that morning of oct 3, i saw you lying near the kitchen door. i picked you up and i noticed that you got yourself wet. immediately i got your chamois towel and i wiped your body with lukewarm water and soap... we were supposed to take that trip again to the vet for your intra fluid. but because it was raining so hard due to the storm, we postponed our trip in the afternoon. all morning, you were just beside me, lying on my side table, just as you always do, with the phone set as your pillow, while am busy with my computer. i never knew that you would leave me early that evening. you were still okay, but when i brought you to the vet, that was it. why did you leave me? we made a pact that we won't leave each other, right? i told you that i won't give up on you, and that you have to fight. am so sorry, my baby, that you were suffering so much because i don't want to give up. am so sorry that i've caused you so much pain. but then, am thankful that you let me be with you until you breathe your last. baby, you just don't how much pain it brought me when you finally gave up. even your best friend and partner missy was meowing intensely since you left. just like me, she's grieving... and yes, there were tears in her eyes also. but now i know you have finally crossed and arrived at the rainbow bridge. now, there would be no more pain and you would gain back your lost weight and you would be the most handsome cat i always knew. how could i cope up, now that i know you will no longer be around to keep me and missy company during those nights that i would stay up really late... and for the mornings that you would stand by my bedroom door to greet me and would later ask me to open the kitchen door so you could do your sightseeing... or for standing by the window sill waiting for my arrival from work. now you have to teach me to accept that you're gone... that i have to move forward. i will never forget you, my baby. thank you for all the joys and unconditional love you gave me. and when it's time for me and missy to go, i know you would again be waiting for us at the gate and the three of us would be together again. i will always love you, my baby, and you will always remain in my heart.