My beautiful girl Brady, we are edging forever closer to your birthday, the first one since you left us all broken hearted. I want you to know we miss you so very much baby, mom misses you so much, my heart aches and my tears still flow unchecked. I feel someone is twisting my heart when I think of you knowing I can no longer give you my love. The space you have left behind is huge and can never be filled again. We talk about the happy memories, you racing round the house playing hide and seek with Aimee, or bouncing around on my bed when I get home from work, pushing your neck into my face so I can keep kissing you. Then the memory changes to the sad day I had to say goodbye to you and the tears once again start flowing. Madison is asking us why you haven't come back yet, she may only be 4 years old but she too misses all your love and cuddles. Dad finds it so hard to talk about you still, he hurts much more than I anticipated but yet I should have known that to know you is to love you. I remember taking you to the school to fetch Aimee and all the children thinking you were a real live teddy bear, and coming over for a cuddle which you always obliged, adding the odd kiss or two. I have kept your favorite things Brady, and keep going to them just so I can smell your scent, still lingering on your blankets. I love you my beautiful little girl more than anyone could ever know. I would give up everything I have in this world for just one more love and cuddle with you, to drink in your smell and the feel of your fluffy coat that made people smile. My life will never, and could never be the same again. So from us all on your birthday we give you all of our love. Night night baby, sleep tight until mom can cuddle you once more. xxxxx