Today I put to sleep my beautiful baby, Scuffles. She would have been 17 this year. I know more than one person thinks this, but she was the most perfect kitty in the entire world. "Beautiful Lady" was her nickname, as she always carried herself so. She was the most loving and wonderful thing that we could have ever hoped for. I am 20 years old, so we got Scuffles when I was still a toddler. I love her so dearly and I'm so glad I never had to live without her.

Watching the euthenization this morning was probably the hardest thing I've ever done. I just completely lost it. It kills me that I have to wait so long to see my girl again. I wish so badly that I could just hold her one more time and kiss her one more time...everything once more.

I have to get through the days knowing that I did the unselfish thing. My baby is free now to run and play, have her healthy body back and see her beautiful sister, who we had to put down from cancer a year and a half ago.

Scuffles, hunny, I love you so much. I know you were so scared those last seconds and I am ETERNALLY sorry that I turned around and didn't face you. I lost control of all emotions and physical being. I couldn't stand to watch you take your last breath. I love you so deeply, you'll never know, I love you more than anything. I'll miss you everyday for the rest of my life but I'll keep faith knowing one day I will see you again. I will run straight to you and hold you and your sister. We'll all be together again. I can't wait for that day. You know you were more than a cat to me, you were my other sister. You will FOREVER be a part of this family and we will LOVE you and MISS you forever and ever. Hold on tight and make all your dreams finally come true. Please know I only did this for you because I knew there was something much better for you on the other side. I love you COMPLETELY, for the rest of my days. I miss you, beautiful lady, wait for me.

Every emotion I have for you is FOREVER.
Don't ever forget it.

I LOVE YOU UNTIL THE END OF TIME.
Now you're free.