Hi sweetie pie. Are you with God yet? I hope so. Last night was the hardest thing Mommy has ever had to do in her life. Holding you in my arms when Dr. Fukusaki gave you the shot was the most painful thing. Watching him listen for your heartbeat and hearing him say that your heart has stopped and you've passed on. It hurt my heart so bad. But to see you out of pain and agony, I know I made the right choice. Mommy is so proud of you. You did so good. You were such a fighter, even to the very end. I didn't want to let you go, but like Pau Pau said, God brought you into my life and now He wants you back. You took a big chunk of my heart with you when you left me and all that is left is a big empty hole. Now it's Mommy's turn to feel the pain. I'm not a tough cookie like you though, baby. All I do is cry for you like you cried for me in the hospital. But sometimes, it seems like it's almost unbearable and I'm gonna lose it and go crazy.

I keep waiting for you to jump on the couch next to me as soon as I sit down. I keep thinking I hear you scratching on the door to the bathroom because you want to come in and be with me. I keep peering over the side of my bed at yours to see if you're laying there. I can't race you up the stairs anymore. Don't worry. Your record will always be 0 loses. I actually thought you jumped on our bed last night after we fell asleep and snuck into your usual nook between me and Daddy. You were always a bed hog. And you snore.

Thank you for choosing me to be your mom. Thank you for lighting up my life, my little sunshine. Thank you for your never ending companionship, your unconditional love, and your ability to make me smile with every lick of my face and every silly thing you do. Thank you for all the joy you've brought. It has been the funnest 4 years. Thank you for coming into my life. You made me the luckiest girl in the world. Did you hear me singing to you last night like I use to? I really wanted you to know that...

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine,
You make me happy, when skies are gray.
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you,
So please, don't take my sunshine away.

You are the love of my life and always will be. No dog can ever take the place I have for you in my heart. You are my everything, baby girl. I really miss you.

I'll see you over the Rainbow Bridge. I love you always and forever, Baby Girl.

Love,
Mommy