My Chouchou was the love of my life. He slept with us every night and I could sleep easily feeling his warm body against my back. In the morning when the alarm went off he would be sure to get me up to feed him. And then it was off to his.condo for playtime. Chouchou was very playful. even at the age of 12. He loved ribbons and balls and empty cartons. The house seems so empty without him and I am so depressed at this loss. I am having problems doing every day things and enjoying my usual activities. He loved being outdoors once in a while and for 12 years we were able to keep him safe. I am overwhelmed with guilt for letting him out that morning.