Christmas is on it's way again, but all I feel is pain. My beautiful little Brady has been gone for 2 years on December 21st and the waves of pain are already washing over me. Brady, my beautiful angel, We miss you so much still, I don't think for one minute I will ever get over losing you. We talk about you often, and think of you every day. To us you were our baby, our sister and the love of our lives. You gave us so much happiness but all you wanted in return was to be with us, to love us, to take up the space on our lap where you would sleep. I can't help but cry at our wonderful memories, and know that would make you sad, you were always there whenever I cried. You would comfort me in your own unique way. Madison called us, and when I asked would she like to talk to Grandad her reply was " I'd rather talk to Brady Nanny" She may only be 6 years old, but she knows the huge loss of losing you. Tamsin was just a newborn when you left us but Madison shows her your photo's, and tells her all about you, and how much she loves you. I hope you met up with Nan in heaven, she left us this year. I still worry about you being on your own you see, I know you hated it so much that we organised our days to make sure you were never alone for long. I worry you are scared without us, you never were the bravest of dogs, and relied on us to protect you from the things you hated like Thunder and fireworks. The pain I am still feeling is so acute it feels as if my heart is broken, and will never be the same again. Enjoy your life in heaven baby, I will see you again one day, I promise. All my love forever Mom xxx