1/7/2020 - Hi my most handsome bestest boy in the whole world. Can you believe it's been a whole year since you gained your beautiful angel wings. I got a really nice email from Jinny, the founder of this place. She wanted to console me as she new this is your one year since we had to send you into your beautiful sparkler form. I miss you so much my big boy. My protector with the biggest and purest heart. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and for teaching me how to love and for teaching me so much more. You are forever in my heart. I carry you with me wherever I go. You will always have my heart and be a part of my soul. I hope you are playing and are happy my sweet boy. Mommy missed you so much today. I cant even breathe. I know you are with me. Please come to me in my dreams my baby polar bear. I wish I could hold your big head and kiss you and hold your big beautiful paws in my hand. So what I will do instead is close my eyes and picture this. I hope you feel my love and my kiss and my hug. I will love you and miss you until it's my time to cross over and you and Mimi will be the first spirits I look for. No words can Express my love for you and how grateful I am that you showed up in my driveway 13 and a half years ago. I love you always and forever my baby boy. My angel on earth and now in heaven. Thank you a million times over for picking me to be your mommy. I will always be your mommy. Dont forget to stop by and visit and send me signs. All of my love forever until eternity. Love mommy💖😪🐾🐱🐶

2/7/2020 - Hello my handsome Sammy. Today is one year and one month since we had to say goodbye. I miss you so much. I still cry every day for you. I wish so much that I can have a beautiful dream about you. Maybe one day I will. I will keep hoping for this no matter how long it takes. You will always be my handsome prince. The love of my life. My big baby polar bear. I hope that you are happy and running free and playing with all your friends. I csny wait yo e with you again. Please dont forget about mommy. I love you gor all eternity and I will never forget you and how much love you brought into our lives. I hope you are taking care of your little sister Mimi. J know you are. You have the most biggest and purest heart I have ever known. Mommy misses you so much my big boy. Sweet dreams until we are together again. I will write again soon my sweet prince. Love you for all eternity... love mommy

3/6/2020 - Hello Sammy my love. Today will be the 2nd birthday for mommy without you and the 1st birthday for mommy without Mimi and Chino. I miss all of you so very much and I so wish you were here to spend it with me. Please know mommy is always thinking of you and I hope you are taking good care of your little kitty sister Mimi and now your little brother Chino. I hope all three of you are together and having so much fun with eachother, and that all three of you feel mommy's love for you. I miss you my Sammy. Please come visit me and let me know you are still with me and feel mommy's love. Mommy carries you in my heart always. I love always and forever, love mommy

4/7/2020 - Hello my most handsome Sammy. I can't believe it's been one year and 3 months tonight that I last looked into your beautiful loving big brown eyes, the last time I felt your beautiful white fur on mommy's face and the last time I held your big giant beautiful paw in my hand. Mommy misses you so very much my love. You will always be my big protector. We all miss you! Mommy will always miss you the most though. You took a giant piece of mommy's heart when you left me. I will never be the same without you. Mimi and Chino are now with you and I miss them so much too, but I am so glad that you are there with them and I know that you will take good care of them because you loved them so much and you always had the biggest heart. Mommy cannot wait for the day when we are all together again. Thank you for everything Sammy. thank you for all your love, for your protection, for everything you taught me. Mommy will always have our memories, and I hope that all of you are still here by my side in spirit form. Please send mommy a sign my angel. Please visit mommy in her dreams, and let her remember. I want to hug you so badly. Now when I hug you I close my eyes and I picture it vividly how it used to be and I try to send you all of my love. I hope you can feel me hugging you. Please take good care of Mimi and Chino. I am happy that you are all together again and that you are no longer in pain. but I do hope you are also here with me. Please don't forget mommy, and please wait for me my handsome big bestest boy in the world. I will love you always and will miss you and think of you until the day I die. Thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. will you please tell Chino and Mimi mommy says hi and that I miss them too. Dont forget me my love of life. You will always be my soulmate forever. I will write again soon, love you forever, your mommy.

5/7/2020 - Hello my sweet, handsome big boy Sammy. It will be 1 year and 4 months tonight, since your beautiful fur suit left us. I miss you so much still Sammy. My heart still aches every day for you and I believe it always will. You were such an amazing soul. I am so lucky to have had you in my life for 12 and an half years. I wish so much that it could have been longer, but we could not see you suffer anymore. I am glad that you have Mimi, and Chino now. Not that I wanted to lose them as well, but you were all part of the same pack. The only one I have left out of your pack is Desota. (((((Oh my Sammy, I miss you so much)))). You were and always will be my heart and soul. You are the love of my life always and forever. One day we will be together again, my sweet handsome big boy. I hope you hear mommy singing to you and Mimi and Chino. God how I wish you were still here with us. I sure do wish you would come to mommy in her dreams. I ask you, Mimi and Chino every night to come into my dreams, and maybe you have and I just don't remember. I wish I could see you and feel you and hug you and give you big kisses and rub your belly if not in real life than at least in my dreams. I know you loved your Daddy so, but you will always be mommy's big handsome boy. Our protector. The love of my life. I hope you and Mimi and Chino are playing together and having so much fun. I hope you are also here with us. Mommy needs you so badly. I hope you know how much you meant and will always mean to mommy. I still cry every day. If you can, my love, will you please send mommy a sign that you are still here with me, even after a year. I would so much like to hear from you. Please, please my big baby polar bear, will you come see me in my dreams and let me hold you? Every day is a day closer where we will get to be together again and it will be always and forever. Please wait for mommy and don't forget me. I miss you sooooooo much. Please tell Mimi and Chino hello from me. I hope they also hear me singing to you every day. When I close my eyes, I picture me holding your big beautiful head and looking into your beautiful soulful eyes and that is me hugging you now and sending you all of my love. Mommy is going to light a candle for you tonight. Please know that I will always love and miss you and I carry you Mimi and Chino with me wherever I go. Always and forever my love of my life. Love always and forever, your mommy

7/7/2020 - Hello my sweet handsome boy, my Sammy. I hope you are having a great time in heaven and playing with your little brother Chino and your little kitty sister Mimi. I know you are taking good care of them. You were always our great protector
Today mark's one year and six months since I last kissed your big beautiful head and touched your sweet paw and looked into your beautiful eyes. Mommy misses you everyday. Thank you may angel for choosing me to be your mommy. I love you and miss you so very much. Mommy still cries for you every day and night. I hope you can hear me singing to you and Mimi and Chino every day. I hope you can feel all the love I have in my heart for you. Mommy will always love you with all her heart. You were always such a good boy. Gosh I wish I could see you and hold you. I hope I gave you a good life my love. You are and always will be the love of my life. Please dont forget mommy. I still need you so very much. One day mommy will be with you, Mimi and Chino again and it will be the most wonderful day. Dont forget mommy loves you always my sunny, sunny, sunshine. Ever day is a day closer that we will be with each other again. Thank you my Sammy for everything you were an amazing soul and now you are an amazing spirit. Please send mommy a sign my love. I would love to see you in my dreams and hug and kiss you. Mommy carries you in my heart everywhere I go. You Mimi and Chino are always with me in my heart. I love you sweet Sammy. Mommy will write again next month. Please take good care of Mimi and Chino and say hi to Grandpa for me....I love you always and forever, love, your mommy❤🌞💞🐈🐾🐕🙏🙏🙏

8/7/2020 - Hello my most handsome and bestest boy in the whole wide world. Today is 1 year and seven months without you here with me. I miss you so much my baby polar bear. You are and always be the greatest love of my life. I keep remembering all the fun times we had, all the adventures and moving from place to place. You are my sunny, sunny sunshine and you always will be. I hope you still see me and hear mommy sing to you. I hope you still feel all the love I have for you. I know you are taking good care of your little brother Chino, and kitty sister Mimi. I hope your are all having great adventures. Oh Sammy my heart still hurts so much. Mommy would love for you to come visit me. A wonderful dream about you would mean so much. You have a piece of my soul and you always will. Thank you for all your love and protection and laughs. Mommy is so proud of what a wonderful boy you were and are. We have two new dogs now and two new kitties. Meow Meow is still here. I hope you visit with him. He loves you too. It was you and him for a long time before Chino and Mimi came into the picture. I hope you and Mimi and Chino come see us. We miss you, especially mommy. I can still remember your smell and every mark on you. I miss looking into those big beautiful eyes, it was like looking into your soul. You will always be mommy's number 1. I can't wait to be with you Mimi and Chino again. I can't wait to wrap my arms around you. Mommy misses you still so much, I don't think I will ever stop missing you. Thank you Sammy for all your love. Please say hello to Mimi and Chino for me. Mommy misses all of you, but at least knowing you are together again helps a little. Please don't forget about me my handsome prince. Please don't forget to visit. I will always love you and can't wait to be with you again. Mommy will write you again soon. Love forever and always, your mommy

9/9/2020 Hello my beautiful big baby boy - I am so sorry I am late writing to you. Please forgive me. Today marks one year and 8 months since you left your most handsome fursuit. Mommy misses you SOOOOOOOO much my beautiful angel. You had the biggest heart I have ever known. I know you are comfortable now and with Mimi and Chino, but I am selfish and I miss you more than anything. I love you always and forever. Scrappy and Sophie, who you haven't met are doing fine. Meow meow is still with us and the only one left out of your pack. I wish so much you were here with us. Maybe you are with us, in spirit form. I sure hope so. Thank you Sammy for being such a good boy. For getting me through so much and for staying until you knew we would be okay. I miss you more than I can ever say. I hope you feel mommy's love each and every day. I will never stop loving you, not ever. You are one in a million. Please don't forget about me. Please, please, please. Please come visit me my special angel. I know you were happy, especially when you met daddy. Please take good care of Mimi and Chino and tell them I love and miss them. I know you will take good care of them, as you always did here. You were always the great protector with the most loving heart I will ever know. I know one day, when my time here comes to an end we will be together again, and it will be the most beautiful time ever. Every day is a step closer to that time. Until then, always know that you are forever in my heart and soul and like the song mommy sings to you and Mimi and Chino, I carry you with me everywhere I go. You are a part of my soul forever. Mommy will write again soon my beautiful boy. I love you Always, please don't forget me...Love always, your mommy

10/7/2020 - Hello my most handsome boy Sammy. Today Mark's 1 year and 9 months since you left your most handsone fursuit. I miss you still every day my angel. I truly hope you really are still here with me in spirit form. I hope you are here watching over us just like you did when you were in your fursuit. You were always such a good boy. I hope you know you will always be the love of mommy's life. We sure did move around alot before you met your daddy and then we moved a few times more after we met him. Oh Sammy, nothing seems to be going right lately. I wish you were here to comfort mommy. I need you so much. I wish you would send me a sign. Mommy lit another candle for you and put it by your beautiful picture. I hope you are having fun with Mimi and Chino and I hope they are behaving for you. I hope you know how much mommy misses you. I miss your big beautiful brown eyes, your smile when it was nappy time or beddy by time with daddy, your big beautiful paws, your bark your beautiful head and your oh so pure heart. You were so perfect in every way and you still are. Sammy will you please come visit me? I miss you and need you so much. Today we had a big scare with Cocoa Puff. You never got to meet her, but if you do visit us then you may have met her. Thank you for hearing me ask you to help her. Please thank Mimi and Chino too. What can I say Sammy, other than I miss you soooo much. Thank you for all your love. Thank you for always accepting every stray or new pet I brought into the house and thank you for loving them. Thank you for finding mommy 13 years and 8 months ago. Oh how I wish I could feel your beautiful soft white fur. Please know when I close my eyes and picture it I am hugging you, and I hope you can still feel me. I love you my bestest boy in the whole wide world. Run a play and please take care of Mimi and Chino. I will write again soon, in the meantime please visit mommy and always know you are always with me in my heart and soul. I cannot wait for the day we are all together again You will always be the love of mommy's life. Love you for all eternity, love always your mommy

11/7/2020 - Hello my most handsome boy in the whole wide world. It's been 1 year and 10 months since you left your fur suit. Mommy misses you so much. Mommy still feels you around. I wish I could hug your big beautiful head and look into those beautiful big brown eyes again. Mommy misses your big ferocious bark. Thank you for all the love you gave us. Mommy will always our beautiful memories. I carry you in my heart wherever I go. You have a piece of my soul forever. You will always be the love if mommy's life. Mommy Hope's you are having fun with Mimi and Chino and all your friends. I can't wait for the day when we are all together again. Oh Sammy, I still miss you everyday. I hope you hear mommy when I talk to you and sing to you and call out your name. I hope you still feel all of my love. Meow Meow has been diagnosed with kidney disease and mommy is feeding him special food. Please help mommy take care of him. Please ask God to give me more time with him. This will be be our second Christmas without you. No longer do I get to pick out a brand new fluffy bed for you. Your beds are still in mommy's room. I miss you my beautiful baby polar bear. Please keep sending mommy signs. Please come into one of my dreams so I can touch and see you again. Please dont ever forget how much I love you. We all do. Please watch over Chino and Mimi. Every day is another day closer that we will all be together again. Thank you my beautiful boy for everything. I will write again soon. In the meantime listen for mommy to call and sing to you. All my love forever and ever...love, your mommy🐕😪🐾💗💕💖

12/7/2020 - hello my most handsome Sammy. I'm sorry I am late writing you, but I just didnt want to be sad. Mommy misses you my love of my life. Another Thanksgiving went by without you and soon another Christmas without you. I hope you are eating all the Turkey and prime rub you want. I miss you soooo much. I didn't want to put up Christmas decorations, but I did it for Grandma. I cant believe next month will 2 years without you. Mommy Hope's you are taking good care of your little brother Chino and your kitty sister Mimi. I know you are because you were always a good boy and so protective. Mommy's heart still misses you so much, but I know you are free of pain. I hope you still hear Mommy singing to you and talking to you. You wi always be mommy's big baby polar bear. The bestest boy in the whole wide world. The love of my life. I cant wait to be with you and Mimi and Chino again. Every day is ine day closer. In the meantime my handsome boy, please dont forget mommy. Please send me some more signs. I miss your signs. Please send me something so I know you are still here with me. Thank you for all your love, your smiles, your bark, your soft fur and giant paws. Thank you for choosing me Sammy to be your mommy. I love you now and for always. I carry you, Mimi and Chino in my heart everywhere I go. I will write soon baby boy. Please feel my love. I miss and love you always, love your mommy

1/7/2021 - Hello my most handsome Sammy. Well we have reached the two year mark, since I last kissed your beautiful fur suit. Sometimes it feels so long ago, and sometimes it feels like just yesterday. Oh how I miss you my Sammy. I miss you so very much, and I know I will have to go through the rest of my life here without you in your fur suit firm, but somehow I know you are with me in spirit form. I'm sitting here writing to you with your picture in front of me, and a lit candle, and your little socks, and at this moment it feels like you just left. I want to thank you for showing up on my driveway and choosing me to be your mommy. Thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin. Thank you for being my protector and then being the rest of the family's protector. Thank you for being such a beautiful soul with the biggest and purest heart I have ever known. I hope you know you will always be the love if mommy's life. Thank you for all of your love and fir everything. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and miss you. I know you are so hapoy and free of pain, and that is what you deserve no matter how much mommy misses you. Every day is a day closer for me to be with you and Chino and Mimi again. I hope you hear every word I speak to you, and every time I call your name and every time I sing to you. Mommy knows you are taking great care of Chino and Mimi, and that you are playing with Barney and Harley and all of your new friends. I'm sure Grandpa has taken you on his fishing trips which just makes me smile picturing this. Sammy you will forever be a part of me, and you will always have a piece of mommy's soul. Thank you so much for all you gave me and all you still give me. I