Miss Oreo,
Oh my dear Bunny Boo... Sunday marked four weeks since you left me, and today marks the one month! Oh my dear baby, why did you leave me?! I hurt still, and it won't go away. I cry and cry and sometimes I can;t stop so I just gasp for air into my pillow. Me and my pillow are good friends now and I spen a lot of time crying there at night.
I remeber all the times I thought I was going to lose you before. In June when you started bleeding and school just got out for the summer. I came home from a graduation party and you were bleeding. I scooped you in my arms and couldn't breathe. Oh Oreo, I was mortified. You were all right.
Last year when you had cancer and the Dr. didn't think he could remove it I cried even more. The day you went into surgery, I was a nervous nanny, incapable of concentrating on anything. I didn't think you would make it- but I made you promise. I prayed to God all day (no understatement there) that you would come to me for at least a few more weeks. He answered our prayers and you were able to be at home for another year and a half. It was a miricle no doubt.
All those times you got those horrible hairballs. Three years ago I had to nurse you back to health because you were so sick. You finally passed it after a few days. I was so scared, but you hung there with me.
But why couldn't you do it this time, Oreo? You beat the odds many times before. I tried to reason with God but He told me "no". Why? You were perfect. I know it was partly my fault. I know you tried so hard! Why didn't I see it sooner... if only I would have been prepared you would still be here. You tried so hard.
Please forgive me. I am all torn up inside, baby. I miss you.
Why doesn't this pain leave? It hurts Oreo. I loved you. Why were you so perfect? Life isn't fair! I love you..if only that was enough to save you.
Although I feel miserable I know I will see you again and you are happy. Just remember to wait for me. I will never ever forget you my baby. Never ever. My children and grandchildren will even know about you. I promise I won't forget you! Please don't forget me. Wait for me.
I Love You Always Bunny Boo!
Mommy
Ps- Ask God if you can come and visit some time.