Twenty Four Hours have passed since you left me. I am so sorry that I had to have you put to sleep, but it was time and you were trying so hard to tell me. I pray that you are now with Dot. She will be so pleased to see you and I know that she will take such good care of you for me.

Raji, I love you so much and have done for the last 17 years. You have been my faithful and loyal friend, shared my hopes, dreams and despair. I already miss you more than words can say.

I am so sad Raji and I haven't stopped crying for over 24 hours, but it seems to be the only way I can let the hurt out.

I have been through all your photos and have a beautiful one of you by my bed, while I wait for you to come home again.

My heart is broken into a million pieces and I don't know what to do, the hurt is so over whelming.

I am getting a pague made for the tree in the garden and I have made a stone for you, so that I have something tangible to remember you by. The pain of losing you will never leave me and I will carry you in my heart every single day.

I know you were old and I know it was time and I pray that you did not suffer as you tried so hard to stay with me. 17 years of happiness is such a long time and I think it makes it harder for me.

Raji, I don't know what to do without you. My tears are now starting to burn. My heart is so sad at your passing but my life has been so enriched for having you my darling boy.

Raji believe me when I say I love you and I am missing you so much. I pray that I have the strength to get through this.

Love Forever
Mummy