If only I could go back and make sure I gave my sweet baby, Mae, more hugs and kisses before she left for the Rainbow Bridge. Her passing has been so hard on me and in the past 2 days I've cried myself to sleep missing her so much. She was funny about barking at anyone and everything that made a sound. If a doorbell was rung on the TV, she would bark at it. She was the Queen Bee in our household and believe me she ruled the roost. We found out that Mae was diagnosed with Insulinoma about a month ago. For 2 years we thought she had Epilepsy, but it turned out to be a tumor on her pancreas which was causing seizures. Her last couple of days with us was so hard on her that we decided it was time to send her to a better place where she wouldn't suffer any longer. I regret letting her pass because I still feel like there was still so much we could have done to help her through her illness but I've been told over and over that it was the best thing for her so I've had to keep telling myself that it was in her best interest. It's only been almost 3 days since she passed but it feels like an eternity. I just wish I had one last moment with her so I could tell her it would be ok and that she was going to a beautiful place where she wouldn't have seizures any more. Her canine sisters also wish that she was still here. I know she's watching over me and I know I'll see her again. Until then I can keep her in my memory. I love you Mae Mae! It's not the same without you here.