What can I say about the love of my life who was taken from me just two short days ago, which seems like weeks. I have never seen time pass so slowly. I guess it's because I want my life to hurry up so I can go to heaven and be reunited with my soul mate...which is by the way a loving, black and white tuxedo cat named Socker Girl. I had 14 years of solid fun loving full days with my cat. I have never been this close to another human being. The bond we had for each other was so strong. I have never been this close with a human being, much less an animal, but I did not consider Socker-girl to be an animal, she was much more like a human. She mad what I call "half-meows" a whole bunch of them in a row like she was saying a sentence, and they were the same always....For instance, every morning at 6AM in bed she would come over and lightly tap her paw on my shoulder, she knew I had to get up for work and did not want me to be late. Then after my shower she would nod and proceed to the kitchen while I made her breakfast. Then I would grab my coffee and car keys and she looked at me as she was still eating, nod her head and say about 6 half meows all in a sentence, see she was saying "have a good day at work". She had the same route very day. When I left for work she used to go into the walk in closet and sleep in a small suitcase that was just her size. I have a big beautiful mediterranean house for her ot enjoy but she wanted that little closet. Then I would come home very day for lunch and take her outside into my sunny courtyard where she would spot birds and make about 10 half meows, she only di the 10 when she saw hummingbirds which were her favorites. Then I would say I have to go back to work, and she would nod again and go right back to the front door, and after I fed her lunch she would run 100 miles an hour back to her suitcase. When I got home at 5:30 she would be waiting for me at the laundry room door which attached to my garage. I would open the door up and she had to go sit inside my car for a while. For some reason she wanted in my car to see what the big attraction was and why I was using the car everyday, it was a big mystery for her. After we both had supper we would go on our usual walk outside. Then I would say after work nap and she ran to the couch and made all kinds of sounds and scratch at the apghan for me to put over us. I would put the aphgan over us and she would stay under there for as long as my nap lasted right inbetween my feet where she would scratech at my toes and purr real deep. After my nap was over she wanted to play with her toys, then she would want to go out one more time for about 15 minutes then bedtime came and she hopped up on my bed and made another long sentence, a shorter "good night David" one. the she would lay her head on the pillow next to me and stare into my eyes and purr louder than before. This routine went on for 14 years. This past Sunday I was oout back and was making pool repairs. I had her tied out front and she was enjoying the sun. I heard the neighborhood kid in his mustang burning his tires and racing down the street. then I heard a loud thud. I said to myself he must have hit something, and thank God Socks is tied out all safe and sound and how proud I was of myself for training her to be on a rope, which she did'nt mind at all. About an hour passed and I walked out front and say her rope with just the collar laying there. She had never gotten out of her collar in 14 years. I looked all around my house for 15 minutes with a huge lump in my throat yelling for her and she never came. Then I spotted her dead in the street. I went to pieces and I will never be the same again, ever ever ever ever. My love was taken from me. I never expected for her to die a tragic death, not my baby! I do not know how I will ever go on without her. I can't stop crying. I have been cring for 2 and a half days and do not see any stopping in the near future. What shall I do? The pain is beyond anything I have ever experienced. I pray alot now and tell God to hold my baby, and talk to her and tell her I will see her again. I miss hearing her voice more than anything in the world. It's amazing what those half meows did for my spirit! Socker-Girl I miss you and love you!!!!