if push comes to shove and it's been a good 8 - 9 hours she will go in the parking lot or the driveway. I'm fine with that. Poop is always the balcony which I'm fine with too. Her breeder was taken aback. She said that had never happened before. Probably because she had never had a puppy as long as she had Chewie and she didn't do her any favors with the diapers. But we are working things out. She is a smart dog. I talk to her and she tilts her head and looks at me like she processing my words. I've never seen that. SO, for the time being she staying but the breeder is on notice. Last week a new doggie came to the "Bridge". His name is Barney, a Corgi. He had been sick for a long time and his parents were taking him to the vet for chemo treatments. He's actually pretty famous; he wrote a blog about his fight with cancer. Look for him. He will someone for you to play with along with all the other friends you've made.
Baa-baa hurt her back the other day so I'm going to go rest on the sofa. I love my sweet little boy. Go play with Barney and I'll check back next month. Love and hugs and kisses -- Baa-Baa

August 5, 2013 -- Little Troi-Boy -- I know it's been the longest since I've talked to you. I feel bad but you know you are always in my thoughts. It's getting close to the one year mark that you went to the "Bridge". I still miss you. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. I can still remember that terrible morning I took you to Dr. Prior and said my last good-bye to you. It's like it happened yesterday. I never thought that a year later I would have another "Bo-Bo" after having to let you go. I know in my heart that you are in much better place than you were a year ago. My poor little boy, you were so sick and never getting better. Everyone says that it took a loving act to do what I did. I know that too. It doesn't make it any easier and a year later I still hurt. Not as much but at times I think of you and now more than ever. So go play with your new friends at the bridge and I will light my candle on the 15th and check back to see how you are. I will always remember and love you my little Troi-Boy. No longer at my side, forever in my heart. All my love, Baa-Baa

August 13, 2013 -- Little Bo-Bo, Tonight I light your candle. I still miss you very much.
August 14, 2013 --- One year ago today I said goodbye to you my Little Bo-Bo. You were my first dog since I was very young. I never understood unconditional love until you came into my life. Now I know what it is and I never want to be without it again. Scottie still calls your name and last night Chewie woke me up at 1:30 -- that's not like her. She got into bed and snuggled very close to me and stayed there all night. I believe in animal spirits and she knew I needed to have the warmth of unconditional love next to me. Thank you for being such a wonderful part of my life. Thank you for being a trooper with all the moving we did and thank you for being a buddy to Scottie. Most of all thank you for eight beautiful years of taking care of you and showing me that love is not measured in size or words or gifts but in glances, touching and the unspoken ways you can make someone feel important. You are at peace and one day we will see each other again at the Bridge. All my love today and every day, Baa-Baa

August 14, 2014 -- my sweet boy, it's two years! I can't believe it. I think of you all the time and your photos are all, over the house. You'll be happy to know Chewie has become a wonderful pet. She likes your chair and probably smells your scent when she lays there. Scottie is, well, Scottie! I lit the candle in your memory this morning. It's amazing how time plays tricks. At times , like now, it seems like yesterday I had to take to you to the vet and at the same time it feels like forever. But no matter yesterday or two years you will always be my forever "Bobo" and I will love your memory as I did you, for the rest of my life. Sleep, play and bask in the sunshine at Rainbow Bridge. Kisses and hugs. All my, love, BaaBaa

August 14,2015 -- I can't believe it's been three years! I still think of you all the time. Today I realized it was almost eleven years to the day I brought you home to live with me and Scottie. I know I gave you a good home and lots of love. We had a lot of fun together and I cherish every memory. I'm sad today. Your light is on and I've been looking at old photos. You will always be my "bestest Bobo". I loved you when you were with me, I love you know and will always love your memories. Sleep well little boy, in time we will see each other again but not for a long time. Many kisses and hugs. BaaBaa.

June 11, 2016 -- Today my friend, Sunny, lost her little Bella. Say hi to Bella and play with her. Her mommy misses her a lot. I know how she feels because I felt the same way almost 4 years ago when we said goodbye. Today I'm thinking about you and how much I loved you. You're still my "bestest BoBo". I,love you, always. BaaBaa

August 14, 2016, Four years.... I can hardly believe it's been so long. I know you're happy, healthy and resting peacefully. I still think about you all the time but today more than ever. Sleep well little boy and remember Baabaa loves you now and forever. XOXO

July 18, 2017, Our five year anniversary is getting close my little Bo-Bo. You will always be remembered. BaaBaa

August 13, 2020, Wow, it's been three years since I visited. I still think about you my little lamb, especially today. I was thinking about how much you would have loved this house. Scottie went to a new home too over a year ago. He wasn't good. I think he needed more than me and Chewie. That was very hard. I know he missed you a lot. Wouldn't let me touch him after we said goodbye. I did a painting of him; I made a book to remind me of you. Chewie has turned out be a wonderful companion. I know you've been watching us. Keep an eye out because eventually we all cross the rainbow bridge. By the way, you're missing the pandemic (Haha). I love you my bestest BoBo. Rest well 😘