01/01/15 HAPPY NEW YEAR MY LITTLE PUMPKIN EATER. I am sure your New Year's eve was awesome as
you were in the best of company. My wish for 2015, is that you look down upon all of us,
keep my Vinny safe and healthy, and sprinkle your stardust on us just to show that you
are in our presence. I still miss you like it was yesterday, and if only people could
understand the bond that we had. My heart will always have your pawprint on it, until
we meet again. I love you my little man, HAPPY NEW YEAR love momma xxoo

"When someone you love dies......you never quite get over it.
You just slowly get through each day.
But you always keep them tucked away safely in your heart."

01/09/15 Good morning, Baby Buck....I can't believe it's 9 months now that have passed
It is still just like yesterday in my mind. Words will never be able to express
my love that I had for you. I hope in your heart you will never forget.
Wintery weather is here now, and I know you were not a fan of all the
snow, however, it does bring good memeories of all the time you put up with it.
I know Christmas this year was very hard for me, without you, and you were on
my mind constantly. I miss you my little precious, and hope you are enjoying your
days at the bridge while you wait for my arrival. A quote from Winnie the pooh:
How lucky I was to have something that makes saying goodby so hard! Love you my
little pumpkin eater. xxoo Momma

01/27/15 Hello my baby Buck. As you look down upon us I know you can see this blizzard
that we are having. At R.B. it is sunny skys,rainbows and sunshine. As I was
shoveling it reminded me of how much you hated going outside in the snowy
weather. As the snowflakes were swirling around, I keep looking for a sign from
you. Vinny has had his surgery's and now we should be set to venture out in the
motorhome. Thinking maybe KeyWest, although that will be a very hard place for me
to be, as that was your last trip with us. I remember like yesterday. If only we
knew really how sick you were. I love you my little man, always keep your
pawprint on my heart, as it is in a safe place there.I want to read a special
poem to you: The special times We shared.........
We shared so much happiness, In times of yesterday,
And to say how much I miss you, I could never find a way.
I wish with all my heart, That you were still here with me,
And that we could share the laughter that there always used to be.
I know we'll meet again, In another life elsewhere,
And those very special times, We once again will share.
I LOVE YOU MY BUCKWHEAT XXOOO Momma

02/09/15 My Dearest Buckwheat....it is so hard to believe today has been 10 months that you have
been at R.B. They say that time heals the soul, but I have yet to believe that. It
still seems like yesterday, to me, and Vinny does so many things that remind me of you
that it is crazy. We are always calling him Buckwheat or Buckie. I love you my little
man, and it still makes me cry to write and have a want that you are with me here. I
know that you are in a better place, and I have to keep telling myself. Your pawprint is
on my heart, and is in safe keeping, but I guess all I can say is
"Sometimes there are no words. Just tears. I love you. <3 love momma

02/14/15 Good morning my little sunshine! I wanted to send you Happy Valentine's Day wishes
along with lots of hugs, and kisses. I miss you my little man. XXOOXXOO

03/09/15 My Dearest Buckwheat, well it is how to beleive it has been almost a year that you are
not by my side. I still miss you like yesterday, and not a day goes by that I feel your
pawprint on my heart. Warmer days are on their way, as the winter has been to long.
Please remember my little man, "Distance betweeen two hearts is not an obstacle; rather
a beautiful reminder of just how stong our love was. I love you my little man. xxoo

04/06/15 Happy Birthday my Little Pumpkin Eater. I hope you know how much my heart still aches
for you my little man. Please send me a sign that you have not forgotten me, as I know
you are happier where you are. Words are not enough to express how I feel, but it is
felt in my heart. Here is my birthday message to you little pumpkin:

MISSING YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY

Today is full of memories
Happiness and tears,
Of birthday celebrations
We've shared throughout the years.

And though I'll always miss you
The endless joy you brought,
Warms my heart with gratitude
And fills my every thought.

Wherever you are resting
I hope that you can see,
How precious and uplifting
Your memory is to me.

I feel that you are with me
In everything I do,
So I'll celebrate your birthday
but I'll spend it missing you.

I love you my little Buckwheat...HAPPY BIRTHDAY xxoo Momma <3

04/09/15 My Dearest Little Buckwheat.....today, well today was a very hard day for me. It
is the 1st anniversary of you at R.B. My heart still feels like the day you left.
Part of it is missing, except for that wonderful pawprint of your's on it. The void is
still there, and always will be until we meet again. The tears in my eyes I can wipe
away, the ache in my heart will always stay.They say that "'time" heals all, but I
just don't know when that will happen.I will recite a poem for you on this day. It is
called:
THE DAY GOD CALLED YOU HOME

You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knew why.

In life we loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place
No one could ever fill.

A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.

It broke my heart to lose you
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you
The day God called you home.

My little pumkpin eater....You can only know how special you were to me.
My love for you is just like the day you left, and Please wait for me this
side of heaven, and together we can make the journey to cross Rainbow Bridge
Together. I love you my little guy. xxooo Momma

04/20/15 Good morning my little Buckwheat. Well, it is a chilly start 31 degrees for being
almost the end of April. This is definately your kind of weather. You have been on
my mind the last few days alot. Know that I am thinking of you.
I will always have a piece of my heart that smiles whenever I think about you!
I love you my little man. xxoo

04/24/15 Hello my little man. Well, I know it is always sunny & warm at R.B., today is damp,cold,
and very dreary with a chill. Please cast some sunshine down upon me. I am thinking of
you today, and want to leave you with this message:
PAWPRINTS LEFT BY YOU

You no longer greet me,
As I walk through the door.
You're not there to make me smile,
To make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you,
You were far more than just a pet,
You were a family member, a friend,
A loving soul I'll never forget.

It will take me time to heal-
For the silence to go away
I still listen for you,
And miss you every day.

You were such a great companion,
Constant, loyal and true,
My heart will always wear,
The Pawprints left by you.
I LOVE YOU MY BABY BUCKWHEAT..... XXOO MOMMA

05/01/2015 Happy May Day My little precious one! As you look down upon me, my heart smiles!
I miss you and your little quirks on a daily basis. I know I have Vinny now, but he
is nothing quite like you, but in a positive way, that is what made YOU so special.
I wish Heaven had a phone so I could hear your bark, and singing "I love You" one
last time. I love you Buckwheat xxoo <3 Mom

05/09/2015 My Little Buck....well, so hard to believe it has been 1 year and a month already.
In my heart, it still feels like yesterday. I am still very sad and cry when I write to
you, which means you were so special to me, and will always be. Here is a poem for
You! It is called: Pawprints Left By You.
You no longer greet me, as I walk through the door,
You're not there to make me smile,To make me laugh anymore.
Life seems quiet without you. You were far more than a pet.
You were a family member, a friend, a loving soul I'll never forget.
It will take time to heal, For the silence to go away.
I still listen for you, And miss you every day.
You were such a great companion, Constant, loyal and true.
My heart will always wear, the pawprints left by you.
I love you my little Pumpkin eater......love, xxoo Momma

06/03/15 Good morning my little man. You are in my thoughts, and lately quite a bit. I just wish
you could give me a sign that you are watching down upon us all.
I know that Rainbow Bridge and Heaven is a beautiful place because they've got you!
I love you my little Pumpkin eater. xxoo

06/21/15 My baby buck........ I am thinking of you, today, it is the summer solice (1ST day!)
I know at R.B it is probably like a nice sunny summer day all year. I miss you something
terrible, and Vinny is here, and I thought he was going to be like you... but he is not.
I shouldnt compare him to you, as there was only, and always will be ONE BUCKWHEAT!
I am thinking of you today ~
Wishing you were here.
Remembering you with smiles and love ~
And an ocean full of tears!
I love you my little pumpkin eater! xxoo Momma

I LOOK UP TO THE SKY AND TALK TO YOU.....
WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO HEAR YOU BARK BACK!!!

06/23/15 Hello my little precious one.......
You are near, even if I don't see you.
You are here with me, even if you are far away.
You are in my heart, in my thoughts, in my life........Always <3

07/04/15 Happy Fourth of July my little man. Fireworks at R.B are going to be spectactular as
you are in the best of company. I miss you so much. My mind knows you are in a better
place, where there is no pain. You are at peace. I understand that, I just wish I could
explain that to my heart! Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today, a
hollowed place within my heart is where you'll always stay. I love you my little Buckwheat
xxoo Momma

07/21/15 Good morning my little pumpkin. What were your thoughts on the terrific thunder storm
that we had last night. I know that you are in good hands and safe keeping.
"Someday, when the pages of my life end, I want you to know that you will be one of it's
most beautiful chapters." xxoo

I NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU UNTIL I LOST YOU.

08/09/15 My baby Buck, well it is so hard to believe it has been 16 months already, It seemed like
forever for me. I think of you constantly and wonder often how's life at R.B. I know you are
in good company, but my heart still feels for you. You were very special the time you were
in my life.Your pawprint on my heart is still just a fresh as the day we got you! My heart
still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow,what it meant to lose you, no one will
ever know. I like you my little pumpkin eater. xxoo Momma <3

8/13/15 I LOVE YOU MY LITTLE MAN! XXOO

08/25/15 Good morning my little Buck. I am thinking of you today. Please show me a sign that you
are still looking down upon us all. Vinny is called "Buckwheat" more than ever lately, and
it means you are still in our hearts and always will. I love you! xxoo

09/09/15 Where do I start my little precious? It has been 1-1/2 years today since you are at R.B.
To me, it seems just like yesterday that you were here. I miss you as much today, as I did
the day you went to be an angel. My heart still feels your void, and your pawprint is still
just as strong as the day you left on my heart. <3
"Tell me, what does it look like in heaven? Is it peaceful & free like they say?
Does the sun shine brightly forever, have your fears & your pains gone away?
Cause here on earth it feels like everything...good is missing,since you left, and here
on earth everything's different, there's an emptiness.
I hope your dancing in the sky, I hope yor're singing in the angels choir, I hope the
angels know what they have, I bet it's been so nice up in heaven since your arrived!
So tell me, what do you do in heaven? Are your days filled with love,& light? Is there
music? Is there art & invention, tell me are you happy, are you more alive?".
I can't describe how deeply my love for you is my baby Buckwheat. Wait for me there at
the bridge my little one. I love you. xxooo Momma

10/09/15 My Baby Buck....well another month. Sometimes these months fell like years & years.
Today will be your day, as I still miss you as much as the day you left. Goodbys are only
for those who love with their eyes...because those who love with heart & soul, there is
no such thing as seperation. Your pawprints on my heart tells me so. I miss you my
little man. When we do reunite, I can't wait to hear you sing. "I Love You" again. <3

10/31/15 HAPPY HALLOWEEN..... As you watch from heaven, please keep everyone safe as they are
out trick or treating! Missed taking your Halloween photo, but you are probably just as
glad, as you alway put up with it. I misss you soooooooooo much my little one. I just
wish you would send me a sign. Maybe once the "Buckwheat" tree is up, you will light ALL
of it, like you did last year. Love you my little man.....xxooo Momma

11/03/15 My Little man, Last night while in the porch with Vinny, as I was looking at the stars,
I noticed a shooting star from out of nowhere, and it landed toward Cody's field. I am
gonna believe that it was YOU, that sent that so I would see! with a blink of the eye, as
with you, it was gone! My mind knows you are in a better place, where there is no pain, and
you are at peace. I understand that, I just wish I could explain that to my HEART! I love
you Buckwheat...........

11/09/15 Well, My baby Buck, here we are another month has gone by.Hard to believe it has been 1
year and 7 months. Yes, you are at a better place, me, well it still seems like yesterday
and I miss you as much today, as I did in April. They say "You can close your eyes to the
things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to
feel. My heart still has a part of it missing, but I hold close the pawprint that you have
left on it. I love you my little Pumpking Eater.

11/26/15 Happy Thanksgiving my Little man. Can't imagine this is our 2nd Thanksgiving without you.
You are in my thoughts, and heart, and I am thankful for one thing today, and that is that
you are at peace where you are. Make sure you eat "LOTS" of turkey today my little one.
The moment that you died, my heart was torn in two, one side filled with heartache, the
other died with you. I often lie awake at night, when the world is fast asleep, and take a
walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday,
but missing you is heartache that never goes away. I hold you tightly within my heart and
there you will remain, Until the joyous day arrives, that we will meet again! I love you
my little Buckwheat. Happy Thanksgiving. love Momma

12/09/2015 Another month has passed my little precious. Can't believe its been 1 yr./8 mos. It
still feels like yesterday, and probably always will. You are always on my mind my little one.
I hide my tears when I say your name, but the pain in my heart is still the same. Although I
smile and seem carefree, there is NO-ONE who misses YOU more than me! I love you Baby Buck.

12/12/09 Good Morning little man. Well today I put your tree up. Shut my eyes, plugged it in, and
again thank you my precious for lighting the tree up totally again this year! Love you.

12/25/15 Merry Christmas Buckwheat. You could not be in a better place celebrating Christmas!
I kept reading your "Christmas in Heaven" photo and words, and you are in my thoughts here.
Until we meet again my little one, I will carry your pawprint in my heart, Never taking it
for granted & guarding it always...I love you Buckwheat...MERRY CHRISMAS. Love Momma

12/31/15 Well, My dearest Buckwheat, this year is almost to its end...You have left your pawprint
on my heart, and I will always feel you there. So as another year comes to it's end, It broke
our hearts to lose you,you did not go alone, For part of us went with you, the day God called
you home. Happy New Years My little Pumpkin Eater...I love you xxooo Momma