hi my 5 yr old dog Nuka died not long ago but i cant understand why? The thing that hurts me more was that i had to watch him die. we took him to the vet the day before and the vet suggested he had swollowed a bone and insisted an operation, that night my baby boy nuka passed on and we couldnt do anything to save him. i blame myself for whats happened and i wish he was here with me where he belongs. i used to believe in god but now i don't. why did he have to go? it wasnt his time. the next day the vet rang us and said that it was a growth and it must have ruptered. i didn't even get a sign that my poor baby was sick. i can't sleep at night and when i do i cry, i wake up in the morning and i feel a big part missing inside me. Please help me, my heart is broken , i cannot handle that my beloved friend is gone for good.