I first found out about this site back in 2001 when I lost 2 of my beloved babies...All tho Loss is NEVER easy the loss I endured Today is something that has shook me to my very core....When I have lost a baby before they just slipped away and the loss none the less is painful....Shadow Marie was Born on May 25th 1992...She belonged to my Neice and there came a time she had to get rid of her and it was always understood that she would bring her to me.....That was 1995 when she was just a little Baby Girl...I sit here and think about all the things I love about her and the things that make me smile when I do and the things that make me laugh that she would do....Sat after being in and out all day shopping we realized that we hadnt seen Shadow come out at all....So we looked for her and she was in my kitchen cabinet asleep in one of my large serving bowls..My husband said when he shook her to wake her it took him a bit to rouse her...She looked rough like she had been in a prize fight and she smelled bad....I wont go into details but you could definately tell something was wrong....She wouldnt eat and she wasnt cleaning her self and my other cats wouldnt go near her....I struggled with what to do being selfish I wanted her with me but I knew in my heart that she was suffering...I had never had to have one of my babies put to sleep and it was the HARDEST call I have ever made!...I wrapped her in a scooby doo sheet lovingly donated by my daughter jennifer....We got there I held her in my arms while the medicne that they give her to relax her took affect and kissed her and told her I loved her a million times over...When it was time I kissed her goodbye and told her Rest now Baby girl!...I havent stopped crying I have her picture on my desktop...I do feel I did the right thing she isnt suffering anymore but it doesnt ease the pain of her loss...I know in time it will ease off but for right now shes all I can think about...I was glad to be able to spend her last moments with her...Rest Now Shadow Know Mommy and Daddy and Jennifer and Floyd and Clyde and Bixby Love You and MISS YOU!!