a three pound, ten year old chihuahah, who had been shuffled from home to home and had some rough times I feel, ended up in our care about five years ago.. she immediately showed us that she wasnt just another dog for us, but a little bit of heaven on earth, three pounds of pure love.. everyone of us loved her, my husband, my son, my daughter, we all did and she loved us back so.. with one look she could melt our hearts! But its killing me to go on without this little one.. I am disabled, home with epilepsy, as did my minnie have seizures, and asthma.. she was my little angel, my little soul-mate, she was with me all the time, she went to my doctor appointments, she went on vacations, she slept with me, ate with me..
its so empty and lonely with no minnie here.. she brought me so much comfort by just the love in her little eyes. She was so very appreciative of such small things...a scratch on the back, rub on the little head, or rub on the belly.. she was at home with us.
I've never hurt this much over a death in our family as I have for this little angel "minnie" .. she died at an animal hospital late on a saturday night, this past DEC. 9, although after midnight, it was the 10th when she passed. She was having such difficulty breathing, and I didnt know if it was a bad cold or asthma problem, I took her to the all night hospital for help, while undergoing xray of her lungs, they found she was bleeding into her lungs, and ask me for permission to euthanize, and I paniced and they went to speak with my husband, and in these moments, minnie's heart stopped on its on during a seizure. she had seizures before, but this one was bad and she was bleeding from the mouth.. they began extreme procedures saving her that seemed horrible, and my husband made them stop as he lay his head over on her and whispered in her ear as she took her last breath. I was in the waiting room crying and praying for a miracle.. I couldnt stand the last few moments of her life being so horrifying to her, my husband could see it in her little eyes.. she was so nervous and strangers taking her back in some room where they began torturous procedures in saving her which we couldnt stand and stopped. We didnt make the decision to take her life because before we could give the doctor that answer, everything went very wrong and she seized and began to die then.. in some ways I am grateful I didnt make that call...in other ways I feel sick at my stomach thinking of the unecessary suffering she may have went through in those last couple hours of life, drowning on her own blood. I want to believe she is at peace now, it hurts me so much to know we've buried her in the cold ground. Minnie was so cold natured and hated storms.. my husband build a wooden lined coffin for her, me and he, the kids all wrote something on the box and put memories/photos inside and buried her under our oak tree sunday.. I am still so sad, it hurts so bad..I miss her so..
such a little package came to us that day...so very full of love and memories I'll never forget.
Minnie girl, minnie boo, minnie cakes, minnie mouse... we know you loved us so, and we loved you so much too and we'll never forget your loving little soul, we'll carry that in our hearts for our lifetimes..you were so very special!!

Cindy Ann Savage