After she died, I looked at her adoption papers. The shelter described her as a "goofball" and that she was always happy --
"a glass half-full" personality. That is exactly what she was. She was always happy and got such joy out of the simple things in life -- running her "zoomies" down the hall of my apartment building and LOVED to run in the snow. No matter how sad I was, she could put a smile on my face. She put a smile on the face of everyone who met her. She taught me to just enjoy life as it is and that the simple pleasures were enough to be happy.

When she died so quickly and suddenly from cancer, she taught me the final lesson that she had to teach me: move on with your life and enjoy "the here and now" as you never know when your life is going to end. Only after these 16 months since she passed away, can I move on and adopt another beagle. My eyes are watering even as I write this. I can never replace her and will never forget her. The one thing that has made losing her bearable is the thought that I will see her again when my time comes.

February 20, 2021: Two years ago today, the Lord mercifully ended my baby girl's suffering and took her to heaven. I think of her from time to time and will even talk out loud to her and tell her how much I miss her. Losing her forced me to change for the better and grow in ways that I've wanted for years -- even in death, she is still teaching me. I most miss rubbing her belly, kissing her, and singing back and forth worth her in her high pitch hum that others would mistake for whining -- but I could always tell the difference between her whining and her happy humming sound.

February 20, 2024:
Hello my baby girl. I hope you are leading your little sister Scala into mischief as you did when you were both alive. I hope your human sister is with you guys playing. I hope you can forgive me for not thinking or talking to you much of late. I'm still grieving your sister and talking to her a lot. It's been 5 years since I lost you but feels more like 20 years. I feel guilty for not thinking of you more. I hope God will let me be with you guys again after I die. There are times when I look at your little brother and think it's you. I saw a beagle mix at the dog park that had your brown and white colors --. I had to pet him and give him a belly rub like I did with you. Please know that I will always love you.