2/8/2019 Hello my dearest and handsome Sammy. It's been one month and 4 days since you left us to go to the Rainbow Bridge. Mommy has cried every day. I miss you so much my love of my life. We all miss you very much. All the pain I have had and all the tears in the past month have all been worth every second of the 12 and half years I got to spend with you. I am glad you are no longer in pain. I hope you have met lots of friends and you are enjoying playing with them. Please watch over us in the meantime. Please, please wait for mommy to come join you so we can be together forever. I will write again soon. Love always, mommy

2/12/2019 - Hello my sweet baby. Mommy is having a hard day missing you today. Daddy and I were talking about you last night. Daddy misses how you would wait for him to let Meow Meow in, in the morning, so you could go out front while he got the paper for Grandma. We all miss you so very much. I think about you constantly. In fact I am having a really hard time concentrating at work. I have your picture right by me. I am still lost without you. The house is not the same, my life is not the same. I walk around trying to find a sign from you. I have seen some clouds that reminded me of you. Maybe they were signs from you. I also saw a red robin. Was that you saying hi? I still can't believe your gone. I want you back so very badly. I know I am selfish. I hope you know how much you meant/mean to me and to all of us. We miss you. I miss your more than anything in this world. I hope you have a great day playing and meeting new friends. I will write again soon my love. I Love you forever and ever. Please say hi when you get a chance. Love, mommy

2/14/2019 - Happy Valentine's Day my sweet angel. This is our first Valentine's Day apart in 12 years. You were always my perfect Valentine. Daddy asked me earlier this week, what I wanted for Valentine's Day. I told him nothing because the only thing I really wanted I could not have and that is you, my most handsome Sammy. You will always and forever be my special Valentine. I miss you with every fiber of my being. I see us one day laying in the meadows beside eachother over the Rainbow Bridge, and mommy singing you her songs she always sang you when she looked into your beautiful big brown eyes, and you listening like you understood every word. I picture us running and playing and happy with all the other little ones around us. I hope and pray every night and day that this comes true. I hope you have a Wonderful Valentine's over the RB and that God is giving you and all the other fur angels lots of yummy goodies. Bye for now my forever Valentine. I will write again soon...your loving mommy

2/18/2019 - Hello my handsome Sammy. Tonight will be 6 weeks since we sent you over the RB. Mommy had a really hard night missing you last night. I wanted so badly to be able to kiss you good night on your big beautiful head. I miss pulling up in the driveway and seeing you waiting for me at the window. I still have not cleaned your beautiful nose prints off of the window and I have not mopped your paw prints on the floor. The new puppy is doing well. We had to take Chino to the vet Saturday because he jacked up his little neck again but he is doing much better. I have added a Taco dog to your memorial, in case you are missing your little brother Chino. The house, our family and I am not the same without you. I will never be the same without you. You brought so much love to us, and I am missing you so much. It's so hard coming home from work and you not being there. I want to thank you for choosing me as your mommy. I will forever be grateful for all of the years I got to spend with you. You are always on my mind and always will be. There will never be anyone or anything I love more than you. Your love was so sweet, gentle and unconditional with no demands. I have you listed for the candlelight ceremony tonight. My heart still aches so much for you. It seems so long to have to wait to be with you again. I hope you do wait no matter how long it takes. I need to know that we will be together again my love of my life. My sunny, sunny sunshine. I hope you have a wonderful day over the RB and meet many new friends. Please don't forget how much we love and miss you. when you get a chance, please check in on me. I will write again soon my love. Love and miss you forever, my sweet angel...forever your mommy.

2/19/2019 - Hello again my sweet angel. Mommy is again, having another bad day missing you. Sometimes I seem ok, then out of nowhere, I can't stop crying. I want to hold you and kiss you so very, very badly. I just don't know if I can keep moving on without you. I miss you so much, I can't even explain it. I hope you are not angry with me my love. I guess I am not over grieving over not having you here with me anymore. You were my everything. I am so lucky that you came into my life, but it hurts so bad being without you. The greatest gift God ever gave me was and always will be you. I am dreading going home tonight and pulling up and you not being there. I will try to get through this. I know you are with me in my heart. All your love is with me. I hope you had a wonderful day. Mommy loves you so much my furever love. Mommy has to go now but I will write again soon. Please come to me in my dreams so I know you are ok. Thank you for everything my sweet baby. I miss you Sammy...Always and forever, your mommy

2/25/2019 - Hi my handsome boy. Tonight will make it 7 weeks that I have had to be without you. I miss you so much every day my love. I still cry for you every day. I wish so badly that I could have you back. You were my rock and I still need you so bad. Mommy got a book called Signs from pets in the after life. I was hoping to get some ideas of what to look for and I have. I hope you send me some more signs my sweet angel. I hope you are here with me. I know you are in my heart. I hope you can see me and here me talk and sing to you every day. I wish I could hug you, pet your beautiful soft fur, rub your big belly and look into your big beautiful brown eyes. I wish I could hear you slurping up your water. I miss everything about you my love. I hope you have a great day playing with your new friends and meeting many more. Please don't forget me, Sammy. Please don't forget how much I love and need you. I cant wait to be with you once again. I love you forever my most handsome and bestest boy in the whole wide world. I will write again soon. Love always, mommy

3/1/2019 - Hi my sweet boy. Are you still there. Mommy feels like you have gone farther away from her today. I hope you are ok. I hope you are still watching over me and that you will continue to let me know you are with me. Today is Grandma's birthday. I was hoping you could say hi to her. I miss you so much my Sammy. I just dont know what to do anymore. I still sing to you and talk to you every day and even if I have no more signs from you, which I hope I do, I will continue to sing and talk to you because you are always in my heart. I signed you up for another Candle Light Service as it will be 2 entire months without you. I cannot believe how fast time goes by. I wish I could reverse it back to when you were healthy and we were together and happy or that I could fast forward it so that it wont seem so long that I have to wait to be with you again. You are my one and only Always and Forever, my love. I will write again soon my Sunny Sunshine. Please dont forget me...love Always, mommy

3/4/2019 - Hi my sunshine. Tonight will make it two months without you. We had a wonderful little party for Grandma Saturday. I think she really enjoyed it but I know she and all of us wished you could have been there. I remember how much you loved company and you would have had so much fun. I hope that you were there in spirit watching over us. I miss you so very much. Today was very hard for me. I completely broke down on the way home from lunch today. I feel like you have moved further away from me. I can't feel you other than in my heart. I hope you heard me sing to you this morning. I sang our song " you are my Sammy my only Sammy..." I know you remember that one. I hope you are okay and just doing angel things and I hope you haven't forgotten about me. I signed you up for another candle light service tonight. I hope it helps me. I just want to wrap my arms around you and kiss you and sing to you so very badly. I am still so lost without you my sweet boy. Please send me a sign or come into my dreams when you can. I really need to know that you are still with me in some capacity. You will always be mommy's one and only always and forever. Mommy loves and misses you my sunshine...Forever your mommy.

3/6/2019 - Good morning my handsome sunshine. I hope you are doing well and are having fun at the RB. Today is mommy's birthday. I sure do wish you were here with me to celebrate. Since you are not I do not feel much like celebrating. You are here with me in my heart though. You are the greatest gift I could or ever will have. I cherish and thank you for every moment of the 12 and a half years we spent together. I couldn't have asked for anything else. You were my everything. Thank you for all of your love and protection and everything you did and continue to do for mommy. I love you more than life itself my baby, and I miss you more than you can imagine. I hope, if you are able, you come to me in my dreams soon. I will write again soon my love of my life. Please dont forget me, and please wait for mommy. That will be the only gift I could ever ask for again is to be with you forever one day. I love you, I love you, I love you, love mommy

3/11/2019 - Hi my sweet baby boy. Mommy wanted to let you know how very much she misses you today. I also want to thank you so much for the beautiful sign you left me on Saturday (the feather) in grandma's room. I was so happy when I saw it. I want to thank you also for the signs from the 3 dragonflies today. I know they must be signs from you as they were hovering around me while I walked on my break at work today. Gosh I miss you so very much my love. I know I say this to much but it's so true. My heart still has a big giant hole in it and my life has a big hole because you are no longer here with me. Well, I believe you are here in some way, just not in your physical form where I can hug and kiss you and see you. It is just still so unbelievable that you are gone. I still cry every day, but I think I have finally let you go because I do not have a choice. I will still pray every night that you wait for me my sunny sunshine. I love you more than words can ever express. I hope you always know this and wait for me so we can be together again. I hope you are having a wonderful day in the sunny fields over the Rainbow Bridge. I am still reading a lot of books about pet loss grief and signs from pets in the afterlife. I will always love you my beautiful handsome boy. Please don't forget me. I will write again soon. All my love...mommy

3/18/2019 - Good morning my Sammy. I hope you are having a good morning. I hope you met my friend John and Stacie's doggie Buster. Please take care of him and introduce him to Barney and Harley. Mommy had a hard time missing you last night. Grandma and I were watching a movie and mommy reached down to pet your big beautiful head, but you were not there. I kept petting you anyway. I hope that you do come visit us at the house. I haven't been able to see you in my dreams yet, but I feel your love everywhere I go. Do you visit Chino and the kitties? Mommy is going to try to contact that author of the book mommy read, to see if she can try to contact you and send me some messages. I have signed you up for another candlelight service tonight. It will be 2 months and two weeks already. Sometimes it still feels like yesterday, especially when mommy sings to you, sometimes it feels like so long ago. Do you hear mommy when she sings to you my love? I miss you so much baby. Sometimes I just need you so badly. I hope you have a wonderful day playing and showing Buster around. Please tell Barney and Harley hello from me. I will always love you my love of my life and my sunny sunshine. Please wait for mommy. I need to be with you again. Love always, your mommy.

3/19/2019 - Hi my handsome boy Sammy. Mommy wanted to thank you for finally coming into my dreams and how nice it was that you would bring Harley along. I saw both of you clear as day sitting on the grass looking at me. Thank you for letting me know you are okay. Thank you for letting Harley let me know he is okay so that I could tell his daddy. I miss you so much Sammy. I don't know when this pain will ever go away, but I will always have you in my heart. I'm sorry I did not do the candle light service. It was not a good night. Please keep in touch with mommy. I need you so very badly my love. oh how I wish I could hold you and kiss your big beautiful head. Please stay in touch with me my most beautiful love and bestest boy in the whole wide world. Please don't forget mommy. Please wait for me my Sunshine. Have a wonderful day today and please tell Harley I told his daddy about you two coming to me. Not a day goes by that you are not in all of my thoughts. I love you forever, my One and Only Always and Forever, love mommy

4/1/2019 - Hello my handsome boy. Today is 3 months since I last felt your beautiful fur and kissed you. I thank you for helping Mimi cross over. I hope you will take her under your wings and teach her how to use her little angel wings to come down with you and visit mommy and send her signs. I hope you enjoyed her birthday with her. Mommy still misses you every day and now has to miss Mimi too. I love you my dearest Sammy. My love of my life. Please know that I miss you still and always will and now will be missing poor little tiny Mimi. I will sign you both up for the candlelight service for next Monday. Mommy is too sad and depressed to join tonight. It doesn't mean I don't miss you. I just need some time. I did not expect to lose Mimi so soon and now have to be sad about both of you being gone. At least I know that you are together and I know your loving and protective heart will take care of her until we are all together again. Mommy love you forever Sammy. I will write again soon.

4/13/19 Hello my most handsome Sammy. I wanted to stop by and let you know how much I love and miss you. Today is 2 weeks since mommy said goodbye to Mimi and Monday will be 3 months and 2 weeks since I said goodbye to you. I think about you all of the time and I miss you so very much. I carry you with me in my heart wherever I go. I dream of the day me you and Mimi will be together again. I hope to speak with you later today so please stop by when I make my call and let me know you are okay. Love always mommy

4/20/19 - Hello my most handsome Sammy, my sunny sunny sunshine. Mommy wanted to stop by and say hello and to tell you I miss you so very much. I was listening to the radio while I was running errands and this song came on by Carrie Underwood
and it reminded me so much of how I feel about you and Mimi.

"Said goodbye, turned around and you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away
But I won't cry
Cause I know I'll never be lonely
For you are the stars to me,
You are the light I follow

I will see you again,
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me
'Till I see you again

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night
Calling me back in time
Back to you
In a place far away
Where the water meets the sky
The thought of it makes me smile
You are my tomorrow

I will see you again,
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me,
'Till I see you again

Sometimes I feel my heat is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on 'cause I know
I will see you again

This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me 'Till I see you again

Songwriters: David Hodges/Hillary Lindsey/Carrie Underwood

Sammy Monday it will have been 3 months and 3 weeks that I last felt you precious fur and looked into your big brown eyes while I sang our songs to you. Sammy, I miss your big soulful brown eyes. I miss your beautiful angel face. I miss your smile, and your big soft belly. I miss your beautiful soft white fur. I miss how you were/are so protective. My big boy. I miss your big beautiful paws. Thank you for the sign that you had daddy find for mommy. I needed that so much, and I believe more than ever that you and Mimi are always with me and that you are okay and happy. I hope you have a wonderful day my most handsome Sammy, mommy loves you always and forever, love mommy

4/29/2019 - Good morning my most handsome Sammy. This evening will mark 4 months since I last rubbed your beautiful white fur and kissed your beautiful big head and rubbed your big beautiful tummy. Mommy misses you so very much my perfect pure Sammy. Thank you for speaking with me through the lady Saturday. I hope you really are where she said you would be, watching over us by the kitchen and the sliding glass door in daddy's area. I hope so much that you are always with us and hear mommy talking and singing to you. I wish I could hug you one more time but I know it will never be enough. Saturday marked 1 month since mommy and daddy had to say goodbye to your kitty sister Mimi. It was a very hard day for mommy. I miss you Sammy and I hope you know how much love I will always have for you, and how grateful I am that you came into my life and gave me all the love and protection you gave me. Please let me feel your presence whenever you can and if you could also come into my dreams mommy would be so thankful. I love you, my love of my life. Have a wonderful day playing with all of your friends. Please tell everyone hello for me. Love you forever, love mommy

5/6/2019 - Hello my handsome sunny sunshine. I hope you are having fun and meeting new friends. I hope you still come visit me. I haven't seen any signs from you lately so you must be busy. I want to thank you for all the love and happiness you brought to our home. Although we still have Chino, Sheba and Desota, and now Scrappy and Cocoa Puff, nothing is the same without you. I miss you every day and I still cry for you every day. I cannot wait to see you in my dreams again. I also can't wait to feel your presence. I do feel you in my heart constantly. Thank you for loving mommy and choosing me to be your mommy. Always know that mommy will never forget you and always hold you close in my heart forever...Love always, mommy

5/14/19 - Hello my dearest and most handsome Sammy,

Mommy wanted to stop by and say I missed you so much on Mother's Day. I couldn't bring myself to write to you because I was so sad and I wanted to make sure Grandma had a good Mother's Day without letting her see me cry. I have been asking that you visit me in my dreams, but I haven't had any dreams with you in them yet. I know you will visit me in my dreams when you are ready. I miss you so very much my love. I remember how soft your big beautiful white head felt against my face and neck when I would give you big hugs. I will never forget your big beautiful soulful eyes. I see them everywhere I go. I carry you with me everywhere I go. I love you forever my sweet handsome bestest boy in the whole wide world. Please don't forget to send my signs. Love always, mommy

5/27/2019 Hello my sweetest and most handsome Sammy. Tonight will be 5 months since I last looked into your beautiful brown eyes and kissed your big soft head and felt your big b