18 days have now passed since you left me and I now have your ashes at home with me. They spelt your name wrong on the label and I had to go and get one done down the Plaza.

I have put you on my headboard, so that you are close of me always.

I think of you everyday and miss you very much. Your passing has changed my life and it is taking some getting used to. I no longer have to get up several times in the night to let you out but I still wake up to do it.

Amy is sleeping on your bed. She misses you almost as much as I do. I brought her a bean bag the other day as your bed still upsets me and I am trying so hard not to cry all the time.

I changed the room around to see if it helps but I don't think it does.

I can't believe that you are not here anymore and I miss you so much when I come from home work and you are not here. 17 years is a long time to love somebody and 18 days is no where long enough to stop the pain.

I am so blessed to have had you for so long, but you know what Raji -I think it makes it harder. I am full of regrets at the moment as I forgot to ask for your collar, as I was so upset and now I wish I had. I have your little coats and a little of your hair, some pictures and a whole lots of memories in my head.

I do hope you are at Rainbow Bridge playing with Emma and Nick and I do hope you are healthy again.

I am still so over whelmed with sadness and I miss you so much.

I guess I am just writting this letter to you again to tell you how much I love and miss you, but you already know that.

Thank you for being my friend and loving me.

Love you always
Mummy