I cannot believe this is happening to me once again in just 14 months. I lost my precious Golden Retriever "Barkley" on February 11, 2010 to cancer, and now my beloved Black Labrador Retriever "Oscar" was put to sleep on Sunday April 10, 2011, suffering from the same disease. He had not been too well and two weeks ago I took him to the Vet for a check-up. They did blood work and he was diagnosed as having "Autoimmune Hemolytic Anemia". This is a disease in which the body attacks its own red blood cells and the dog's immune system is not working normally so they are prone to infection. The Vet prescribe Prednisone which is a steroid and has been successful in treating this disease. He was back to the Vets again on two occasions the last time was on Saturday and they said he was responding well. On Saturday night he took a turn for the worse and at 3:30 am on Sunday morning I got up and found him collapsed on the kitchen floor. I managed to get him into his bed and he just lay there panting and shaking. I covered him with a blanket and sat with him trying to comfort him. At 6:30 he tried to get up but he could not stand and again collapsed. I called the Vet Emergency and they said to try and get him to the clinic ASAP. I don't know how, but I managed to get him into the truck wrapped in his blanket he was 80lbs, I got the strength from somewhere to lift him into the truck. We arrived at the clinic and with the help of the Vet we carried him in. She tried to take some blood but his blood pressure was so low she could not find a vein. She suspected that he was bleeding inside, and proceeded to take x-rays. The results proved that he indeed was bleeding inside and it probably was from a tumour in his liver. She said that if they did surgery he probably would not make it as his blood pressure was so low. So I had to make the heartbreaking decision to put him to sleep. I held him so tight, and he looked at me with those gorgeous big brown eyes, I did not want to let him go but he was suffering so much. His fur was so so wet with my tears I just sobbed and sobbed until he was gone. I cannot take any more of this heartbreak, my two best boys are gone. I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest, I am so devastated, I cannot stop crying, I cannot eat or sleep. I had to write my feelings down I have written many poems for Barkley and posted them on "The Rainbows Bridge" now I will have to write for Oscar. I hope they are running, playing and swimming together, and that they are happy and pain free. People can be so cruel as you know they are thinking well "its just a dog" they weren't just dogs they were my children.