Jossee, Why did you leave? You knew I needed you. I couldn't live without you. I was going through a difficult time in my life. Then you had to get sick and die. I never got to say goodbye. I wait for you to come back to me and tell me you never left. It wasn't long ago that I cried into your fur whenever I had a tough day and didn't want to go on. You helped me through it all. Then you died. You knew I didn't know what to feel at first. I couldn't feel anything for a while. I distanced myself out. I cried myself to sleep most of the time. By the time my dad got arrested, I knew that I wanted to die. You knew I wanted to die. I told you all the time. I tried so hard. I didn't think about the consequences that it would bring for my family. I just wanted to be in a place that I no longer could take out rage on anyone else. I knew I would go to hell but I needed to leave this life and go onto another. I didn't care how much more pain I would feel down there than I did up here. That is all I wanted to say to my sweet baby. I hope I will make my wish come true but I also hope to see you in the future to. Tell your friends hi for me. I hope that if I don't come back that you find a little child that never owned a pet that wants one to love.