Thank you all so much for your continuing support. Every one of the emails affected me deeply, I swear it.
I have not found my Paige. I still hope. That hope, in a funny way, keeps me a pet owner. You all have inspired me in a way i cannot relate. I want to keep this short, but i will say that i am still taking measures to find her. I will never, ever give up. But the search keeps the wound fresh; whenever i don't find her, i feel as though i lose her again. Oh i would give up everything, EVERYTHING, just to know that she's ok. Doesn't that mean anything - the fact that i would trade all that i am for one thing? Doesn't that matter? Can't a will, if strong enough, make its end? It's so, so frustrating to know that you can dedicate everything you have to something and -oh- it's still out of reach.
A friend told me something interesting. He said "Thomas, if something were to happen to YOU, I would be sadder than you are right now." I think that we all have people like that in our lives. I hope that you all do. We grieve, we grieve ONLY because we celebrate life, we celebrate these relationships.
There is so much love in this place. All of you people who responded, i truly hope whoever has Paige is as kind as any one of you. As for me, I feel about the same. I do find a little comfort in the fact that there are people out there, people who - how do i say this right - people who don't have to have a reason to care. That's it. That's exactly it. I think what unites us is that trait that, perhaps, our beloved animals gave to us. And that, well, that's nice.
With love,
Thomas Head