Well has been a whole year since I had to let you go. I want you to know that I let you go because I loved you so much. Your last few years were filled with vet visits, meds and sleepless nights. Trying to get your meds down you became a fight to the finish. You learned that if you ate the cheese around your pill that I would wrap more cheese around it. That way by the time you finally took the pill you had almost a whole piece of cheese. This would take place almost 3 times a day. The day that a thunderstorm hit and you slept right through it I knew you were going deaf. If you had heard it you would have been in the tub. I never did understand why you did that. Then when I thought things for you might be ok you woke me up at night with your first seizure. I lost count on how many you had. They were awful to watch. Each time you had one I would hold you and sing Amazing Grace. Then wisper in your ear that if it was time to go that it was ok and for you to go. Then one day I was in the back of the house Cheyanne was with me. All of a sudden she tore out of the bedroom in a mad run. Almost takeing me down. When a full grown rottie hits you going full speed its like getting hit by a mack truck. I was stuned at first. Then went to see what had her in such an all fire hurry. There she stood in the livingroom. She was standing over you trying to keep you from hitting the wall. You were in full blown seizure. From then on she was by your side. At night when we watched tv you two would lay side by side on the floor. It looked so funny one huge dog and one small one. Then on August the 4th 2009 you started to walk backward. You cried out in pain when you tried to eat. The next day I took you to the vet. Somehow I knew that this was to be our last trip. Before I left with you I let your doggie sisters say goodbye. Bump who had always been a pain in your side just kind of sat a looked at you. Holly Girl who had never cared much about you watched you from the other side of the room. Kayla it was not that she did not like you it was because she had been on the streets for so long with no family that you were more of a threat to her. She was so scared you would eat all the food and there would be none left for her. You have to admit you did like your food. Then there was Cheyanne, she wanted to come with you. After all the goodbyes were said we headed off for the vets. Once there the vet said that your teeth had absessed and it was all the way down your throat. I watched them get out meds for you at home. Then I looked at you and said no more. My heart was breaking as I asked the vet if he tought it was time to let you go. He told me yes that you were really in pain. I kissed you on the head and asked you to forgive me. I told you I would see you in heaven. I am sorry I could not stay with you. If I had stayed I would not have been able to go through with it. I left you because I loved you to much. If I had stayed I would have thought only of my pain in letting you go, not of your pain in making you stay. It has been a very hard year for me. I am waiting for that special furbay that needs me. I know that you will let me know the one I am to have. Just like CoCo did when he left. But could you send me one that is not so mean. Do'nt get me wrong I love Bump, but I want one I can cuddle with out getting bit. One that does not go around with their teeth showing and growling. You know what I mean after all you were on the receving end of those teeth more that once. I would tell you she was sorry for that, but we both know that she is not. Well Kayla I guess I will let you go. I just wanted you to know that I still love and miss you very much and always will. You will forever be my candle in the wind.

Love You
Mom
Kayla--July 3rd 1994 to August 5th 2009

KAYLA IF YOU GET THERE BEFORE I DO DO'NT GIVE UP ON ME.
I'LL MEET YOU WHEN MY CHORES ARE THROUGH I DO'NT KNOW HOW LONG I'LL BE.
BUT I AM NOT GOING TO LET YOU DOWN KAYLA WAIT AND SEE.
AND BETWEEN NOW AND THEN TILL I SEE YOU AGAIN.
I'LL BE LOVIN YOU.
LOVE ME

KAYLA GO REST HIGH ON THAT MONTAIN HUN YOUR WORK ON EARTH IS DONE. GO TO HEAVEN A BARKING LOVE FOR THE FATHER AND THE SON.