I miss you so much. You were the greatest around. I could tell you anything and you would not look down on me. Dad misses you a lot. You were his gardening buddy. You did a good job at the vet that last day. It seemed you knew your time had come. You did not wrestle around with the vet. You just calmly let the vet and vet tech do what had to be done. Gem you left a huge hole in my heart. I don't know how to fill it. Even a week later I still have knots in my stomach. Even though I know you are in a better place. Doing the right thing for you really hurts. I don't even want to know how it would have felt to do the wrong thing. I want you to know that nothing will ever replace you. You were a true friend. You were there when I was in high school going through depression. You were there when I was told about dad having cancer. Even though you spent the majority of your time outside you never complained about how hot or cold it was. I want you to know that I would have done anything to keep you around, but it was too painful to see what you were going through. You were a kind caring soul. Nothing will ever replace you. You were there through good times and bad. I have great memories of you. The times you escaped from the house we would get calls from the seven eleven. Then there was the time we took you to grandma and grandpa's house and when I came out to check on you, you were sitting in the driver's seat of the mini van looking like you were ready to drive home. Then there was the time you tried to drink the ocean even though it was making you sick. I don't know how I can tell you how much you meant to me. You were a true friend. You never got mad at me. You never criticized me. The hardest thing about putting you down was that you still had a good heart. Your heart was good till the last breath you took.

Lots and lots and lots of love,
Mary