This is a story about my lil Katie Bug. She was a 9 pound yorkie-mix, almost 19 yrs old whom i lost 2 years ago. I knew our time was growing shorter, she turned very ill on Valentine's night 2009. I held and rocked her all night just hoping she would come out of it but @ 5am on the 15th i put her in a clothes basket and headed to the vet. i knew it was the end. Being a single person i knew it was just ME and I fell apart.I did not hold her as she slipped away after the shot and hate myself for that!! I have ran from that greif ever since. I tried anything not to be at home as it was so hard because i seen her everywhere. From the time i opened my door at the end of each day a sadness fell upon me that i could not bear. so i Ran.....So ironic to spend a holiday about love facing death but a greater lesson of love i was soon to learn...She never pulled anyone from a burning building or won any blue ribbons but she saved me during some very heartbreaking times.,even thru a divorce she was my saving grace. To this day i can not empty a paper towel roll without making noises in it like i did playing with her for so many years,, or not call chicken---"chicky" (her favorite).I miss her on my bed, my lap, in my life! I do understand life and death and would have never been so selfish as to let her live in pain to soothe me. So i did what had to be done and gave her peaceful passage into a special place where i believe she waits for me. I so far have not adopted another pup, even tho i would have 2 or 3 if i could. I know someday i will but my heart is not ready yet!! Hugs go out to every person in the world who has been there and those who will at some point.....all pets are special but i like to think the poem about God spelled backwards is the reason for DOG(s). I know my Katie was a God send and i thank him for all our wonderful years together. Maybe God can tell her mommy loves and misses her very much and kiss her head for me. I believe she was meant for me and me for her, but maybe someday i can come to share that love with some other furbabies. Just needed to say these things to continue my "therapy"......Goodnight and GodBless!