TWELVE WEEKS
Oh how I ache in the depths of despair.
Knowing that you are no longer here.
I am drowning in tears of sadness.
Knowing you are no longer here to bring me gladness.
Sometimes I wish that I could be with you.
The pain is still intense how can I get through?
It has been 12 weeks and I am still grieving.
Your loss has left me night and day forever weeping.
This ache in my heart will not go away.
I wish you were here with me, and you would stay.
I dreamt of you the other night.
You were so close and I held you tight.
I did not want to let you go.
When I released my hold you walked away through the mist.
I ran after you but you were gone, and I was lost.
I searched and searched calling your name.
I did not want to wake up, I wanted to find you and bring you home.
Did you visit me in my dream? Oh please come again.
Why does this pain forever stay, I only wish that it would go away.
I want to remember the great times we had.
But for now all the memories make me so sad.
What will it take for this ache to subside.
The only thing is for you to be at my side.
I gaze at your picture everyday.
I want to take you for walks in the park where you used to play.
I am drowning in a sea of grief.
I cannot swim away I cannot get relief.
It is a dark and cold place where I now dwell.
How long must I be here it is like hell.
I don't understand what I have done to deserve this pain.
Why were you taken from me? I ask myself again and again.
I should be happy that you are not suffering any more.
It is me who is now suffering. I cannot go on much longer that's for sure.
I try to think happy thoughts as I know you would not want me to be sad.
But for now this hole in my heart hurts so very bad.
When I write next time it will be of the good times we shared.
Stay close my "Baby" and don't be scared.
You are in a better place and Cancer free.
One day our paths will cross and you will again be with me.