Yesterday was a very sad day, the day I lost my best friend!! Still trying to figure out how we went from being so happy to being so sad. Last week I started to notice that my 5yr old lab husky mix Sasha was acting funny, it started with her shaking her teeth and butt a little which was odd, then on Wednesday I took her out and when she put her head down her collar fell off, on Thursday she didnt meet me at that door which was odd, she was still moving around but I was started to think something was going on,when she didnt want to get on the bed and sleep with me, yes I let her sleep right next to me, I was wondering what was up and on Friday she didnt meet me at the door again, then I noticed she hadnt eaten at all but was still drinking, Fridaynight was the last night she slept on the floor next to the bed and on her way upstairs she cried, that was the last time I would hear her make any noise. During the night on Friday she started to make heavy noises and we were up most of the night, first thing Saturday I brought her to the emergency vets and they said maybe she pulled a muscle in her neck and if she got worse to bring her back, well she got worse and on Sunday I brought her back for an Xray and full blood work, well her heart was enlarged and her numbers were off the charts, she has progressive kidney disease..She isnt going to make it longer than a week they tell me..Lets say I was absolutely devastated..cried and cried and cried..so Mon I took all her test results to a second vet and they said the same thing, that wasnt good enough for me, how do you go from doing laps around the yard to you are dieing..WHAT...so I went to a third vet, and yes they all said the same thing, how could this be happening.what did I miss..they tell me this happens with mixed breads and she was probably born w bad kidneys, and our reg vet doesnt check the blood on our yearly visits so I never knew she was sick, she never was sick, she was the best, my best friend, I cooked she was w me, I sleep she was there, use the bathroom, she was there, stop quick and she would have bumped into the back of me, she was my baby, my first dog!!!we were best friend, I swear she was smart could almost say Out..she knew alot..if she could have only talked to me and told me.I spent the last few days non stop w her, I wasnt going to leave her alone, I gave her water out of my hand and wet her gums w a face cloth, and yesterday I lost her..I was with her holding her..now my heart is breaking and I dont know what to do, she was 5!!!Today I had to leave the house because I just couldnt handle being wout her, and then I realized no matter where I went I was still crying and soo sad, I just dont know what to do w myself, it has been about her for so long that I feel lost..I am hoping that one day it will get easier but not sure if thats ever going to happen..Right now I have an aching in my heart that is so unreal..wishing I still had my baby to love, Sasha I will love and miss you all of my days, You will forever be in my heart and my soul...