Today is a day that will hang in my heart, our hearts for the rest of our earthly time. It is one of those days that leaves a scar on your heart, you know the kind that defines who you are. We had our last day with Sylvester our 21-year-old cat. He was a month and a few days from his 22nd birthday. Even though it's only been a few hours since we laid him to rest I find myself already missing him and his routines. He and I had a similar out look and fiest for life. His personality was so multi faceted; he loved his independence and enjoyed his time alone almost as much as I do, but at the same time enjoyed the comfort of having loved ones close at times. He exhibited time and time again a never quit attitude, which too is something I could relate to. Even in his final moments he refused to give in, give up. It was almost as if he was reminding me of a line from one of Dads and mine favorite pomes by Dylan Thomas, rage rage against the dying of the light. He roared his defiance to the dying of the light and at the same time reminded me of the courage to live that it takes to never give up. I'll miss my buddy and our walks around and around the sofa late at night; the morning scratches and his tub drink routine that started each of my days. He came into this world on Mothers day 1987 and was Beth's kitty from the moment she laid eyes on him. He was the first and last one to get fed. Even when he was only a few days old he would show his attitude and independence. I wish he was with us tonight but even with my heavy heart I couldn't wish him to suffer anymore and I know Beth feels the same way. She will miss her boy forever and I would do anything to take the hurt away that I see in her eyes. I know time will lesson what she is feeling as it has a way of doing that. It wont stop the hurt or erase the heart scar but it will help it to be not as sensitive as it is today, I only wish I could make it happen quicker for her. We still have his sister Stripes and I'm very grateful for that. Watching her as she is sitting on Beth's lap tonight I can tell she is sad so I know she realizes he brother is gone. She watched out for him especially in the last few years as he coped with the cards he was dealt, she was so good to him. We could learn from them I guess. Love the ones close to you deeply and spend time with them often, give yourself time to relax and reflect, be loyal to those that are loyal to you and never give up on yourself or the ones you love and an occasional nap is pretty good too.

I will never forget you my friend and I know you will be waiting for us on the other side. Until we get there you will be young again with no worries and spend your days playing with no cares and a full tummy basking in the warm sunshine. It will be a lifetime for us till we are reunited with you but my hopes are it will seem like a blink of time for you. I'll miss you every day until we are together again. I love you and I know Beth and Stripes love you too. Rest well in gods arms buddy.
Dad