Going to bed without him, in the bed that we share.

Waking up in the morning and seeing that he's not there.

Driving in my car, without him coming everywhere.

Seeing all the parks we went to and feeling agonising despair.

Being at home without him, not following me anywhere.

The loss of my daily routine, which revolves around his care.

Knowing I'll miss him every day forever is just too much bear.

I won't be able to survive this, my most unbearable nightmare.