I had my first child last year and suffered post partum anxiety. Pain pills that were given made me worse and I was hospitalized. Returning home I experienced depersonalization-my world felt unreal and didn't know who I was or what was happening.

Buddy, my cat, never before slept at my head started that night. He slept at my head every night while I cried from fear. He was the only thing that kept me grounded. I just kept focusing on him and he helped me through it.

Months later when he became sick, he moved back to my pillow. Not to comfort me, but he now needed comfort.

He was a tough guy-if you didn't pet him to his liking he would bite and he never wanted to be held. The only cat I know of that would come like dog when his name was called! So silly! He'd cry out looking for me in the house; his call sounded like he was saying 'where, where, where are youuuuu'. Amazing.

I wish I could've held him for more years. Hope he's with Kyphie my other cat I lost in 2010 just 2 months after I had a miscarriage. Buddy helped me through those losses as well.

I pray I did right by him by letting him go before he suffered any longer.

I pray to see him again...so sorry Buddy, thanks for taking care of me, my good boy.

Thank you for reading.