Dear Shasta,
Hi Baby girl! It has been one whole year today since I had to say good bye to you and the huge gaping wound in my heart is still hurting terribly. There is not a day that fades into night that I don't think of you. There is not a night that I don't long to feel you under my hand or have your little head resting upon my leg. I miss you so terribly and I cannot wait to cross over that Bridge and see you again.
I have so much to tell you that has happened in the year since you crossed The Bridge. Where to begin? Well, you remember John, he asked me to marry him the day after Thanksgiving last year and I said yes. I know you would have approved because you liked him so much and he was always so kind and loving to you. So, on June 3rd we were married in Hawaii on a beach at sunset. Then he moved me out to his home in Denver, Colorado. Shasta, remember how seven years ago just you and I moved from Arkansas to Nashville, not knowing anyone? The move out here to Denver has been a little like that. Except back then I had YOU to help me get through those difficult times. And now I have John. I have "your" chair sitting in front of a window in our living room and every day I wish I could walk in and see you sitting in it. Shasta, I want to know if you have seen our Aunt Lucy? She crossed The Bridge two days before Christmas. And have you seen my friend Annice? She crossed The Bridge just a few weeks ago. The past 12 months have had some very sad times for me, and I have longed for you to be here to comfort me as only you could do. I also have some very wonderful news to share with you. Our Jennifer had a little girl just a month and half after you crossed The Bridge. And our Teri had twin boys in July. Can you believe that? Little Lauren asks where you are all the time...she wants to know if you are playing with God.
Baby Girl, I so hope you are happy there on the other side where you feel no pain and can romp and play. I want you to know that no matter where I go, what I do or how many days pass, you are always with me in my heart. I know you had to go and I am so very greatful for all the wonderful time through the years we shared. But Shasta, my heart still aches because I had to say good bye to you. Little girl, nothing will ever replace the special bond and love we shared. Have fun with your new friends there and know that I am waiting (rather impatiently) to cross over The Rainbow's Bridge to see you.
I lvoe you, Shasta.
your mommy