As I was out tonight I thought about coming home to you. Then I remembered you're gone. I think about the first time I saw you at the mall.They brought you in a room to meet me. You yawned then used your nose to push me the ball. I had to have you.You were so small with big paws your hair, although a yellow lab was almost white and your eyes were golden brown. I thought about a little girl with light blonde hair and brown eyes and named you Holly. Your puppy years were trying,you had expensive taste.I remember the time I fell asleep on the sofa you chewed my oriental rug and magazines were strewn all over the place. Thats just one example. I don't know exactly when it was , maybe you were 2 or 3 you suddenly calmed down and gained roam of the whole place. We slept together, watched t.v.,and played.You were such a big part of my life. I taught you the word excuse me instead of move.Imagine a dog with manners.I would wake up to you rub your tummy and tell you, I loved you.If I didn't want to get up you would just give me that stare and I'd say "Okay I'm geting up" you would stand at the end of the bed until my feet were on the floor and then you would get off the bed. For so many days I would wake up and look for you, I would get home and expect you to be there to greet me. You went so suddenly I could not believe it,I didn't want to believe it.You were my best friend, my child and my companion all wrapped in one. Eight years I loved you and always will. None of my relationships with spouses ever lasted that long. It was you my Holly girl, who taught me what unconditional love is. I learned that I am capable of loving and being loved through you. Losing you took a piece of my heart, It was one month yesterday that you went to rainbows bridge. I still think about you all the time. I have been told to get another dog. No other dog could ever replace you.I know you wouldn't want me to be sad.Maybe in time I can give my love to another dog.Until then I know I have to allow myself to grieve. When or if I do get a new dog I will know in my heart I have to give my love to another dog that needs it.I know you would understand.You always loved all your furry friends and people.You were always just so sweet and friendly.I miss you.Someday we will meet again and play at the rainbow. Until then I have my memories and I will never ever forget you.