She was a stray yet we bonded like we've known for ages. She lived in an abandoned house close to where we live. She was in hiding even though I left food for her but gradually she started waiting outside on the porch for me and would run to me meowing. I call her 'my cat' because I already have a 4yr old beautiful girl 'Missy' my hubby got for me but the first week she came to us she was always around my hubby so it makes me feel she is his but 'my cat' only let me pat her would run and hide if anyone else came near. We surrendered her to a shelter as she couldn't survive on her own on the cold and I hoped we could find her owner. She was so skinny would lick the bowl clean to satisfy her hunger. I set her cat trap 2 weeks ago bought her home left her in the laundry she was stressed meowing and missy was scratching the door from the other side so we let Missy in she hissed at my cat and walked away but my cat calmed down and settled down.

I kept talking to her fed her she was purring inside the cat trap, so I let her out she was happy and calm she rubbed on me and rested her head on my lap, was vocal meowing looking at my face. She trusted me let me in though at times, I thought she would never let me. I'd say to her puss you have to give me a chance you can't live a stray and I was about to give up cos she was to feral. But she actually let me handle her.

She let me put her back into the cage to take her to the shelter didn't scratch or try to get away. She never scratched me. We were going to adopt her if the shelter put her up for adoption. I wanted to give her a happy ending. On Monday I got a call saying she hasn't passed the behavioural test and she has got cat flu. She has been distressed and hissing when vets tried to check her and not let carers handle her. They estimated her age to be 9yrs and I was told she is also malnourished and not micro chipped but has been desexed. So they have to let her go, I was so sad made me cry cos I didn't want to say bye to her. I wanted to bring my cat home. They let her go today. She is in heaven but I miss her so much. She was a stray but we bonded so well like I had known her for so long. She trusted me and I couldn't save her. Missy doesn't like female cats but I was going to try to make her like her. I wanted them to take care of each other be happy together. I miss her so much and knowing she isn't coming back home hurts so bad. I can't even go past the house I found it makes me cry. I love you 'my cat' though we only had little time together you will always have place in my heart and I will see you one day in heaven. At least I know you won't be in pain or hunger or afraid. I am sorry I didn't say goodbye cos I thought you'll be back home forever. I love you.. R.I.P 'my cat'!! Will miss you heaps.We will meet again somewhere beautiful.