I lost my sweet little boy on the operating table June 5th, 2008. My baby suffered from bladder stones. The first surgery was touch & go a yr ago. Dr Rick Erwin saved my Benji's life & gave me a yr to say good-bye. Benji's bladder was rotted but he had a strong will to live. His bladder was rotted beyond repair this 2nd time but that boy wanted to live. He curled his tail for me and wagged it to greet me.
When I got the call from the vet that Benji's bladder can't be repaired and she was going to put Benji to sleep, I screamed NO! and cried. My husband brought Benji home and I got to say Good-Bye as we buried him under the window where I sleep & Benji use to sleep with us. My husband said let's get a pretty plant to put on Benji's grave. So we drove to one store & they closed already. So Wal-mart it was. All through my mind I thought of the Rainbow's Bridge. In 2003 I lost Daunte and wrote something in Rainbow's Bridge for him & I thought of butterflies because of one of the stories I read. Now when I think of Daunte I see Butterflies everywhere and I got a tatoo of a butterfly in remembrance of Daunte. Now when I was walking on the sidewalk of Wal-mart my husband said "Look straight ahead." There were 2 rainbows right in front of me. I felt peace all of a sudden. There was a big rainbow and right next to it was a small rainbow. I knew it was a sign someone from my family telling me Benji is okay. Or it was Benji telling me "Mommy I'm okay." Someone is looking after my baby now as I cry and write this little memory to him and one day I'll be able to hold my Benji again. Poor Benji was just 2 yrs old but I believe he left me a memory of him. He mated with our Pepper 2 weeks earlier and now we are waiting to see if Benji left us a piece of him to cherish.

Mommy loves you Benji. Even though I can't see you, I know you are around still following me. I love you Benji. God take good care of my baby boy. I just love him so much and my heart hurts so bad for him. I know eventually the pain will ease but right now it hurts so bad! I miss you Benji Boy. Terribly, I miss you. My eyes hurt from crying and my heart aches for you. We all love you so much Benji and I'm not saying good-bye because I know your still with Mommy & Daddy.

I love you Benji! Our Caron's Beloved Benji is forever a part of us.