Casper you were always waiting for me at the door when I came home only wanting to be petted, kissed and loved giving me an uncondtional love I'll treasure for the rest of my days. No matter how bad my day was when I saw you at the door waiting for me I felt loved and knew all would be ok. There wasn't one person who you met that you didn't like and vice versa, everyone loved you Capser. You went through so much in your life medically and made it over 5 years longer than they thought you would. Through all my emotional ups and downs I went through you were there for me it seems knowing at the right times to kiss me or lay down with me. I miss having you sleeping next to me at night I can't seem to go to bed these days because it hurts too much. You were the most awesome dog I was ever blessed to have. Your now out of pain and can move freely again at the Rainbow Bridge while you wait for me, have fun playing again my little man I hope you make a lot of new friends who will keep you company until we meet again, make sure and find Brandy Lee she's the sister you never knew but believe me you were alot like her but with more character, find Lucky too I'm sure he'll be glad to see you, you missed him so after he died, now you two can play together once again. Casper what I wouldn't do to just hold you one more time and kiss your sweet face, I miss you so much my man I really don't know what to do with myself. Blackjack, Star and Nemo keep looking for you especially Blackjack, I'm sure he's missing you the most of the three cats since you two did most everything together. It's been 4 days since I lost you but it seems like yesterday that we were walking around the neighborhood. Always know that mommy loves you with all her heart and soul...I'll see you at Rainbow Bridge my man when God calls me home to him.
Well Casper it has now been 1 week since I lost you and I'm hurting as much as if it was just today. I miss you so much my little man and can't wait to see you and hold you in my arms again. I know you are much better off at RB with all your new friends and not in pain in any longer. I love you with all my heart and soul Mommy.

Well Casper I just got home from picking up your ashes, it's so comforting having you "home" with me again but at the same time my heart is breaking so badly. The urn I ordered hasn't gotten here yet. Your gonna like it-it's a statue of St. Francis with an angel, dog and cat around him. I just wish I could hold you in my arms right now and kiss your sweet face. I don't know what to do with myself right now because for all those years you were the one who always made me smile when I was sad and now your gone. Everyone always tells me I was a wonderful mommy to you and that I took such good care of you but in truth you took care of me by just being in my life. We haven't told Alyssa yet that you're at RB she's gonna be so upset-she loved you so much and you were the only dog "she had". She helped her grandma take care of you whenever she spent the night and you used to always lay at the end of her bed with her watching over her for me. I don't even know how to begin telling her that you're gone. Jordan will have to do it, both Wendy and Jordan miss you alot. Grandma and Grandpa miss you also. I miss and love you with all my heart and soul-Casper they belong to you.
Love Mommy

Good morning Casper my little love, I got your St. Francis urn yesterday. I took and put some of your ashes in it to stay with me at our home in Anaheim and the rest I will take to our Hemet home that was our special place. I miss you so much Casper the pain just won't go away no matter how much I try. Even with the cats at home, there just is no replacing the love you gave me so unselfishly for all those years. But I'm glad I have the cats to at least distract for a few minutes here and there. Blackjack always sits on my computer desk at night when I visit you and he just stares at your picture meowing. I know he misses you alot, he has been the most comfort of the 3. Star and Nemo still argue with eachother all the time, I don't think that will ever change. You have gotten so many lovely welcome notes from some truly amazing people Casper. Well my little man I have to say good bye until tonite, have fun today, give my love to Brandy Lee and Lucky I miss them too. Love with all my heart and soul Mommy.

Hello sweet love. I was sitting here writing to others at RB when I heard your low groan you would make when you wanted my attention, Casper I swear I could feel you here with me. Thank you my little man I so desperately needed that I just miss you so very much. My nights are so lonely without you and sleep is next to impossible. Good night my love always know that mommy loves you with all my heart and soul. I'll talk to you again in the morning. Love Mommy

Casper my sweet love it's been two weeks since you left for RB and it hurts just as much as if it's just today. I am so lost without you Casper there isn't one thing about you that I don't miss. I sleep with your ashes on my nightstand and sometimes I hold them while I sleep, I hate nights they're the worst I miss you so much sleeping next to me and your snoring that was so comforting to me. My only consolation is knowing that you are not in pain or sick anymore. I don't think I'll ever get over loosing you my little love. I can't wait until we are together again. Casper I would have given you a kidney had they said that would make you better, but that wasn't to be you had cancer and there was nothing I could do to help you-I'm so sorry Casper I always promised I'd protect and take care of you and I failed I couldn't help you that freaking cancer took you from me. Until tonite my love have a good day playing with Brandy Lee and Lucky and all the other babies waiting for their Mommys and Daddys, tell Brandy Lee and Lucky I love them and miss them tons.
Love always heart and soul my little love, Mommy

Hello my sweet love I got your memorial stone and it turned out awesome the picture looks just like you, it weighs so much I got large so I could fit my wording on it. I miss you like crazy Casper I just really don't know what to do with myself, I actually feel like half of me is missing. I'm going to Hemet in the morning, I really don't like going there anymore that was our special hideaway and now I have to go alone and I don't like it at all. I wish I could just hold you Casper it hurts so bad. Are you greeting all the new babies when they arrive? Be nice and gentle with them. I'll talk to you in the morning Casper, know that I love you with all my heart and soul,tell Brandy Lee and Lucky I love them and miss them. Love always my man Mommy

Good morning Casper my little love are you having fun today? I miss you like crazy Casper. I decided that I needed a memorial stone for you at both homes so I ordered another one last night after I visited you, now I'll have one for our Hemet home-our special place. I put up your Rainbows Bridge plaque in our bedroom (in Hemet) last night-I made it so that you overlook the whole bedroom and out the patio door-you loved laying out on the patio rain or shine. Have a fun day my little man. I'll talk to you tonite until then know that mommy misses you like crazy and loves you with all my heart and soul. Give Brandy Lee and Lucky a kiss for me. Mommy

Good evening my sweet love it's now been three weeks since you left for RB and the pain is not going away. Alyssa spent the day with me and could not understand why god took you from her it broke my heart so much. I told her she could talk to you anytime she needed to and that you would now be her guardian angel watching over her. I caught her twice today looking out the front window up to heaven begging for you to come back to her because she loved you so much and didn't want to live without you, let her know your watching her Casper she misses you so much like me. Casper there hasn't been one day go by that I haven't broken down and cried at least 4-5 times-I honestly never knew complete heartbreak until I lost you. My heart hurts all the time from missing you, I so much wish I could hold you one more time Casper and kiss your sweet face. I miss everything about you my man, know that I miss you more each day and love you with all my heart and soul-Mommy

Casper my necklace came last night that I ordered so I now have a little bit of your ashes with me at all times. Sounds crazy maybe but I feel such comfort knowing that you are close to me at all times-where I go you will go always from now on my little man. Are you, Brandy Lee and Lucky having fun little one, I miss you so much Casper,time isn't healing the huge hole in my heart that was left when you went to RB. Tell Brandy Lee and Lucky I love them and miss them tons. I can't wait until we are all together again. Take care of them for me until I get there ok? I love you Casper with all my heart and soul little one. Mommy

Good morning my love how are you doing today? Today at 7:19pm will mark 4 weeks since you left for Heaven to be with Jesus at Rainbows Bridge taking with you my heart and soul. I have felt so alone and sad since that day Casper. Nothing I do seems to really help, visiting the shelters and talking to all the animals on weekends gives me temporary relief but as soon as I leave and get in the car to go home it hits me again knowing you won't be there waiting for me at the door. I don't think I'll ever get used to the fact that your not coming back to me-stupid as it sounds there is a small part of me that thinks this is a nightmare and I'll wake up and you'll be home with me. I know you have so many new friends and are no longer sick or in pain and for that I am eternaly grateful to Jesus for. Please wait for me Casper I promise that I will be there one day I just don't know how long it will take but when I get there we will be together for all of eternity never to part again, we'll be with Brandy Lee and Lucky able to play all the time. I miss you so much my little love, I so wish I could just hold you and kiss you one more time-someday...Have fun today Casper, go play with Brandy Lee and Lucky give them kisses for me and let them know I'll be there someday soon ok? Love always Heart and Soul-Mommy

Good evening sweet love,it's halloween night and it just seems so sad handing out the candy to the kids this year. I miss you helping me do that. The kids always loved seeing you too. Do you remember the year you dressed like dracula I loved that costume-can't find the picture I think it's in the garage. Nothing seems right anymore without you here. I miss you so much little love I just so badly want to hold you in my arms again and feel your warm fur next to me. I gotta run love there are more kids here. I'll talk to you in the morning ok? Say hello to Brandy Lee and Lucky for me tell them I love them. I love you Casper with all my heart and soul. Mommy-Casper all the kids that came tonite kept looking past me into the house looking for you, they miss you too. You touched so many people young and old through your love-I'm so glad that god allowed me to be your mommy here on earth, I'm just so proud to have had that privilege. I love you heart and soul and miss you sooooooooooo much. Mommy.

Good morning sweet love today marks week 5 since you passed on and the pain is still as raw today as it was the day you left for RB. There isn't a moment that goes by that my heart does not ache to hold you one more time. I so wish we could have had more time together but I'm so happy to know that you are no longer sick or in pain, you can eat whatever you want again and run freely like you did when you were younger. How is Brandy Lee and Lucky are you 3 having fun together? I told you that you would love Brandy Lee she was a good girl and of course we both knew you would love seeing Lucky again. You go have fun playing today love I'll see you tonite until then know that I love you with all my heart and soul and can't wait until we are together again for all of eternity. Love-Mommy

Good evening my little love how're you doing sweetheart? Are you having fun playing with Lucky and Brandy Lee? Oh Casper how much I do miss you, I still hope you'll be at the door when I get home and of course your not. I adopted 2 new furbabies who nobody else wanted. They're both senior dogs and one was at his last stop before they would have sent him to Rainbows Bridge and I just couldn't let that happen. Raider is a frisky little 7 year old Shih Tzu mix and Scooby is a fun loving 6 yr old Llasa Alpsa Mix. They're doing fine other than Raider never had any house manners training but he's learning pretty good. Nemo and Blackjack haven't come out of our bedroom yet, they're protesting this one big time. they'll all get used eachother soon. I need you to help me train these two babies ok Casper, you would really like both of these babies. I'm starting to check on getting Casper's Ranch open for all furbabies who are not able to get adopted and they would otherwise be sent to RB.I promised you I would do that in your memory and I will get it going I promise it's just going to take me some time to get the money together but I am designing it and checking on license requirements. You will love it when I get it done sweetheart and it will all be in your memory. I miss you so much not a second goes by that I don't ache for you Casper. You go have fun now love I'll see you in the morning. Give Brandy Lee and Lucky a kiss and hug for me. Love always Heart and Soul Mommy.

Good evening love how are you doing today? Today is Thanksgiving and I'm having the hardest time missing you so much Casper. I decorated the house today for Christmas and cryed so much it just doesn't seem right that I have any holidays without you, christmas was always our holiday I just loved having you at my feet while I baked and cooked, what am I going to do without you Casper?? I'm really depressed today I just don't want to be without you, time isn't making this any easier I miss you as much today as I did the day you passed away. I hope you had alot of Turkey and vegatables today love-that was always your favorite. How is Brandy Lee and Lucky doing are you three having fun?? Tell them I miss them both so much too and can't wait for all of us to be together again. I love you Casper with every ounce of my being and I miss you sooo much. Go have fun my little love I'll see you in the morning. Love you lots and miss you tons-Mommy, Raider and Scooby (you would love these two guys-thanks for bringing me to them Casper)HAPPY THANKSGIVING CASPER, BRANDY LEE, LUCKY AND ALL THE OTHER FURBABIES AT RB.

Good evening little love how are you doing, it's now been 10 weeks and 1 day since you left for RB and the pain is still unbearable at times. I cry all the time but I have loved visiting with you while walking Raider and Scooby-I look to the brightest star and know that's you walking with me, Casper I can feel you in my heart and soul I know your never far from me but I just wish so badly that I could hold you again and kiss that sweet gentle face that stole my heart and soul so many years ago. Hello Brandy Lee and Lucky I miss you both so much, just know that someday we will all be together for all of eternity never to part again and know that mommy loves you both with all my heart and soul-Casper will take good care of both of you for me until I get there. Casper I know I keep repeating myself but know that I would have done anything within my power to have saved you. My heart stopped beating the moment you left for RB, I have such a huge hole there now. I love you my little man and miss you soooo much. Love you tons and miss you lots. Mommy.

Merry Christmas my little love, today is Christmas Eve as you already know. The whole family is coming over as usual but I can't seem to get into the spirit Casper I miss you so much the pain just won't go away. It's been 12 weeks since you went to RB but the pain feels as though it was just today. I love talking with you while walking Raider and Scooby your always there for me Casper but I so wish I could hold you once more and kiss your sweet face. Christmas just isn't the same without you no matter how hard I try. Alyssa talks to you all the time she is so cute when she talks to you, she really misses you too sweetheart, actually everyone misses you. Merry Christmas Brandy Lee and Lucky I hope all 3 of you have a great time today and always. Know that mommy thinks of you all every minute of every day. Your in my heart and in my soul. I love you with all my H & S Mommy. Merry Christmas to all the furbabies at RB.

Happy New Year my sweet little love. I'm sorry I didn't write sooner but I've been sick lately. How are you all doing? I'm doing ok but I just can't seem to get past the pain of loosing you Casper it still feels as raw today as it did the day you passed away. Hello Brandy Lee and Lucky how are my little darlings doing? I miss all 3 of you soo much I can't wait until we are all together again for all of eternity. Are you all having fun with all the new furbabies when they arrive, remember and be the kind souls to them that you always were. Casper I would give anything to just hold you one more time and kiss you, god how I miss that. I love you all H & S forever. Mommy
Good evening my sweet little love how are you doing?? Are you Brandy Lee and Lucky having fun with all the new friends your meeting there? I miss you so much Casper I can't get through a day without crying and longing to hold you one more time and to kiss that sweet face that always let me know how loved I was. Each day that goes by brings me one day closer to being with you again Casper. Scooby and Raider are getting along fine but I don't know if Raider will ever get housetrained. He tries but I just don't think whoever had him at the start of his little life gave him too much attention or any training. Scooby on the other hand from day one has been house trained and just a very mellow little guy. The cats still won't come downstairs when the dogs are out of their yard I made them in the diningroom and kitchen. I love walking in the early morning and in the evening I always look for the brightest star and I know your there with me, I talk to you the whole time I'm walking Scooby and Raider. I feel you in my heart and soul always Casper. Well little love go have some fun give Brandy Lee and Lucky a kiss from Mommy. I love you H & S Mommy.