My dearest Secret always in my heart.
Secret's story .
She was a loving pitbull . I seen her post on CraigsList .( I have always rescued pit bulls trained them socialzed them and found them worthy homes with loving families. ) A nice couple had found Secret as a stray and took her in to find her a good home. I was it : ) . When I first met her she was timid but came right up to me , loyally did not run away with a dropped leash .Secret jumped right into the back seat to come home with me . We (my husband and I ) noticed scars all on her, obviously she had been in some sort of fight , but we looked past that and started our rehab with her , she was always afraid of men even my husband no matter what her did to win her over. She was wonderful with the kids and our male pitbull. For months we were one happy family she never had shown any aggressions . We graduated doggy school got her spayed and all vetting done ,she was the dream dog we decided she would be a permanent member to our family as she could not overcome her timidness with men.Secret had seen many fosters come and go in our home even other female pitbulls.
Fast forward a few more months , another dog needs a savior , Lilly great 5 month old pit ,loving playful girl , our male and secret loved her , till 4 weeks down the line ,Secret Snaps , kills this other female in our home . We consult our vet he tells us to put her down , consult 2 others get the same , consult the trainers and they work with her telling us not to give up . We do so , we love her and do not blame her as again she hada questionable past with the scars. We get another vet he puts her on meds for her nervousness and gives us more tips . We are a life long pit family generations down ,love the breed , never do anything wrong by the breed but Secret is not left alone with our kids for her unpredictablity . Fast Forward a few more months , no other pit pulls will enter our home due to her , only her and our male will be the pitbull brats in this home . Then at the park a great dane dumped, we pick her up , go to the vets office look to see if she is chipped ,and not , post signs and ads no luck , begin the process of trying to rehome her , 5weeks later , all good , secret comes in from potty and out of the blue SNaPPED again , Secret a 45 pound petite pit bull managed to kill a 2 yr old 165 pound Great Dane in a matter of 10 minutes , We fought hard to get her off of her but lost . She never snapped on our male only 2 female dogs out of all that came and went through our fostering .Friday January 9th I called the SPCA for help and counsul, they helped me know that I did all I could to save her.That day I walked into the shelter with a beatup secret (from the great danes attempts to defend herself) I told her I loved her , and I was so sorry , I signed the papers and walked her around to a cold building , that day I said goodbye to the dog that loved me unconditionally , the dog that trusted me when I said it will be okay Secret mommy loves you , the dog that di not clthes her eyes when she went home just stared at me the whole time with her tail wagging. GOD DAMN the person who bred this dog to FIGHT , I wanted to help her , I fell in love with her but in the end she was to much even for herself to control.

Secret I loved so much spent so much on vet bills , meds and training and end the end my love for you could not save you from your troubled past that made you unpredictable . I could not with good concious rehome you to anyone with kids as I did not feel you were safe with them. I could not rehome you with a home with other dogs because you were a killer. I could not chance rehoming you with another person as they may use you for your killer ways. You could not stay with us as we could no longer help you and trust you with the kids. Secret I loved so much , I had to set you free from yourself .I loved you so much I could not allow you to take a chance on hurting yourself or others. Secret I loved so much I let you go baby , I cry everyday , we all miss you so much. I was never angry at you as I knew you simply could not help what someone taught you do ,I know god forgave you for you knew not what you did was wrong .
That day we burried Big Cow the dog you killed , and you next to her.Forever in our hearts. People I still have my male pitbull he is a good dog beacuse we raised him from a pup with love and structure and never taught him wrong or fighting , PLEASE DO NOT FIGHT your dogs and think you can turn them around as a dog that can function in a family. The heartache we faced and deal with is so inhumane , GOD HELP THE BREED , we love them , protect them from the idiots that fight. Secret you are forever in my heart I wish I could have met you before someone soiled your mind with the teachings of fighting.