Well here it is another year passing by and still the lost of you is so fresh.You passed on March 1,2007 and it seems like yesterday. I have gone over the night you died a million times and just keep hoping that you were aware that me and Daddy was right there with you.
I love you so much Gilbert and I miss you every day.You were the love of my life and I would give everything I have to have you back but being that is not possible I have things such as this letter to give to you.There really isn't any words to describe how I feel. I guess one of the worse things since you passed is that people just don't understand my feelings.Especially since it's been almost two years, they think well it's over move on they just don't get it that for me it's so very hard.One thing has happened in the last two years since you have been gone that really stands out.Last year I had a pot of flowers that had just about died and everyone said they would never come back.Well they did and just about the time of year of your passing with the biggest flowers I had ever seen.Then this year the same thing happened with another plant that has not bloomed for years.Just the other day I got one beautiful pink flower.I like to think you had something to do with that.Again this is just around the time you were so sick and died.Maybe in some magical way that is you saying to me (Mommy I am alright and happy where I am),think of me but don't be sad.Life does go on and you smile and do the every day things but deep inside you there is that ache that just won't go away.
What else can I say my sweet boy other then I miss you and love you and I always will.I guess I will only be complete again when I am holding you in my arms.I look out the window every day at your little grave under the flower bush that you loved so very much.That was your favorite spot in the yard.Daddy and I put bird feeders up and there are beautiful birds right by you all the time & squirels and chip monks & rabbits.Sometimes it almost looks like they have come to visit you.We give you beautiful flowers all the time, different ones for the different seasons.Well sweet heart rest in peace. Until we meet again.
Love Mommy