BORN THURSDAY MARCH 11TH,1999 TO SUNDAY DEC 2ND,2007 - 8YRS & ALMOST 9MTHS OLD @ 11:30AM. BORN IN MISSOURI, U.S.A & BECAME A CANADIAN @ 12 WEEKS OLD.

BECAME PART OF OUR FAMILY: THURSDAY JUNE 10TH,1999 @ 12 WEEKS OLD IN VICTORIA,B.C.CANADA

PLUS TUPPY MOVED IN WITH ME: ON WEDNESDAY FEB 14TH,2001 @ ALMOST 2YRS OLD, IN BETWEEN OUR PARENTS(MOM - MON DEC 18TH,2000 & DAD - SAT MARCH 17TH,2001)PASSING!

SUNDAY DEC 2ND, 2007 TO WEDNESDAY DEC 2ND, 2020 = 13YRS (156MTHS) @ 11:30AM.

HELLO MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL, TUPPY,

TODAY IT'S NOW 13 YEARS/156MTHS, 678 WEEKS & 4,749 DAYS THAT, YOUR BELOVED SPIRIT & SOUL, HAS BEEN AT HOME IN HEAVEN, BUT TO ME MY TUPPY, TIME STANDS STILL & FOREVER WILL, UNTIL I JOIN YOU AT, HOME IN HEAVEN WHICH I HOPE IS, SOONER THEN LATER!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S NOW BEEN 156MTHS, SINCE I HAD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU PHYSCIALLY AND HELD YOU WHEN YOUR BELOVED SPIRIT & SOUL WENT HOME TO HEAVEN AND JUST BEFORE YOU LEFT YOU GAVE ME YOUR FINAL KISS. ALSO JUST PRIOR TO THAT THOUGH, I HELD YOU AND YOUR AUNTIE JUTTA & I TOOK PHOTOS WITH YOU AND EVEN THEN I COULD SEE THAT YOUR BEST BUDDIES WERE THERE IN SPIRIT WAITING TO TAKE YOU HOME, AS YOU KEPT LOOKING DOWN WHEN YOU WERE IN MY ARMS OR LOOKING RIGHT NEXT TO YOU AND I KNOW YOU SAW MIKEY AND BRAN.

I'AM GLAD TUPPY THEY WERE THERE FOR YOU AND EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T WANT TO SAY GOODBYE I KNEW IT WAS FOR THE BEST BECAUSE YOU WERE SO SICK AND I ALWAYS PROMISED YOU I WOULD NEVER HOLD ON TO YOU FOR ME AND SO I KEPT THAT PROMISE, BUT IT KILLED ME INSIDE TO LET YOU GO AND SINCE THEN TUPPY I KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN WITH ME EVERY SINGLE DAY AND NIGHT HERE IN SPIRIT AND I'AM SO BLESSED THAT YOU ARE AND SO BLESSED I CAN FEEL, HEAR & SEE YOU BECAUSE I DO NEED YOU SWEETIE SOOOOOO MUCH, MORE THEN YOU MAY EVEN KNOW.

I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE THAT IT'S NOW BEEN 156MTHS SINCE I LAST HELD YOU IN MY ARMS PHYSICALLY PLUS, GAVE YOU KISSES, TUMMY RUBS, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS AND LOVES ALSO ON NOV 29TH,2007-156MTHS AGO, PLUS THAT WE PLAYED & YOU RAN FOR THE LAST TIME IN YOUR FAVORITE FIELD WITH, YOUR STUFFIE-PENNY THAT YOU HAD JUST PICKED OUT AT YOUR FAVORITE PET SHOP-KELLY'S. ALSO A FEW DAYS PRIOR ON NOV 30TH, 2007- 156MTHS AGO THAT YOU MY TUPPY LAST PHYSICALLY SLEPT WITH ME AND ALSO ASKED FOR A TUMMY RUB, WHERE IT WAS USUALLY ME ASKING FOR THEM AND I'AM SO GLAD I GAVE YOU SUCH A LONG ONE, UNTIL WE FELL ASLEEP TOGETHER AS ALWAYS.

TIME DOES, STAND STILL FOR ME SWEETIE AND 4EVER WILL UNTIL I JOIN YOU AT HOME ON, THE OTHER SIDE - HEAVEN. I MISS YOU TUPPY EVER, EVER, EVER & TRULY SOOOOOOO DEARLY!!!!LIFE IS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU PHYSICALLY HERE, BUT I KNOW MY BABY THAT YOU ARE 4EVER WITH ME HERE IN SPIRIT AND THAT IS, THE BEST BLESSING I HAVE TO HOLD ONTO UNTIL I JOIN YOU 4EVER AND EVER THROUGH, ETERNITY AND BEYOND PLUS WHICH, I DO EVER SO HOPE COMES SOONER THEN LATER TUPPY AS ALL I WANT AND, SO EVER NEED IS YOU TUPPY & ALWAYS AND FOREVER WILL!!!!!!!!

MY BELOVED TUPPY, I DO EVER SO CRAVE AND EVER SO NEED TO KEEP HEARING, FEELING AND, SEEING YOU IN OUR HOME MY BABY UNTIL, WE ARE JOINED TOGETHER AGAIN 4EVER!!AS HEARING, SEEING AND ALSO, FEELING YOU HERE TUPPY HELPS ME EVER SO MUCH & IT DOES GIVES ME THE GREATEST COMFORT OF ALL!!

***WHEN WE WERE OUT FOUR YEARS AGO NOW ON THURS DEC 1ST,2016 WITH YOUR AUNTIE EMMA....I KNOW MY BABY YOU SENT ME THOSE TWO BEAUTIFUL SIGNS - THE 1ST WAS WHEN I WAS THINKING OF GOING DOWN TO OUR LITTLE BEACH TO FIND A HEART SHAPE STONE & JUST WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO DO IT - A WHITE DOG ALL OF A SUDDEN CAME UP BEHIND ME AND BARKED AT ME, TO STOP ME, AS IT WAS SLIPPERY & YOU KNEW I WOULD FALL & PROBABLY HURT MYSELF IF I TRIED TO DO IT, SO THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS TAKING SUCH GREAT CARE OF ME MY BABY..THEN THE 2ND TIME WAS ON OUR WAY HOME & I SAW A 'BOY' WESTIE - AND YOU KNEW I WOULD STROKE HIM & HE WOULD REMIND ME OF YOU, ESPECIALLY AS HE HAD HIS WINTER FUR IN, JUST LIKE YOU WOULD HAVE HAD TOO.

THANK YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY FOR THOSE BEAUTIFUL SIGNS AS I SO NEEDED THEM AS YOU KNOW, ESPECIALLY AS I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP ON THAT MONDAY NIGHT WITH THINKING & MISSING YOU SO BAD & WISHING I COULD HAVE YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN! I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS ANGEL MORE THEN ANYONE AND/OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND & DO SO 4EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, YOU KNOW THAT - RIGHT MY PRECIOUS BABY!!!***

MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, TUPPY, YOU 4EVER DO & WILL HAVE MY WHOLE ENTIRE HEART, MY WHOLE ENTIRE SPIRIT & MY WHOLE ENTIRE SOUL, AS YOU ARE & 4EVER WILL BE MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, MY WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD, MY WHOLE ENTIRE EVERYTHING AND MOST OF ALL TUPPY, MY WHOLE ENTIRE ONE AND ONLY FOREVER AND EVER THROUGH, ETERNITY AND BEYOND!

PLUS TUPPY, YOU ARE MY ONLY #1 BABY, MY SON, MY BEST FRIEND - IN THIS WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD AND BEYOND, MY COMPANION, MY CAREGIVER - THE BEST EVER, MY SOULMATE, MY SOUL COMPANION & MY EVERYTHING 4EVER AND EVER THROUGH, ETERNITY AND BEYOND!

ON THIS ONE TUPPY, I ALWAYS SAID THIS TO YOU RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING & EVEN SAID IT TO YOU ON DEC 2ND,2007 (156MTHS AGO) JUST BEFORE YOUR BELOVED SPIRIT & SOUL WENT HOME TO HEAVEN & YOU LOOKED DIRECTLY INTO MY EYES THAT DAY JUST LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID, AS YOU KNEW IT TO BE TRUE MY ANGEL & THAT IS: I LOVE YOU, MY BELOVED BABY MORE THEN ANYONE AND OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD AND FOREVER WILL & I NOW ALSO ALWAYS ADD -THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!

PLUS SINCE, YOUR PRECIOUS SPIRIT & SOUL WENT HOME TO BE YOUNG AND HEALTHY AGAIN TUPPY, I STARTED SAYING THIS 156MTHS AGO AND WILL ALSO CONTINUE TO SAY THIS, UNTIL YOU ARE BACK IN MY ARMS THROUGHOUT ETERNITY AND BEYOND AND WHICH IS, I MISS YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE, SAID, WRITTEN & IN MY THOUGHTS!!!!!

MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL, TUPPY, AS WELL AS HAVING MY WHOLE ENTIRE HEART WHICH YOU HAVE 4EVER OUTRIGHT, YOU ALSO HAVE MY WHOLE ENTIRE SPIRIT & MY WHOLE ENTIRE SOUL!! AS NO ONE ELSE, CAN EVER COME BETWEEN US MY BABY AS YOU DO MEAN MORE TO ME THEN ANYONE AND OR ANYBODY & OR ANYTHING IN THIS ENTIRE WORLD AND THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND TOO!!

ALL I LOOK & EVER LOOK FORWARD TO NOW MY PRECIOUS TUPPY IS, JOINING YOU AT HOME IN HEAVEN WHERE WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, THROUGH ETERNITY AND BEYOND AND WHERE I WILL BE ABLE TO 4EVER GIVE YOU KISSES, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS, TUMMY RUBS, PLUS TONS AND TONS OF LOVES.

**THE ONE BLESSING & IT TRULY IS THE BEST BLESSING OF ALL FOR YOU MY ANGEL IS, THAT WHEN I DO COME HOME TO YOU TUPPY, FOR YOU IT WON'T SEEM THAT I'VE BEEN AWAY, THAT LONG! NOT LIKE HERE NOW, BECAUSE IN HEAVEN THERE IS NO TIME SO WHEN, I DO JOIN YOU SWEETIE IT WILL SEEM LIKE I'VE ONLY BEEN GONE FROM EITHER, A FEW HOURS TO MAYBE IF THAT A DAY OR SO. AND, I'AM SO BLESSED FOR THAT SWEETIE FOR YOU, BECAUSE IT'S NOT LIKE HERE ON EARTH, WHERE IT'S NOW 156MTHS WITHOUT YOU PHYSICALLY HERE BESIDE ME.**

**MY BELOVED TUPPY, YOU HAVE ALWAYS & FOREVER MADE MY LIFE EVER SO RICH AND SO WHOLE** AND WHEN I GET TO HAVE YOU BACK, IN MY ARMS WHICH I HOPE IS SO MUCH SOONER THEN LATER THEN, MY LIFE AGAIN WILL BE WHOLE AND RICH ONCE MORE AND WHEN THAT HAPPENS I KNOW I WILL BE THE HAPPIEST HAVING YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL, TUPPY IN MY ARMS, THROUGH ETERNITY AND BEYOND AND THAT IS ALL I TRULY WANT & AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TOO!!!!***

UNTIL THEN SWEETIE, KEEP BEING WITH ME & BESIDE ME IN SPIRIT ALWAYS AS I DO NEED YOU TUP'S, EVEN MORE THEN MAYBE YOU KNOW!! PLUS KEEP COMING TO, SLEEP AGAINST MY HEAD ON OUR PILLOW AS WELL AS ALSO AGAINST MY BODY. AS WELL AS,KEEP PLAYING HERE AT NIGHT MY TUPPY (WHEN I'AM ALREADY IN BED & LISTENING TO YOU ALL AS WHEN I DO HEAR YOU ALL PLAYING TUP'S, IT BRINGS ME SUCH SMILES WHERE I RARELY GET THOSE NOW) WITH ALL YOUR SPECIAL STUFFIES, BALLIES & TOYS WITH YOUR BEST BUDDIES - MIKEY AND CHELSEA, BRANDON AND BRANDY, AND YOUR BEST GIRL MILLWALL, ALONG WITH KYRA (WHO CAME HOME TOO ON OCT 6TH,15) & ALSO YOUR OTHER GIRL TIA WHO CAME HOME ON NOV 15TH,14 AS SHE WENT HOME JUST 6MTHS AFTER YOUR GODMOM JEAN-TIA'S GRANDMA JEAN.

PLUS ALSO MILLWALL'S LIL SIS ARKLEY, WHO CAME HOME ON DEC 9TH,13 AT 20YRS OLD, AS SHE WAS MY BEST LIL KITTY GAL.I'AM GLAD, IN ONE WAY THAT THEY ARE ALL WITH YOU THERE & YOU ARE ALL TOGETHER. ALSO NOW MILLWALL'S LITTLE BRO BERWICK JOINED YOU ALL ON APR 17TH,14 AT 16YRS OLD,PLUS NOW MILLWALL'S OTHER LIL SIS SHADWELL AT 20YRS OLD HAS ALSO JOINED YOU ALL AS WELL IN 2018, SO NOW THERE IS ONLY LIL BRO HENLEY ALONG WITH THEIR MOMMY & DADDY AT HOME HERE. SO PLEASE GIVE THEM ALL LOADS OF KISSES & LOVES FROM ME AND, TELL THEM I LOVE AND MISS THEM AS WELL.PLUS MEG & FERGUS ARE BOTH NOW AT HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE (HEAVEN)TOO AS OF NOVEMBER 2015.

PLUS TELL ARKLEY THANK YOU FOR COMING IN JAN 2014 TO PLAY WITH YOU MY PRECIOUS AND YOUR BEST BUDDIES AS WELL AS HER SIS MILLWALL, AS SO LOVED HEARING YOUR LITTLE RED BALL MAKING THOSE SOUNDS WHILE ARKLEY PLAYED WITH IT, WHILE I THEN LAID IN BED THAT NIGHT LISTENING TO YOU ALL & GIVING ME EVER SUCH WONDERFUL SMILES. I ALSO LOVED WAKING UP IN THE NIGHT ONE NIGHT A FEW NIGHTS AFTER THAT, ON MY BACK & FEELING THE WEIGHT OF BOTH YOU MY BELOVED BABY PLUS SWEET ARKLEY LAYING ON MY STOMACH WHERE I COULDN'T MOVE BUT DIDN'T WANT TO, AS IT GAVE ME EVEN MORE COMFORT FEELING YOU BOTH RIGHT THERE ON ME!! PLUS ALSO GIVE, KISSES & LOVES TO ALL OUR FURBROTHERS & FURFAMILY TOO AND TELL THEM I LOVE & MISS THEM AS WELL. AND I LOOK FORWARD TO, SEEING ALL OF THEM WHEN I JOIN YOU TUPPY AT HOME, IN HEAVEN! ALSO GIVE LOADS OF KISSES & LOVES TO ALL YOUR FURBUDDIES YOU HAVE MET & BECOME FRIENDS WITH LIKE: LUCKY & CHIP, THUMPER & SASHA, CHINA, SASSY, JOKER & PUCK TOO.

ALSO GIVE LOADS OF KISSES & LOVES TO, ALL OUR FAMILY WHO'S THERE WITH YOU INCLUDING MY & YOUR 1ST MOMMY & OUR DADDY, PLUS OUR AUNTIE JOAN, UNCLE RONNIE, UNCLE RON, AUNT MARY, AUNT SHEILA, OUR COUSIN CHRIS, YOUR GODMOM JEAN,GRANDMA ANNE & YOUR GODDAD MARTIN.PLUS YOUR UNCLE MIKE (MY MIDDLE BROTHER) WHO JOINED YOU & OUR OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS ON JAN 28TH,14 AT ONLY 64YRS OLD. ALSO GET THEM ALL TO GIVE YOU MY PRECIOUS AND ALL YOUR BEST BUDDIES, FURBUDDIES, OUR FURBROTHERS AND, FURFAMILY LOADS OF KISSES, TUMMY RUBS, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS AND LOVES FROM ME, ALRIGHT!

ALSO GIVE LOVES TO YOUR GODMOM JEAN'S NIECE - OUR DEAR FRIEND KIM WHO WENT HOME ON SAT OCT 25TH,14, AT ONLY 50YRS OLD. I DO MISS HAVING KIM HERE, BUT I KNOW SHE'S MUCH HAPPIER AT HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE THERE IN HEAVEN & NOT HAVING TO DEAL WITH ALL HER PAIN ANYMORE.

YOU, MY BELOVED TUPPY ARE TRULY THE ABSOLUTE BEST AND YOU ARE MY ONLY COMFORTER & CAREGIVER I WANT AND WILL EVER WANT!! PLUS TUPPY, I EVER, EVER, EVER, SOOOOOO NEED AND WILL ALWAYS NEED YOU NOW AND EVEN WHEN, I JOIN YOU AT HOME IN HEAVEN! AND WHEN I DO JOIN YOU AT HOME TUPPY, THAT WILL BE TRULY & THE ABSOLUTE BEST WHEN I GET TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN I CAN'T WAIT SWEETIE, AS I SO MISS TOUCHING YOUR BEAUTIFUL, SOFT, PRECIOUS, TUMMY PLUS YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE SOFT BODY!!!!!!!!!

MY BELOVED TUPPY, IT WILL 4EVER BE JUST US AGAINST THE WORLD, RIGHT SWEETIE!!! AS I ALWAYS SAID THAT TO YOU AS WELL, WHEN YOU WERE PHYSICALLY HERE AND STILL SAY IT TO THIS DAY & 4EVER WILL UNTIL YOU ARE IN MY ARMS AGAIN, MY PRECIOUS!!!!! I LOVE & MISS AND 4EVER WILL LOVE & MISS YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL!!! MY ONE & ONLY TUPPY, MY BABY, MY SON, MY BEST FRIEND (IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD), MY COMPANION, MY CAREGIVER (THE BEST EVER), MY SOULMATE & MY SOUL COMPANION & MY EVERYTHING, 4EVER & EVER THRU ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!!!!!

TUPPY, YOU ARE MY MAIN MAN & 4EVER WILL BE! AS YOU DO MEAN THE ENTIRE WORLD & BEYOND TO ME SWEETHEART & NO ONE OR ANYONE COULD EVER, EVER, COME EVEN CLOSE TO MY HEART NOW, AS YOU DO OWN IT ALL & YOU WILL RIGHT THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL, MY ONE AND ONLY TUPPY!!!!! THE BESTEST LITTLE GUY, THE BESTEST FRIEND EVER, THE BESTEST BABY, THE BESTEST SON A MOMMY COULD EVER HAVE & THE BESTEST EVERYTHING, YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT TUP'S!!!!!!

I'AM SO SORRY I STILL CRY LOADS FOR YOU TUPPY, AS I KNOW YOU HAVE ALWAYS HATED SEEING ME CRY BUT I DO MISS YOU AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS!! PLUS MY HEART, SPIRIT & SOUL SHATTERED INTO THE TINIEST PIECES, WHEN YOUR BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT & SOUL WENT HOME TO THE OTHERSIDE - HEAVEN AND MY HEART, SPIRIT & SOUL WON'T BECOME WHOLE AGAIN UNTIL, I DO JOIN YOU AT HOME MY BABY AND YOU COME RUNNING RIGHT INTO MY ARMS & I WILL HOLD YOU & NEVER, EVER, LET YOU GO AGAIN!! AS ALL I WANT & WILL EVER, EVER, WANT & NEED IS YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL, MY ONE & ONLY TUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ABSOLUTE BESTEST LITTLE MAN, IN THE ENTIRE WORLD & BEYOND!!!!

****I ALWAYS HAVE, LOOK FOR & GET THIS ONE EVER SO BEAUTIFUL SIGN FROM YOU ALWAYS NOW MY BABY & THAT IS WHEN YOU SEND ME A WHITE BUTTERFLY, & I SEE IT EITHER JUST OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW HERE TO WHERE EVER WE ARE OFF TOO & I KNOW YOU SEND THAT BECAUSE YOU KNOW I THINK OF YOU EVEN MORE WHEN I SEE THAT BEAUTIFUL WHITE BUTTERFLY & YOU ARE SENDING THAT TO GIVE ME SOME COMFORT....THANK YOU MY PRECIOUS BABY FOR THAT AS I DO LOVE IT SO & IT MEANS SO MUCH COMING FROM YOU TUPPY!***

**I DO THANK YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY AS WELL AS OUR BELOVED DADDY, MY BROTHER (YOUR UNCLE) MIKE COMING TO BE WITH ME IN MID JULY 2014, ***PLUS PRIOR TO IT AS WELL TO COMFORT ME & THE MOST SPECIAL OF ALL WAS IN MID JUNE,14 WHEN I WAS IN BED READING I NOTICED TWO HUGE MAGNIFICENT BRIGHT LIGHTS & THEY WERE EXTREMELY BRIGHT WHICH WERE IN OUR HALLWAY BETWEEN OUR FRONT DOOR & OUR BEDROOM DOOR AND THEY WERE OUR BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL, ANGELS.*** AS THERE IS NOTHING ELSE THAT COULD EXPLAIN THEM MOST BRILLANT BRIGHT LIGHTS THERE, SINCE THERE IS ONLY A FITNESS PLACE ACROSS FROM OUR BEDROOM WINDOW & THEY WERE CLOSED FOR THE NIGHT.**

***OUR ANGELS (TUP'S & MINE) CAME TO SHOW & LET ME KNOW THAT I'AM NOT TOTALLY ALONE HERE, AS THEY ARE THERE WATCHING OVER ME LIKE EVERYONES ANGELS STAND BETWEEN THEIR FRONT DOOR & BEDROOM DOOR TO PROTECT THEM AT NIGHT. BUT THEY KNEW I WAS EXTREMELY SAD WITH MISSING MY BELOVED TUPPY AS ALWAYS & JUST WANTED TO SHOW THEMSELVES TO ME.

BUT SEE I KNOW ALL OUR MAGNIFICENT ANGELS,MY SPIRIT GUIDE, MY EVER SUCH BELOVED TUPPY, OUR DAD, OUR BROTHER (UNCLE) MIKE, OUR AUNTIES & UNCLES PLUS OUR BEST FRIEND (TUPPY'S GODOMOM) JEAN & ALL THE OTHERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT HERE WITH ME IN SPIRIT.

SO I'AM AS ALL OF YOU TOO ARE NEVER ALONE THAT WAY,I JUST FEEL SO ALONE PHYSICALLY & GET LONELY ALOT OF THE TIME TOO & MORE SO IT'S WHEN I'AM STUCK IN OUR HOME HERE 3 DAYS OR SOMETIMES EVEN MORE DAYS THEN THAT EACH WEEK NOW, WITH NOT ABLE TO GET OUT AT ALL & BARELY ABLE TO MOVE IN HERE AT ALL BECAUSE OF ALL MY SUCH SEVERE, EXTREME, PAIN.

EVEN THROUGH IT'S BEEN 156MTHS THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO PHYSCIALLY HOLD YOU MY BABY I JUST WILL KEEP LOOKING FORWARD TO WHEN I HAVE YOU BACK IN MY ARMS & UNTIL THEN, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE KEEP COMING TO ME TUP'S OK AND SENDING YOUR MOST BEAUTIFUL SIGNS WITH ALL THE DIFFERENT BIRDS TO THE WHITE BUTTERFLY TO ALSO KNOCKING DOWN YOUR PHOTO OFF THE SIDE TABLE HERE.

I MOST LOVE THOUGH WHEN I HEAR YOU JUMP UP ON OUR BED TO NOW OUR SOFABED TO FEELING YOU AGAINST MY HEAD ON OUR PILLOW TO ALSO FEELING YOU AGAINST MY BODY OR AT MY FEET, TO ALSO HEARING YOU HAVE A SHAKE IN OUR HALLWAY TO EVERYTHING YOU DO MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL.

AS THAT'S WHAT COMFORTS & KEEPS ME GOING AND JUST HELPS ME TUPPY TO GET THROUGH ANOTHER DAY & NIGHT WITHOUT YOU PHYSCIALLY HERE AND UNTIL I COME AND JOIN YOU AT HOME ON THE OTHER SIDE THERE IN HEAVEN WHICH I CAN'T WAIT, I REALLY CAN'T!

PLUS I HAVE TRULY LOVED & DO TRULY 4EVER LOVE ALL THE WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL & SPECIAL SIGNS YOU'VE BEEN SENDING ME IN THESE LAST 156MTHS & ONGOING, PLUS ALONG WITH SEEING YOU MY BELOVED PRECIOUS BABY TO ALSO SEEING MY BROTHER (YOUR UNCLE) MIKE IN APRIL 2015 AND BEING ABLE TO GIVE HIM A HUG & SAY HI TO WHERE HE WAS SO SURPRISED THAT I WAS ABLE TO GO & VISIT HIM ON THE OTHERSIDE, TO ALSO SEEING YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY WHEN WATCHING SOMETHING ON OUR COMPUTER APR 20TH,15 AS YOU WERE EVER SO CLEAR AND IT WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING TUPPY, WOW!!!!

ALSO I ALWAYS & 4EVER LOVE ANY & ALL YOUR BEAUTIFUL SIGNS & TO SEEING & RECEIVING ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING ON THE OTHERSIDE - IN HEAVEN SO PLEASE LET IT KEEP COMING AND HAPPENING, AS I TRULY SO NEED YOU MY PRECIOUS ALONG WITH IT ALL...BECAUSE AS YOU KNOW TUP'S EVERYTHING I GET TO HEAR, FEEL AND SEE HELPS ME SO MUCH THROUGH ALL THIS SUCH SEVERE & EXTREME PAIN THAT JUST KEEPS GETTING MORE SEVERE.....AS YOU SO KNOW, RIGHT SWEETHEART!!!! PLUS HEARING, FEELING & SEEING YOU MY PRECIOUS IS ALWAYS & 4EVER THE BEST MEDICINE OF ALL FOR ME, AS I NEED YOU SOOOOOOOO & ALWAYS & 4VER WILL MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS ANGEL!!

SENDING LOADS, HEAPS & TONS OF HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS, KISSES, TUMMY RUBS & TONS OF LOVES TO YOU MY ALWAYS & FOREVER, SWEETHEART xoxoxoxoxox MUCH LOVE FOREVER & EVER, THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((TUPPY & MOMMY,THRU ETERNITY & BEYOND)))))))))))))))))))))))))

***TODAY MONDAY DEC. 2ND, 2019 - 12 YEARS/144MTHS @ 11:30AM PST - MY BABY***

HI MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS ANGEL TUPPY, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S NOW 12 WHOLE YEARS (DEC 2ND, 2007)TODAY DEC 2ND, 2019 THAT YOU HAVE NOW BEEN HOME ON THE OTHER SIDE (HEAVEN)......PLUS THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS PHYSICALLY OR GIVEN YOU LOADS OF KISSES, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS, TUMMY RUBS & MASSES OF LOVES, SOMETIMES IT STILL FEELS NOT THAT LONG AGO THAT YOU WENT HOME, TO THEN OTHER TIMES IT JUST SEEMS AGES.

THANKFULLY WITH ALL THESE SUCH BEAUTIFUL PHOTOS I HAVE OF YOU ON EVERY WALL IN OUR HOME ALONG WITH ON OUR TABLES, ETC - IT DOES HELP THAT WHERE EVER I LOOK IN OUR HOME, THERE YOU ARE IN ONE WAY...BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME!!

I JUST TRULY WISH I COULD HOLD YOU ONE MORE TIME & ALSO GIVE YOU TUMMY RUBS, PLAY WITH YOU OUR HUGGIE, WUGGIE, WOO'S GAME & GIVE YOU TONS OF KISSES AND LOVES, MY SWEETIE!!

BUT YOU KNOW TUPPY HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.....AS I LOVE YOU MORE THEN ANYONE & OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, PLUS I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID, WRITTEN AND IN MY THOUGHTS!!!

TUP'S YOU ARE MY #1 MAIN & ONLY BESTEST LITTLE MAN, BABY & SON AND MY EVERYTHING 4EVER & EVER WILL BE THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!! IT WILL JUST BE US AGAINST THE WORLD ALWAYS & FOREVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND MY BABY, YOU KNOW THAT!!

KEEP COMING IN SPIRIT TO ME TUPPY TO PLAY, TO CUDDLE, SNUGGLE & ACTUALLY EVERYTHING, AS I TRULY SO NEED YOU MY BABY MORE THEN ANYTHING & EVEN MORE NOW......ESPECIALLY AS THIS SUCH SEVERE PAIN OF MINE IS NOW WAY, WAY MORE EXTREME SINCE HAVING MORE MAJOR FALLS FROM 2017, 2018 & NOW ALL THROUGHOUT 2019!!

**TO ALSO NOW BEING DIAGNOSED IN JULY 2019 OF HAVING ON TOP OF THIS RARE RSD - RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS - STARTING FROM THE TIPS OF MY FINGERS & RIGHT THROUGHOUT MY RIGHT HAND & THEN ALL THE WAY UP TO & THROUGH MY RIGHT SHOULDER, OH TUP'S!!

SO NOW I'M 3 FOR 3 IN THAT THIS SUCH AWFUL, SEVERE, EXTREME PAIN IS IN MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM, SYMPATHETIC NERVOUS SYSTEM & NOW ALSO IN MY JOINTS.....PLUS AS YOU KNOW MY TUPPY I DIDN'T HANDLE FINDING OUT ABOUT HAVING RA VERY WELL, SINCE I'VE CRIED ALOT - WHICH I SO RARELY DO, EXCEPT CRYING FOR YOU OF COURSE, AS HAVE TO BE SO STRONG HERE, SINCE I'M ON MY OWN PHYSICALLY, BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT - AS YOU KNOW, RIGHT MY BABY!!!

TUPPY YOU ARE TRULY, TRULY, TRULY #1 IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!

PLUS MY BELOVED TUPPY YOU ARE ALWAYS & FOREVER MY BABY, MY SON, MY BEST FRIEND (IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND), MY COMPANION, MY CAREGIVER (THE BEST EVER), MY SOULMATE & MY SOUL COMPANION 4EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!

TUPPY YOU ARE & ALWAYS AND FOREVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND BE MY WHOLE LIFE & TRULY MY WHOLE BEING, THERE IS NO ONE LIKE YOU & NEVER WILL BE - AS YOU ARE TRULY MY EVERYTHING & I JUST LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY WHEN YOU ARE BACK IN MY ARMS THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!

WHICH IS WHY I SO TRULY NEED TO HEAR, FEEL & SEE YOU MY PRECIOUS EVEN MORE THEN EVER............AS I'M ALSO STUCK IN HERE WAY MORE TOO, BUT THANK YOU THOUGH FOR SENDING SOME SPECIAL PEOPLE TO BE IN MY LIFE, WHO DO HELP IN LITTLE WAYS, SO THAT I'M NOT TOTALLY ON MY OWN PHYSICALLY!!

BUT I SO WISH MORE THEN ANYTHING TO HAVE YOU VISIT MORE IN SPIRIT..........SO PLEASE MY BELOVED TUPPY - DO COME & CUDDLE WITH ME - YOUR MOMMY, ALSO COME PLAY LOTS WITH ALL YOUR FURBUDDIES, OUR FURBROTHERS & OUR FURFAMILIES, AS SO NEED SOME SMILES & AS YOU KNOW TUPPY, YOU GIVE ME THE BESTEST SMILES OF ALL & HELP ME MORE THEN ANYONE AND/OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WORLD & BEYOND, YOU TRULY, TRULY, TRULY DO!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS ANGEL TUPPY - MORE THEN ANYONE AND/OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & FOREVER WILL.................PLUS I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID, WRITTEN & IN MY/OUR THOUGHTS, YOU TRULY, TRULY, TRULY ARE TUPPY - MY #1 BABY, MY #1 SON, MY #1`BEST FRIEND (IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND), MY #1 CAREGIVER, MY #1 COMPANION, MY #1 SOULMATE, MY #1 SOUL COMPANION & MY #1 EVERYTHING, 4EVER & EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!

SENDING TONS & TONS OF TUMMY RUBS, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS, KISSES & LOVES, 4EVER & EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND TO YOU MY EVER SO PRECIOUS, SWEET, LOVING TUPPY!!!!!

GENTLE HUGS & LOVE YOU THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND,MOMMY XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXX

P.S. I'VE PUT YOUR PICTURE AT THE TOP TO 'FALL', BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ALWAYS LOVE/LOVED PLAYING IN THE LEAVES, THAT HAD COME OFF THE TREES!!
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********TODAY MONDAY MARCH 11TH, 2019 IS YOUR VERY SPECIAL DAY MY BABY*********
BECAUSE IT'S YOUR 20TH BIRTHDAY SO........HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL TUPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

BEFORE COMING IN HERE I WENT & WROTE ON YOUR GUESTBOOK & LEFT YOU A COFFEE ICE CREAM SUNDAE...AS I KNOW YOU WOULD SO WANT & ENJOY THAT BETTER THEN A BIRTHDAY CAKE, SINCE THAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM OF ALL & OF COURSE IT ALWAYS HAD TO BE ONLY HAAGEN DAZ COFFEE ICE CREAM, LOL!!

THEN COMING ON HERE I SWITCHED YOUR PICTURE AT THE TOP TO SPRING, SINCE THAT IS COMING UP SOON - WELL HOPEFULLY SPRING WILL SOON BE HERE...THE FLOWERS ARE ALREADY COMING OUT HERE, BUT IT'S STILL QUITE COOL.

OH & TUP'S YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN SO THRILLED TO SEE ALL THE SNOW THAT WE HAD IN FEBRUARY....WHICH BROUGHT UP SO MANY MEMORIES OF OUR EVER SO FUN & WONDERFUL TIMES OUT IN THE SNOW - SINCE YOU LOVED IT SO, SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH & I WILL ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL TO YOUR LIL FURBUDDY BRANDON FOR SHOWING YOU HOW MUCH FUN IT TRULY WAS, WHEN YOU FIRST SAW SNOW FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN YOU WERE JUST TWO YEARS OLD.

TUPPY, YOU NEVER WANTED TO COME IN & WHEN WE WOULD FINALLY COME IN, ALL YOU WANTED TO DO WAS GO OUT IN THE SNOW AGAIN, DIDN'T YOU..........I'AM GLAD THOUGH IT SNOWED ON ONE OF YOUR FINAL PHYSICAL DAYS LEFT HERE & YOU GOT TO AT LEAST WALK IN IT, NOW THOUGH ON THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN I BET YOU PLAY IN IT ALOT & ESPECIALLY SINCE AT HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE IT'S NEVER COLD THERE, SO YOU CAN PLAY TO YOUR HEART'S CONTENT.

I'M SORRY I STARTED CRYING LAST NIGHT WHEN I HAD STARTED TRYING TO GO TO SLEEP.....AS YOU NEVER LIKED SEEING ME CRY & WOULD BARK AT ME FOR DOING SO, BUT I SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU AS IT WAS ALREADY IN THE EARLY HOURS OF THIS MORNING & THEN WHEN I STARTED THINKING BACK TO ALL OUR WONDERFUL, PRECIOUS MEMORIES TOGETHER, THAT'S WHEN I LOST IT & REALLY CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP.

AS YOU KNOW - IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OFTEN MY TUPPY THAT I CRY...........AS I TRULY TRY NOT TO CRY WHAT WITH ALL MY NOW MOST EXCRUCIATING PAIN I'M LIVING WITH HERE, AS I TRY & BE SO BRAVE & STRONG, SINCE I'AM ALL ON MY OWN HERE PHYSICALLY AT LEAST & I KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE AROUND ME & NO ONE IS TRULY ALONE, SINCE WE ALSO HAVE OUR SPIRIT GUIDES, ANGELS & YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY TOO!!

IT'S JUST REALLY HARD HERE SOMETIMES TUP'S AS YOU KNOW & MORE SO THESE LAST MONTHS TO REALLY ALL OF LAST YEAR TOO - WHICH IS WHEN THIS MOST EXCRUCIATING PAIN I HAVE EVER HAD STARTED AT THE BEGINNING OF LAST YEAR & CARRIED ON ALL YEAR THEN I WAS HOPING THIS NEW YEAR MIGHT BE AT LEAST A BIT BETTER BUT NO SUCH LUCK, AS IT KEEPS ON CONTINUING EVEN TO THIS DAY.........PLUS MORE BOTH SIDES OF MY RIBS HAVE NOW BEEN CRACKING & SO MORE AGONY FOR MONTHS AT A TIME TO THEN, GETTING SOME REALLY WIERD INFECTIONS ON TOP OF IT ALL, EVER SO CRAZY.

BUT IT'S REALLY WHEN I START THINKING BACK TO ALL OUR WONDERFUL, FUN, AWESOME & AMAZING TIMES TOGETHER, THAT WILL GET ME CRYING EVERY SINGLE TIME BECAUSE I MISS YOU MY BABY MORE THEN EVER & WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO UNTIL YOU ARE BACK IN MY ARMS FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, WHICH I TRULY CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT TO HAPPEN, WHENEVER IT DOES!!!

I LOVE YOU SWEETIE.......I LOVE YOU MORE THEN ANYONE & OR ANYTHING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND, I USE TO SAY THAT ALWAYS TO YOU AND EACH TIME I DID - YOU WOULD LOOK STRAIGHT INTO MY EYES AND YOU KNEW IT WAS TRUE!!!!!!!

FROM THE TIME YOU WENT HOME TO THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN ON SUNDAY DEC. 2ND, 2007 TO TODAY - MONDAY MAR. 11TH, 2019 IT'S BEEN...............4,117 DAYS, 588 WEEKS & 1 DAY - INCLUDING 3 LEAP DAYS - PLUS 135.29 MONTHS OR COULD SAY: 11.271 YEARS, TO ME IT FEELS LIKE SO MUCH LONGER ALOT OF THE TIME TUP'S THAT I HELD YOU IN MY ARMS, TO SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE IT HASN'T BEEN THAT LONG.

PLEASE COME & VISIT WITH ME SOON & LET ME FEEL, HEAR & SEE YOU MY PRECIOUS BABY.........I SO WISH I COULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN & NEVER KNOW, THAT MIGHT OR COULD HAPPEN - I CAN ALWAYS HOPE, SINCE I SO DO MISS HOLDING YOU, PLAYING WITH YOU & SNUGGLING UP WITH YOU ON OUR BED TOGETHER & JUST BEING WITH YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL!!!!

SAY HI & GIVE EVERYONE - 2 & 4 LEGGED LOTS OF LOVES FROM ME, OK. PLUS GIVE OUR DAD HEAPS OF LOVES FROM ME ON THIS COMING SUNDAY MARCH 17TH - AS ON THAT DAY 18 YEARS AGO NOW, IS WHEN OUR DAD WENT HOME TO THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN.

HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TODAY MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL TUPPY!!!!!
SENDING YOU 4EVER & EVER MY BELOVED TUPPY..........LOADS OF KISSES, TONS OF HUGGIE, WUGGIE, WOOS, HEAPS OF TUMMY RUBS & LOTS OF LOVES!!!MUCH LOVE 4EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxoxoxoXOX

PS. FRIDAY JAN 5TH, 2018: OUR TUPPY & I JUST WANT TO THANK OUR EVER SO WONDERFUL AUNTIE DIANE & MY EVER SO SPECIAL FRIEND ALONG WITH BEING ONE OF OUR TRULY SWEET FAMILY MEMBER'S TODAY FOR RENEWING OUR BELOVED TUPPY'S MEMORIAL PAGE HERE FOR ANOTHER YEAR, AS IT IS TRULY, TRULY, TRULY, TRULY MUCH APPRECIATED OUR DIANE/AUNTIE DIANE, IT ABSOLUTELY & TRULY IS, AS WELL AS BEING EXTREMELY KIND OF YOU!!! WE BOTH LOVE YOU SO MUCH & ALWAYS KNOW YOU ARE A PART OF OUR FAMILY & FOREVER WILL BE!!!!

***P.S. TODAY SUNDAY DEC 2ND, 2018 AT 11:30AM.........WHICH IS YOUR EXACT TIME MY PRECIOUS BABY WHEN YOUR BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT & SOUL WENT HOME TO THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN 11 YEARS AGO TODAY, I STOPPED TO BLOW YOU A KISS AS ALWAYS, PLUS I TRULY CAN'T BELIEVE ANOTHER YEAR HAS GONE BY THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS PHYSICALLY TUPPY - I ALSO CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S NOW 11 WHOLE YEARS-4,018 DAYS-574 WEEKS & 132 WHOLE MONTHS, AS TRULY, TRULY, TRULY WISH YOU WERE STILL WITH ME PHYSICALLY BUT INSTEAD OF BEING SICK - BEING TOTALLY HEALTHY, LIKE YOU ARE NOW BACK HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE.

AS I TRULY, TRULY, TRULY, TRULY NEED YOU MY PRECIOUS BABY MORE THEN EVER NOW - AS YOU PROBABLY ALREADY KNOW THAT, RIGHT MY BABY......................BECAUSE THIS WHOLE YEAR OF 2018 HAS BEEN & STILL IS THE MOST EXCRUCIATING WITH MY SUCH SEVERE, EXTREME CHRONIC PAIN DISEASE, (ALONG WITH HAVING OTHER SEVERE MEDICAL THINGS HAPPENING IN BETWEEN TOO) THAT I'VE EVER BEEN IN SO FAR, PLUS DOESN'T SEEM TO BE STOPPING ANYTIME SOON EITHER, UGH!!!
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TODAY MONDAY JAN. 20TH, 2020:
MY EVER SO BELOVED, BEAUTIFUL, PRECIOUS TUPPY,
THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME I WILL BE WRITING IN HERE FOR YOU BECAUSE I GOT A SENSE LAST MONTH THAT I REALLY THINK CAME FROM YOUR AUNTIE DIANE THAT SHE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO RENEW ANYMORE..........SO THANKFULLY I HAVE HAD TIME TO ADJUST TO THIS & WAS ABLE TO WRITE TO GINNY & LET HER KNOW, WHICH SHE SAID SHE WILL KEEP YOUR PRECIOUS MEMORIAL READY IN CASE SOMEONE KIND PAYS - FOR TWO YEARS, BUT I DON'T THINK THAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.

MAYBE IT IS TIME TUP'S AS IT HAS BEEN 12 YEARS - WELL AS OF IN 2 DAYS - JAN.22ND, 2020.........BUT I WILL TRULY MISS COMING IN HERE & VISITING WITH YOU, ONE GOOD THING WAS THAT YOUR AUNTIE KATE WAS ABLE TO READ IT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS LAST MONTH & I'M SURE THAT WAS MEAN'T TO BE TOO.

YOUR PHOTO/MEMORIAL AT THE TOP I'VE JUST PUT TO WINTER SINCE LAST WEEK WAS A BIG SNOW WEEK FOR US.........I THOUGHT BACK TO ALL THE WONDERFUL, FUN TIMES WE HAD THROUGH THE YEARS IN THE SNOW, DIDN'T WE SWEETIE, SO MAYBE THAT WAS MEAN'T TOO - THAT WE GOT SNOW EARLIER THEN USUAL THIS TIME. SO SINCE YOU LOVED THE SNOW SO MUCH, IS WHY I DECIDED IT SHOULD END WITH WINTER.

THANKFULLY YEARS AGO FOR YOUR GODMOM JUNE I PRINTED QUITE A NUMBER OF YOUR MEMORIAL PAGE ALONG WITH YOUR GUESTBOOK, ETC OUT HERE AND I MADE A BIG COPY MYSELF & PUT IT ALL IN A SPECIAL FOLDER WHICH I DECORATED JUST FOR YOU TUPPY & I JUST WENT LOOKING AND FOUND IT, WOW MY BABY!!

I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW BIG A PROJECT I DID OF THIS..............BUT I'M TRULY, TRULY, TRULY GRATEFUL THAT I DID BECAUSE NOW I CAN LOOK BACK AND SEE ALL OF IT - ALONG WITH ALL THE WONDERFUL FURPARENTS WE MET AT THE BEGINNING THROUGH THE PRAYER SERVICE HERE & THE CHATS AFTER, PLUS WE ALL KNEW THEN THAT THEIR PRECIOUS FURBABIES WERE WITH YOU ON THE OTHERSIDE GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND PLAYING TOO & BECOMING FAMILY IN A WAY.

SINCE THEN I'VE ALWAYS COPIED & PASTED THIS TO KEEP OF WHEN I'VE WRITTEN IN HERE ALONG WITH SIGNING YOUR GUESTBOOOK, AS WELL AS OTHERS SIGNING IT TOO TO ALSO ALWAYS SAVING THE E-MAILS FROM GINNY REMEMBERING YOUR PASSING DATE.......MAYBE ONE OF THESE DAYS WILL ASK YOUR AUNTIE MARCIA & UNCLE MICHAEL IF THEY WILL PRINT IT ALL OFF FOR ME, SINCE WE DON'T HAVE A PRINTER ANYMORE. THEN THAT WILL BE ADDED ALSO INTO YOUR EVER SO SPECIAL FOLDER I HAVE HERE TOO.

I ALSO OF COURSE HAVE A BIG JOURNAL THAT I WROTE ALL YOUR HAPPY TIMES IN IT & ALWAYS WROTE THAT AT OUR SPECIAL SPOT AT BOWKER'S CREEK. PLUS AS YOU KNOW MY BABY, ALOT OF YOUR PHOTOS ARE HANGING ALL OVER OUR HOME, ALONG WITH YOUR PHOTOS IN FRAMES & IN PHOTO ALBUMS, ON QUITE A FEW OF YOUR SPECIAL TABLES AROUND HERE.

YOU KNOW THOUGH MY SWEET BABY THAT I HAVE A HARD TIME SITTING HERE AT THE COMPUTER THESE DAYS, SO MAYBE THAT'S ANOTHER REASON IT'S MEAN'T TO BE THAT WE SAY - SO LONG WITH THIS - YOUR EXTREMELY SPECIAL MEMORIAL PAGE........I WILL STILL BE ABLE TO PLAY YOUR SPECIAL MUSIC I CHOSE JUST FOR YOU THAT'S PLAYING EVEN NOW - WIND BENEATH MY WINGS, AS DO HAVE IT HERE ON OUR COMPUTER AND ALSO I HAVE THE CD OF IT.

IT JUST WON'T BE AND NEVER WILL BE THE SAME ANYMORE MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL - MY ONE & ONLY TUPPY..........I LOVE & MISS YOU MORE THEN LIFE ITSELF & FOREVER WILL, UNTIL I JOIN YOU AT HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE & HAVE YOU BACK IN MY ARMS, WHICH I CAN'T WAIT, TRULY I CAN'T. UNTIL THEN TUP'S, PLEASE KEEP COMING TO COMFORT ME AT NIGHT & LET ME HEAR, FEEL AND SEE YOU - AS THAT'S ALL I EVER AND WILL EVER WANT, IS YOU MY BABY, OK!!!

LOVE FOREVER & EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXXXOXOXXXX
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OH MY BELOVED TUPPY: WE ARE BACK AS OF TODAY TUESDAY FEB. 25TH,20 BECAUSE OF YOUR WONDERFUL AUNTIE DIANE, YAY!!!! SHE SAID SHE WAS SICK FOR THE MONTH OF DECEMBER, SO WASN'T ABLE TOO - I KNOW THOUGH NOW IT WAS YOU THAT LET ME KNOW & LET ME SENSE THAT IT WASN'T GOING TO BE RENEWED WHEN IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE & I THANK YOU FOR THAT MY BEAUTIFUL BABY.I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS & I'M CRYING WITH HAPPINESS RIGHT NOW....I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH IT AFFECTED ME SAYING SO LONG WITH YOUR MEMORIAL PAGE, BUT I SHOULD HAVE AS IT'S A BIG PART OF ME, PLUS A BIG PART OF YOU MY BABY!!

NOW I UNDERSTAND EVEN MORE YOUR SPECIAL VISIT TO ME JUST THIS PAST LATE SUNDAY NIGHT/MONDAY MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE ME TO SAY YOU WERE THERE WITH & ON ME & I WAS ABLE TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU THROUGH THOUGHTS, BEFORE I FELL ASLEEP AGAIN, THANK YOU TUPPY FOR YOUR VISIT, I TRULY SO LOVE FEELING YOU WITH & ON MY BACK.....AS YOU TRULY GIVE ME THE GREATEST COMFORT THROUGH ALL THIS SUCH EXTREMELY, SEVERE, EXCRUCIATING PAIN I'M LIVING WITH NOW.

BECAUSE WITH YOUR SPECIAL VISIT YOU ALREADY KNEW YOUR PRECIOUS MEMORIAL PAGE WAS COMING BACK, DIDN'T YOU MY SMART LIL BOY!!! YAY TUPPY,I'M SMILING THROUGH MY TEARS AS I WRITE THIS & JUST WANT TO SAY: WELCOME BACK!!!

I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL, PRECIOUS, BELOVED ANGEL MORE THEN ANYONE AND OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND & FOREVER WILL..........PLUS I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID, WRITTEN OR IN OUR THOUGHTS, YOU ARE MY #1 TUPPY & FOREVER WILL BE & TUPPY, YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO RICH & WHOLE & FOREVER WILL, I SO CAN'T WAIT UNTIL YOU ARE BACK IN MY ARMS FOREVER!!MUCH LOVE FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxoxoxoxXOX
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***SUN. DEC. 2ND, 2007 TO TODAY: WEDNESDAY DEC. 2ND, 2020 = 13 YEARS XOX***
HELLO MY BELOVED TUPPY I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S NOW 13 WHOLE YEARS (4,749 DAYS, 678 WEEKS & 156 MTHS) SINCE I'VE HELD YOU PHYSICALLY IN MY ARMS NOR BEEN ABLE TO GIVE YOU TUMMY RUBS, KISSES, HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS & TONS OF LOVES, IF I COULD HAVE ONE WISH IT WOULD BE GIVING YOU ALL THOSE THINGS & HOLDING YOU IN MY ARMS & JUST FEELING YOU AGAIN.............AS I MISS YOU SO MY BABY, MORE & MORE AS TIME GOES BY, I TRULY DO!!!

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SIGNS YOU SEND ME WHEN I ESPECIALLY NEED THEM LIKE - SEEING A WESTIE WHEN I'VE BEEN OUT & BEING ABLE TO SAY HI TO HIM/HER-BUT THEY ARE NOT YOU TUP'S & I TRULY JUST WANT YOU......I DO HEAR NOISES SOMETIMES IN OUR HALL WHEN I'M GOING OFF TO SLEEP & I KNOW THAT'S YOU, I JUST SO NEED TO FEEL YOU NEXT TO ME TUP'S, SO PLEASE WAKE ME TO LET ME KNOW YOU ARE ALWAYS STILL HERE WITH ME, OK.

I'M EVER SO SORRY I HAVEN'T COME ON HERE IN QUITE AWHILE BUT AS YOU KNOW SOME DAYS I CAN'T COME ON THE COMPUTER AT ALL & WHEN I DO, IT'S NEVER FOR THAT LONG ANYMORE..............BUT YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY THOUGHTS TUPPY, PLUS WHERE EVER I LOOK IN OUR HOME HERE I SEE YOU IN ALL YOUR GORGEOUS PHOTOS + I HAVE ALL THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES WE SHARED TOGETHER, I ALSO THINK THAT WHENEVER I GO OUT YOU ARE COMING WITH ME IN SPIRIT, JUST AS YOU ALWAYS CAME EVERYWHERE WITH ME, RIGHT MY BABY!!!

I HEARD FROM YOUR AUNTIE JUTTA ON MY BIRTHDAY LAST WEEK, WE ONLY EVER SEEM TO TALK NOW WHEN IT'S EACH OF OUR BIRTHDAYS....I'M SURE YOU STILL GO VISIT HER WITH MIKEY & CHELSEA- I WISH SHE COULD SEE OR HEAR YOU THREE....AS THEN, MAYBE SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT THE THREE OF YOU & ALL THOSE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE SHARED TOGETHER TOO!! I LOVE YOU TUPPY MORE THEN ANYONE AND/OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & FOREVER WILL THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND - PLUS I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID, WRITTEN & IN OUR THOUGHTS.........YOU ARE & FOREVER WILL BE MY BABY, MY SON, MY BEST FRIEND, MY COMPANION, MY CAREGIVER (THE BEST EVER), MY SOULMATE & MY SOUL COMPANION 4EVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!

OUR BOND IS STILL STRONG & FOREVER WILL BE TUP'S, AS NO ONE OR ANYTHING COULD EVER BREAK IT......YOU ARE MY ONE & ONLY FOREVER AND EVER + I'M EVER SO GRATEFUL FOR THE TIME WE PHYSICALLY HAD & FOR THE ETERNITY TIME WE WILL HAVE WHEN I JOIN YOU AT HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN, I CAN'T WAIT!!! TAKE SPECIAL CARE, HAVE LOADS OF FUN WITH ALL YOUR SPECIAL FURBUDDIES ALONG WITH ALL YOUR FURBUDDIES YOU HAVE MADE THERE, OUR FURBROTHERS & FURFAMILY + OUR WHOLE FAMILY THAT ARE THERE & OUR SPECIAL FRIENDS TOO....... PLUS GIVE THEM ALL TONS OF KISSES & LOVES FROM ME, OK!!!MUCH LOVE FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxox

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HELLO MY PRECIOUS TUPPY, WELL THANKFULLY YOUR AUNTIE DIANE CAME THROUGH & SIGNED US UP FOR OUR 13th YEAR WITH HAVING THIS EVER SO BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL PAGE YESTERDAY, ALONG WITH GINNY MAKING SURE IT CAME TO YOUR EXISTING ONE INSTEAD OF MAKING A WHOLE NEW PAGE, WHICH WE DIDN'T WANT TO DO, RIGHT. SO WANT TO SAY A HUGE THANK YOU TO BOTH YOUR AUNTIE DIANE & THE FOUNDER HERE - GINNY, FOR EVERYTHING!!!

OH TUP'S YOU WOULD SO LOVE WHAT IS OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW TODAY - MASSIVE SNOW & IT'S STILL SNOWING, AS IT STARTED LAST EVENING AND HASN'T STOPPED YET..............WE WOULD HAVE ALREADY BEEN OUT MULTIPLE TIMES IN IT IF YOU HAD BEEN PHYSICALLY HERE, WOULDN'T WE, LOL!!!AS YOU SO LOVED PLAYING IN IT & WHEN WE WOULD FINALLY COME IN, ALL YOU WANTED TO DO WAS GO STRAIGHT BACK OUT IN IT......SO I WOULD ALWAYS SAY YES AND OUT WE WOULD GO & SPEND SO MUCH TIME HAVING FUN TOGETHER, THESE ARE THE TIMES I ALSO MISS NOT HAVING YOU PHYSICALLY HERE MY SWEET & PRECIOUS BABY! SINCE WE DO HAVE LOADS OF SNOW & STILL SNOWING...........I'VE CHANGED YOUR MEMORIAL AT THE TOP TO WINTER, AS I KNOW YOU WOULD LOVE THAT, ENJOY!!

***TOMORROW FEB.14th, 2021 IS OUR ANNIVERSARY*** - AS IT WILL BE 20 YEARS THAT YOU MOVED IN HERE WITH ME, IN BETWEEN THOSE THREE MONTHS OF OUR PARENTS GOING HOME TO HEAVEN, YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY WAS THE ONLY BEST THING THAT CAME FROM THOSE THREE MONTHS, AS I WOULD HAVE BEEN TOTALLY LOST WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE, WHICH OF COURSE YOU KNOW.
SO HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL TUPPY...I LOVE & MISS YOU MORE & MORE EACH PASSING DAY, WEEK, MONTH & YEAR, PLUS I SO LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY WHEN I CAN JOIN YOU & HAVE YOU BACK IN MY ARMS FOREVER & EVER IN HEAVEN, THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND.

UNTIL THEN TUP'S..PLEASE KEEP COMING & LETTING ME HEAR, FEEL & SEE YOU, AS YOU BRING ME THE BEST COMFORT OF ALL THROUGH MY EVEN MORE EXTREMELY, SEVERE CHRONIC PAIN, YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT MY BABY. I SO NEED YOU TUPPY MORE THEN EVER & FOREVER WILL!!!!KEEP HAVING FUN PLAYING WITH ALL YOUR SPECIAL FURBUDDIES, OUR FURBROTHERS & OUR FURFAMILY...ALONG WITH ALL OUR FAMILY & SPECIAL FRIENDS THAT ARE WITH YOU ON THE OTHERSIDE/HEAVEN & TELL THEM I LOVE & MISS EACH & EVERY ONE OF THEM, ALRIGHT. ALSO TELL THEM THEY CAN ALSO VISIT ME ANYTIME - JUST MAKE SURE TO WAKE ME SO I CAN HEAR & FEEL THEM, OK. AS I SO AM NEEDING SOME OF THEIR SPECIAL HUGS THESE DAYS!!!!

MUCH LOVE FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxXOX

SUNDAY DEC. 2nd, 2007 TO TODAY: THURSDAY DEC. 2nd, 2021........14 YEARS AT: 11:30am XOX

HI MY BEAUTIFUL, BELOVED, PRECIOUS, ANGEL,

I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S NOW BEEN 14 YEARS (5,114 DAYS/730 WEEKS/168 MONTHS) THAT YOU HAVE NOW BEEN AT HOME ON THE OTHER SIDE/HEAVEN....I DID FEEL YOU IN THE NIGHT LAST NIGHT, SLEEPING AGAINST MY HEAD ON OUR PILLOW, THANK YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY FOR COMING TO VISIT ME & HOPE YOU HEARD ME SAY - I LOVE YOU - THROUGH MY THOUGHTS TO YOU.

ALSO THANK YOU FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL SIGNS YOU SEND ME, AS I LOVE THEM ALL, BUT MOST OF ALL I LOVE WHEN YOU COME TO ME IN THE NIGHT & WAKE ME UP SO THAT I KNOW YOU ARE RIGHT WITH ME, AS ALWAYS!!!

I SO THOUGH LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY WHEN I CAN JOIN YOU AT HOME ON THE OTHER SIDE & GET TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AGAIN, ALONG WITH PLAY WITH YOU.....AS THAT'S GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY, WHEN IT HAPPENS MY PRECIOUS, IT REALLY IS!!!

MY TUPPY - YOU HAVE & ALWAYS WILL MAKE MY LIFE SO RICH, JUST BY BEING HERE & THEN AT HOME WITH YOU!! YOU ARE FOREVER MY #1, MY BABY, MY SON, MY BEST FRIEND (IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD), MY SOULMATE, MY CAREGIVER (THE BEST EVER), MY SOUL COMPANION & MY EVERYTHING, FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND!!!

I LOVE YOU MY BABY MORE THEN ANYONE & OR ANYTHING IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD & BEYOND..........PLUS I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER BE SAID, WRITTEN & IN OUR THOUGHTS, YOU KNOW THAT!!!!

HAVE FUN PLAYING WITH ALL OUR FUR-BROTHERS & FUR-FAMILY, ALONG WITH ALL OUR FUR-BUDDIES & ALL THE FUR-BUDDIES YOU HAVE MADE SINCE BEING HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE, OK. PLUS GIVE KISSES & LOVES FROM ME - TO ALL OUR FAMILY & EVER SO SPECIAL FRIENDS, ETC WHO ARE HOME ON THE OTHERSIDE WITH YOU MY BELOVED TUPPY, OK.

TAKE EVER SUCH SPECIAL CARE, SENDING TONS OF HUGGIE-WUGGIE-WOOS, TUMMY RUBS, KISSES & LOVES TO YOU MY ONE & ONLY TUPPY!!!

LOVE FOREVER & EVER THROUGH ETERNITY & BEYOND, MOMMY xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxXOXOX