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1/5/14 Miss Bug, It has been two years today since your little body gave out. It is hard to believe it has been so long. I am still so heart broken. You gave me so much happiness when you were here and you made me into a better person. I know you are in a better place and that we will be together again someday but there is still a hole in my heart. To know you are not sick and suffering is the upside; that I cannot pet you or have you sleeping on the bed next to me is the downside. I hope you and Jaden along with your brother Bear are all doing well. On this sad day I want you to know how much I love you and miss you.

2/5/14 Hey my little girl. Another month has come and gone; feels like it went so fast. It has been so busy with everything going on with me leaving my job and going to consulting. I hope you are doing well. It has been a tough month with Allie being very sick and having to spend time in the hospital. She still has to have all of her teeth pulled and she has blood problems. Our peach colored cat Parker had urinary problems and had to be on drugs. He seems to be back to his old strange duck self. How I wish you were with us to enjoy Arizona. You are and always will be cutest kitten in the whole world and I miss you so. I love you Bug.

3/5/14 Good morning my beautiful little miss Bug. Another month has come and gone. We are now facing a crisis with Allie. She has been in the hospital for 6 days now. We had her teeth removed and that has fixed her infection and gotten her to have blood platelettes. Now she has developed kidney problems and is very listless. We are all praying for her here as we go through this. I hope to see her improve, come home and have several years of life with us left before she comes to see you. I hope you are doing well and that you and Bear are good. I miss you and wish I could have just one day to have you with us to have your spirit here. We love you and miss you my girl.

4/5/14 My Bug, Allie has come to the Rainbow Bridge to be with you. I write this with such sadness. She was such a nice girl and we now have to wonder did we make the wrong decision as we may have with you. We tried to do the right thing and extend her life; instead we took the few months she may have had. I do not know if she was in pain but it breaks my heart that she pretty much bled to death. She died in Nicole's arms and was so loved just like you. I hope the two of you and Bear are doing well. We love and miss all of you everyday.

5/5/14 Miss Bug, Another month has come and gone. We have adopted another kitty. We have mynx who is 14 and a cancer survivor. She is such a unique cat. Looks like baboon and meows like she smoke pall malls. She is nice girl and has had a rough life. She is not the rest of the cats favorite. We do love her and she will live out the rest of her life with us. It is sad to see you, Bear and Allie's ashes on the wall. I so wish you were still here as I think your sister Daisy misses you and needs a friend. I know I miss you so much my beautiful little girl.

6/5/14 Bug, I am running out of space here. I want to say I miss you. love you and you are still my little girl and pop loves you so much.

7/7/14 Bug, 2.5 years ago the world lost the most wonderful little girl. Time has healed my heart some but you are still the most amazing little kitty I have ever known. The way you changed the grumpy old guy is amazing. I spend so much time and energy helping other cats and trying to give them better lives. I could not help you but I tried and I see the same with what we do now. To see some get better is such a good thing and others go through the same ending you did. I wish I could save them all but most I wish I could have saved you. You are one in a billion my little miss Bug. I love you and miss you. I hope you are happy at the Rainbow Bridge.

8/7/14 My Bug. I miss you my girl. Time has heeled me somewhat but that does not mean you are not in my heart everyday. It has been over 2.5 years and as time passes the pain has gotten less. I know you know that does not mean I love you less. You made such an impact on my heart and you will always be in my heart my beautiful little girl.

9/15/14 Little Bug. Just reading a story on Facebook of an orange kitty being put to sleep tomorrow. It breaks my heart and brings back memories of you. That day will always be one of the worst in my life. I miss you so much. On a brighter note, little Loki has made it to AZ from Brooklyn NY. He is so cute and was to be put down. He had a nice flight and I had a very long day. Bug, you made me into such a better person and you have helped me help many others. Bug I love you more then life my beautiful little girl.

10/10/14 Hi my Bug. Another friend lost two kittens at 7 weeks. Brother and sister. So sad. We talked about you and I sent her your necropsy. It was so sad. How can such a beautiful little girl have been so sick. I miss you my girl. Your sister Daisy is been a handful with Loki and I hope they can get along better. Miss you and love you My Bugster.

11/11/14 My Little Girl. Another month has come and gone. Loki has been trying to be Graice's friend. It is a slight City Mouse Country Mouse kind of situation. Nothing like you and her. She loved you so much and you two were so great together. Loki does go and lay and sleep next to Gracie but he is a little wild boy and he scares her at times. It is good to see one of our kids hanging near her. I so wish you were here to be with her. It is so hard to believe you have been gone almost three years. You are still the "Cutest Cat in the Whole Wide World" and I love you and miss you my girl.

1/5/15 Little Bug. Another year has come and gone. It was 3 years ago today that was the worst day of my life. You may not be with us physically but you are always here in spirit and in my heart. I can still cry after 3 years as you stole my heart and when you left there was a hole created. We have gone through a lot this year with losing Allie and adding Mynx our cancer survivor and Loki who is such a joy. Your country mouse Gracie is with us and doing okay. She has had some rough days in the last month but she seems better now. I hope you are doing well in your world and that you are happy and pain free. I know you know how much you were and are loved. You were and are "the cutest kitten in the whole wide world" and I love you more than words can say. Dad.

05/05/15 Hi My Bug, 4 months since I last wrote. 40 months ago today you left us in physical presence but you are in our hearts. I want you to know that you are the little girl who changed me forever. I have tried to do as much good as I can to help others in your name. I love you so much and miss you so much. Cutes kitten in the whole wide world.....Miss Bug.

10/5/15 Another 5 months since I have written. So much has happenned and no room to write. Our little Mynx is sick and has sometime left but how much we do not know. We have moved to Calif and now live in Fresno. Suri loves it here and her allergies seem so much better. It was 3 yrs 9 months ago you left us today. I miss you my beautiful little girl. I wish you were with us to spend time with you. I will see you again someday my little Bug. I love you and miss you.

01/05/16 Anonther year my little Bug. I still miss you more than words can say. You were the most incredible little girl and gave me so much happiness. Your mom Nicole misses you too very much. We still talk about you and what an amazing personality you had. It has been a year with loss. We lost our Mynx "Nugget" in October to kidney failure. She was such a nice girl and we miss her and her unique meow. Your sister Daisy is with us still and has been off and very aloof lately. I hope she is okay. She really loves to snuggle up to Nicole but is scared of the other cats and of me at times. We have moved again to California and the cats seem to like it here. It is very hard to think about how today played out 4 years ago. You deserved so much better and I wish I could have done more for you. I know you are pain free and in a better place and that the day will come when I get to see you and the rest of my family and our other kids. I truly love you more than words can say and miss you always.

04/26/16 Not an anniversay date but I am here thinking of you and miss you my beautiful little girl.

7/6/16 I am out of room. Love you my Bug. 4.5 years and you are so loved and missed.

9/26/16 Miss you my girl.

01/05/17 No room left. Love you so much. Cried a lot today. Pop.