A Year Passed
by Diane Atkins.........................................
One year ago today I lost my precious BJ to cancer; a cancer that he bravely fought for 11 months and it broke my heart to have to put him down. Since then it's been a year of firsts---the first month without him; the first birthday without him, the first holidays without him. While I know we did the right thing for him, it was the hardest decision I have ever made. I felt so empty coming back from the hospital without him. I had told his fur Momma, sister and cousins that morning that I would do everything in my power to bring him home but if I couldn't, I hoped that they would forgive me and understand. It was not meant for him to come home but to fly free and healthy and play with the angels. When I came home without him, I know that the rest sensed the huge loss and we cried together as I apologized for not having him but explained that BJ was too sick to fight anymore and I had to do what was right by him. I had promised him that and I had to be true to him. The memory of that little boy will never fade and there will always be a hole in my heart where he lived. I know that he is happy and healthy now and hope that he knows how much he was loved on this earth. He was a wonderful boy and brave and we faced his final trip together as I promised him that we would. May God watch over my little boy till I can see his tail wagging and him come running to me again one day.
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