We named the kitten Sebastian. That day, I held Sebastian a lot and he would purr as I held him and my heart was so filled with love for this kitten. He was the cutest thing I had ever saw and I had this young kitten's life in my arms and it made me realize how lucky I was to have this cat. He fell asleep in my arms sometimes and he grew really attached to me from the very first time I held him. I guess he could feel the amount of love I had for him and he knew we would be good friends.
Sebastian would follow me around a lot and he would come upstairs to my room and he would lay on my mattress on the floor and he would lay with me all night and wake me up first thing in the morning to let me know it was time for him to eat. He would run down the stairs with me every morning and look up at me as I put his food in the bowl. Sebastian loved his food and this would continue for the rest of his precious life. Me and Sebastian had a very strong bond and it did not take long at all. I would play with him as much as possible. I would drag a shoe string on the floor and he would pounce on it and chase it all around. He also loved when I would hide my finger in between the cushions of the couch and then when i brought my finger back up, he would swat at it oh so gently. Sebastian loved to play.
Sebastian was always full of energy. he always wanted to play. I would spend hours and hours playing with my little baby. I have never been married or had any kids so this was my little baby that I was raising. I would give him a lifetime of love. I told him everyday how much I loved him. Sebastian found out very quickly that he did not like vacuum cleaners. He was so scared of the noise. He would always run and hide when he heard that vacuum. I also found out very quick that Sebastian was terrified of my electric shaver and the noise that it made. He did not like any kind of electronics that made noise.
One year at Christmas time we had the tree up. I was upstairs sleeping and I heard a loud crash. I said to myself, "Please tell me Sebastian did not knock over the Christmas tree." Well he did. I was so scared that my friend was going to be mad as it was his house and his tree so I quickly picked up the tree and adjusted the garland and put the bulbs back on the tree. I was trying to show Sebastian he could not do that so I yelled at him and said NO! I then sprayed him with a water bottle and I never realized how much I would look back and feel so bad for yelling at my baby and spraying him as that is the only time I ever raised my voice to him.
My friend's landlord then decided that we could not have pets so I had to take Sebastian to my grandma's house for her to take care of him for awhile. I missed having my little baby around the house so much and I would cry myself to sleep knowing I could not hold Sebastian in my arms or play with him. I never realized that I would have to keep Sebastian over at my grandma's for almost 3 years. I went and saw him often on but it was hard to travel and go see him a lot so I had to realize that he was in a good house with my grandma who fell in love with Sebastian too and my baby loved my grandma so much.
In 2004, I was living in an apartment with my mom and I was able to bring Sebastian back home with me. It broke my heart to take him from my grandma who was so close with him but she understood how much I missed my little baby and she wanted me to have him. I was so happy to have Sebastian back home. It took him a day or so to get used to the new apartment for him and then he settled in. Me and him picked up right where we left off. We would play for hours but he did not sleep on my bed with me as often as he used to but I knew how much he still loved me.
Sebastian knew when it was time for him to eat as I would always say Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre you hungry? He knew the long Arrrrrrrrrre word and ever time he heard me or mama saying it he would lift his head very quickly or run into the room knowing it was time for him to eat. I would always say that to him every time I was getting ready to feed him. Every Thanksgiving and Christmas I tried getting him a can of Fancy Feast canned food...boy did he love that. He would purr and purr when eating that. Another thing Sebastian loved is tuna fish. If he heard a can open and he smelled that tuna he would meow and meow and you know we always had to give our baby some. I would always give my baby cat treats every night before I went to bed. He looked forward to this every night and I would have him stand up to get the treats or he would take his paw and so gently put it on my hand while my hand was in the bag getting a treat out.
Unfortunately, a year ago, we started noticing that Sebastian's bowel movements were smelling very foul and were discolored. He then started having the diarrhea so we took him to the vet and I was nervous. What was wrong with my baby? I found out that he had an overactive thyroid and an enlarged heart that was very large and the vet told me that we would be blessed if he will still around in a couple months. He said we could euthanize him or try thyroid medicine to start so I chose to start him on the medication. He would throw up a few times every day and this lasted for at least 6 months. He then started to get better and was not throwing up at all and his bowel movements were normal. I thought it was a miracle and my baby will be ok.
He was fine for the next couple months and then he started not eating or drinking. He would not even eat his treats at night. He was whining and laying down with no energy and you could see he could only breathe through his mouth and he was laboring to breathe. I knew this was not a good sign so we made a vet appointment and I was so scared this was the last time I would have my baby. The vet came in and took his temperature and it was 97.1 which the vet said it was not good. He could tell just by looking at Sebastian that it was not good and the vet told me straight up the chances of success on this one were slim and he said tests would be very expensive. He told me the cat was laboring to breathe and he was in great discomfort. He told me it was time to put him to sleep. They gave me time to think and I could not stop crying. I knew I could not stand by and watch my baby suffer so when the vet came back in I told him I have decided to end his suffering.
They gave me ten more minutes alone with Sebastian and I kept telling my baby how I know I asked him to always hang in there and fight for me but this time I said, "Baby, the war is over my little soldier. You will not be suffering anymore and you will be with God in a few minutes." I told him this is the last thing I wanted to do. I kissed him so much and told him how much I loved him. They came in and injected him with the euthanasia and he barely flinched. I looked him in the eyes as he took his last breath and told him I loved him. Within a few seconds the vet said he was gone. I stayed in the room with his body for at least 30 minutes. It helped knowing he was not struggling to breathe or suffering anymore but I missed my baby already and I knew it would be a long road ahead without him.
Sebastian, I had 11 years with you baby. I would not trade those times with you for anything. Not even all the money in the world. You loved me unconditionally and you know how much I loved you. I know we gave you a good life and you were happy. I know you are up at Rainbow Bridge with all your new furbaby friends. I miss you so much and it has been over 3 months since you passed away, but the pain is still very intense and I hold your urn every day and kiss it and tell you how much I love you. Sebastian, I vow to you that I will love you with every breath that I take every day for the rest of my life. I will never forget you or our love we had. Until I am called home and we are reunited forever, please remember how much me and mama love you and miss you. You will be in our hearts forever. We love you baby!
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