Hello My bunny boo! My fluffy buns, punky, Miss Oreo.
Oh baby I miss you so very much! It has been so very hard since you left me. There are some things I never got to tell you and I regret it from the bottom of my heart.
I know I promised never to let anything bad ever happen to you. I know I promised! I am so sorry. If only I could have done something more. The emergency vet told me that your chance of surviving the surgery was very slim. Please don't hate me for not going through with it, please oh please. I know you were in so much pain you probably didn't understand through my choked sobs and tears. Sometimes while I watched you suffer all evening I wished that maybe I would have had the courage to let you go earlier. I was selfish baby, I only wanted a few more hours with you since it was so sudden. I thank God that he let the pain killers work for as long as they did,but I still hurt to remeber the pain you went through that very last hour we were together. I had to bring you home, baby. I had already broken my promise of never letting anything happen to you, so I had to keep the other by never letting you die alone in an office.
Oh my Oreo... I know you could hear me as I lay with you there on my tummy laboring your breathing. I know you were telling me that I had to let you go. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I never knew I would hurt so. That is all I can say, I hurt. I never felt anything like it before. I couldn't eat. I missed a day of school and felt no hope. Nightmare pleagued me and I couldn't sleep. Don't worry baby I am slowly getting better. Just say that you will forgive me for being selfish. It just came on so sudden that I didn't have any time to say good-bye.
Why did you leave me behind. I miss you so very much. I only hope now that you don't hurt like you did and that you are having fun as you wait for me. Some day, after I have shared your story with my kids and grandkids and millions of people I will come to meet you again. That is my only light right now. Nobody ever told me how hard it was to lose a baby.
Dr, Fink sent a card and was sorry to hear you had left me. Carolyn and her bunny Tippi sent a card too. Remember that bunny party we had with her and her bunnies? Grandma and Bonnie miss you too- they sent lovely card as well. Jackie and her puppy dog, the one you used to play with sent a card too. I recieve so many cards and phone calls you wouldn't believe it. Little Jordan and Olivia called and expressed how much they missed you too. As much as he hates to admit it, I think dad misses you too, especially giving you carrot tops after work and calling you Catie;s little fat rabbit. He loved you a lot too. I don't think you realized how many lives you touched my furry friend including my own.
I remember when dad tolfld me that I could get a bunny! I was soo excited. He tod me that I had to bring to of my failing grades up to and A before he considered it and that was our deal. The day I saw you at the Petstore, you were it! You helped me in soooo many ways! I am now at the top of my class and will be graduating soon. Bunny boo you got me through all those tough years of seventh grade and even all the way through high school. When ever I needed a good cry I just came to you and you always made me feel better. No matter what the circumstance you always made me feel better. I never had a better friend than you.
Everyday when I come home after school I expect to see your black and white fur and hear your thumping greeting when you got breakfast in the morning. I even remeber every morning at the crack of dawn how you would run your laps around your luxury cage- never wanted to forget your workout! :) After school you got your treat and could never wait. DO you remeber all those funny looks we got when we went for walks and when we went to the fair together and we entered the best dressed rabbit competition. Everyone thought you were so spoiled with your fancy dishes, and personal fan so you wouldn't be hot. None of the other rabbits had any of that and they had to eat the plain pellets too. I have so many good memories too. To think I made it all the way through middle school because of you and all the way through high school- almost. It is going to be hard the rest of my senior year with out you though. Remeber our famly Christmas picture last year with you and Lady. Everyone loved it and my senior pictures too? It was so comical to see the looks on the photographer faces when they had to take our pictures. You were in such a silly mood you made everyone stop to laugh. You were always good at that! I am feeling a lot of strain right now with the pressure of my senior year and I don't have you to get me through. I miss you.
Yesterday we went to UNL to tour to Pre-Veterinary facility and to ask questions. I am going to make you proud and go through with my dream and become a veterinarian so I can help people like me who love their pets as babies, becauase that is what they are. I will never forget you and I love you sooo much!
Brian took me to his work a few days ago because they had a bunny there that was left with them and needs a home soon. I cried and held her for 10 minutes. How could anybody leave such a special little girl? I told him it was to soon, but maybe.
Feel free to visit me in my dreams, Oreo. I miss you a whole lot. It really does hurt- badly, but slowly I am getting better. Until we meet again... I love you more than you will ever know!
Your mommy...
Ps- God please take special care of my little girl. I miss her a whole lot!