Topsy - I did like to write my heart out today which I cannot say in words to anyone and also to a world who never understood me. Your death was a very unique and most painful grieving experience I have ever experienced. But I thought that the world would understand me in my this painful experience, but to my surprise it is minimised and not taken seriously as that of a human loved one. I shattered from within. I didn't get any bereavement time off work, there was no funeral or celebration of life. I was all alone and confused as I never experienced this pain before neither you taught me. No friends or family even bothered to console me. On the other hand, I was expected by the whole world to get over this and move on with life much quicker.

What I experienced while your loss was that the loss of a pet is equally painful and devastating and at the same time life-changing as the loss of any human. And sometimes it's even worse. What really matters is that how deep the love is.

So, I collected myself all alone with your brother Rick by my side. My life totally changed since that day. I don't know what but I lost something very important within me that day, which I may be searching for the rest of my life.

I didn't cared what this world or people would think but I did do your funeral and everything that is done for a human loss, which was in my control.

Topsy, you came into my life and changed my life. Through you I saw life differently. My life is now forever changed because of you in it.

You taught me how to love completely and without limits. You taught me how to be a parent, and how to love and protect the ones I love. You taught me how to be strong even when I wanted to quit.

You gave me a reason to wake up every morning. My love for you reached far beyond the human world. I know that you are still here with me and that you will be the first one to greet me when it's time for me to go home. But before then I pray that you will meet me in my dreams. I miss you every day and would do just about anything to hold you, see you wag your cute little tail and have you give me kisses.

I pray that I was as good to you as you were to me. Thank you for being my best friend, my little cutie pie and my soulmate.

I also thank to lord Krishna for bringing you into my life. Thank you lord for allowing us to love and learn from one another. Thank you for all the beautiful life experiences with my Topsy.

Dear lord, please accept him and help him cross over and connect with our loved ones. Please fill him with so much love and gratitude for his life here.

Dear lord, please take care of my Topsy and keep him safe and reunite our souls when the time is right. Thank you for blessing me with this earth angel and now my spiritual angel.

Thank you lord!

Love you and miss you Topsy!